oh wat a night... i deff. loved every min. of it :]

<3 Stef

	have yourself a merry little christmas it was chritsmass eve lasterday! and i went over to julians took his presnet n some cookies and stuff... hes mom was happy... yah... im very very happy with him :]

i love christmas time   i really like him, a lot. it's funny how when you get through a year nothing has seemed to change, but when you look back, everything is different. you`re talking to the girl who has.. laughed . sobbed . loved . cried . smiled . yelled . screamed . sang . and has made it through it all

you know,im not a perfect girl, my hair doesn't always stay in place. i spill a lot of things, im pretty clumsy and sometimes i have a broken heart. my friends and i sometimes fight and maybe somedays, nothing goes right but when i think about it &&  take a step back, i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe just maybe i like being unperfect.

sometimes the butterflies still get me.. Can I bare to forget you, when everything we've done remains to keep me up at night And do see that I'm sorry I didn't think that you'd Ever want to be this close to me And now that it's late Please understand That I'm not too close to what you were hoping for Mistakes have misled you So what are you waiting for I didn't think you'd be like this Think you're right but you're so wrong Just try to understand I can't hold on to this For long Let's take the time to see if my Lips belong on yours tonight Living down the days you have The one and only thing you got Led you through those desperate nights They were far too late Forget the bitter taste in your mouth Wash it out down with blood The lines across your face tell stories Guarded by Your eyes Never say things have changed Yes they have It's not the same September falls soon, the start of something new Lets break the news and break it fast for us Do you understand the reason for pain? Or am I the only one who hears it? This awful melody is proof that I will never breathe. But how can I save myself behind the promises I've made Just to hold on (just to hold on) to bitterness No one needs to know of the nightmares in my head Cause I am, I am letting go (catch me as I fall) The beauty of this night is haunting me inside Watch me as I drown in this horrible sound A momentary breath is held as I step back To make sure I can feel my heart still beating strong. Disguise yourself to hide the scars It could be worse you know, so leave it how it is A monument to please these fallen dreams of mine They rest at my feet, but I know how this ends. Please bring me silence to the restless screams inside my head They haunt me every time I close my eyes I've had enough of it. Hollow and despised A picture in a burning home is all I am, all I am anymore.    ... </3

wow. havent updated on here in forever. lots of happened. mee n julian have been going out fer a month and one week  =] but sometimes the butterflies still get me.. ill write more when i get off work, i work 4-8 now whitch is good ... i like it a lot hehe