Friday, December 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 00:29:06 GMT

oh wat a night... i deff. loved every min. of it :]

<3 Stef

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 14:57:27 GMT

have yourself a merry little christmas

it was chritsmass eve lasterday! and i went over to julians took his presnet n some cookies and stuff... hes mom was happy... yah... im very very happy with him :]

i love christmas time

i really like him, a lot.

it's funny how when you get through a year nothing has seemed to change, but when you look back, everything is different.

you`re talking to the girl who has..
laughed . sobbed . loved . cried . smiled . yelled . screamed . sang .
and has made it through it all

you know,im not a perfect girl, my hair doesn't always stay in
place. i spill a lot of things, im pretty clumsy and
sometimes i have a broken heart. my friends and i
sometimes fight and maybe somedays, nothing goes
right but when i think about it && take a step back,
i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe
just maybe i like being unperfect.

sometimes the butterflies still get me..

Can I bare to forget you,
when everything we've done
remains to keep me up at night
And do see that I'm sorry
I didn't think that you'd
Ever want to be this close to me
And now that it's late
Please understand
That I'm not too close to what you were hoping for
Mistakes have misled you
So what are you waiting for
I didn't think you'd be like this
Think you're right but you're so wrong
Just try to understand
I can't hold on to this
For long
Let's take the time to see if my
Lips belong on yours tonight
Living down the days you have
The one and only thing you got
Led you through those desperate nights
They were far too late
Forget the bitter taste in your mouth
Wash it out down with blood
The lines across your face tell stories
Guarded by
Your eyes
Never say things have changed
Yes they have
It's not the same

September falls soon, the start of something new
Lets break the news and break it fast for us
Do you understand the reason for pain?
Or am I the only one who hears it?
This awful melody is proof that I will never breathe.
But how can I save myself behind the promises I've made
Just to hold on (just to hold on) to bitterness
No one needs to know of the nightmares in my head
Cause I am, I am letting go (catch me as I fall)
The beauty of this night is haunting me inside
Watch me as I drown in this horrible sound
A momentary breath is held as I step back
To make sure I can feel my heart still beating strong.
Disguise yourself to hide the scars
It could be worse you know, so leave it how it is
A monument to please these fallen dreams of mine
They rest at my feet, but I know how this ends.
Please bring me silence to the restless screams inside my head
They haunt me every time I close my eyes
I've had enough of it.
Hollow and despised
A picture in a burning home is all I am, all I am anymore.

... </3

wow. havent updated on here in forever. lots of happened. mee n julian have been going out fer a month and one week =] but sometimes the butterflies still get me.. ill write more when i get off work, i work 4-8 now whitch is good ... i like it a lot hehe

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Friday, December 30, 2005

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