Finaly!!

So BYU finaly removed the block they've kept on Xanga for the last forever and now I can update this thing!!

What a Semester!!  What a vacation!!  So much has happened.  I got amazingly sick.  I mean realy sick.  I have scars on my arms from the sores.  It was this crazy virus thing.  Living in the dorms is dangerous because you have a tendency not to sleep.  

I kinda stopped doing martial arts for two  months so I could jump start my swing dancing.  I'm pretty good for having danced less then a year, though I'm still a beginger

CHECK IT OUT:    http://www.vidiac.com/video/3036af36-917d-4dfe-94c1-9895013bf318.htm   

I got stranded in provo for Christmass and managed to relaxe a little.  Realy wanted to go home and see every one but couldn't (made me very sad) 

oh well such is life.

Did realy well on my ge credits, but took my bsa classes for granted and perfomed badly in them.  Got the first D+  ever and it will be the last.

My computer crashed, my cell was lost and I haven't gotten an new one yet, and the computer labs just opened up again.  So many folks must be so mad Because yet again I have lost touch with my closest and most far away friends for another couple months (and some are going through realy tough times)   Sorry guys!!!   I'll start writtin soon,   but I'm in the middle of mission stuff. 

Anyways enough useful talk

The good stuff (ie funny fun meaning etc) is in the old posts and in the future ones!!!!!

People:  the good stuff is in the back log!!!

foolishness or genius to suppose

I am the one who realy knows?

I want answers.  I want them handed to me on platter.    Most of all I want the vission to see the platter and remove the answer from it.  It seems the last is all any of us is lacking.

I want love I want romance. The need for it screams inside me and yet I place it aside a decision based on what is right and what is prudent and on the desire for the romance.      The word love is used to describe to many things.  I feel a certian unding emotion for my family and call it love.  I feel a certian bond and dedication to my closest friends and call it love.   I feel a fervent desire to grow with and be close to a lady in my life and call it love.       How lacking and unclear our language is.

some couplets

i should find myself on my knees

for thing other then asking please

few things are sweeter then fearing you'll fail

then conquering the treachures mountain trail

with our feet we can touch the world

but tight inside our shoes our feelers are squirled

Life is such a capricous thing (aaahh the sweet joy of anthropamorphizing (spelling?) as would infuriate my proffessors).  

 From extreme to the next in the blink of an eye.   Seems pretty commen eh?  From having friends to being lonly to having friends again (and by having I mean accsess to) it's a continous cycle.  Have you ever noticed it?  Or any other remarkable cycles in your life.   Let's see there's just living to thinking every thing through.  there's will to be healthy to no real motivation.  There's anger to peace.  Remorse to joy.  So many and yet not these labels are not nearly sufficient to explain all the mixed and jumbled things we may feel?  What could we do about this lack in our language?  What do we already do to compensate?  I think I'll wonder on that a bit and come up with an answer.  Wow

that was one of the less interesting things i've ever said.     

So let's see.............It's interesting how our government seems not designed to eliminate the cycle of the human perdicament (tyrany to revolution to anarchy to competing groups to tyrany etc)   but instead seems to give a controled form and attempt to minamise the period of anarchy.    Why revolt when you can have elections? Tyrany is diffused into many parts.  Competing groups compete without causing infringing on others rights and don't have the luxury of abusing tyrany when they get their part in it  cause they could easily have it taken away.  Such an interesting idea.     Like all good societies and governments it is still sucseptable to the curuptibility of those particapating in it.

Well as ashleigh brilliant said "I either want less curruption in the world or more oppertunity to particapate in it"