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Name: Colleen
Country: Australia
Gender: Female
Interests: books, friends, conputers, writting, reading, painting, sleeping, boys... food..., and ther are more things, i just can't remember them right now.... ANIME!
Expertise: anything i feel like!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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AIM:  babyirishdragon
Member Since:
7/22/2004
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| lifemy grandma passed away on Sunday afternoon. I'm ok. my family is doing well. we'll miss her and pray for the day that we will meet her again. i've cried, it was good. my grandpa died 3 years and a day ago, my grandma died 4days ago. both deaths are hard to think about, both people are sorely missed. i've stopped writing. it's gone. school needs to be done. | | |
| Forget about itI realized today that I am going to be ok. No matter what happens to me, I will pull through. For those of you that know me, or think you know me, understand that I am a person with many layers, the layer I show to the world rarely reflects what or how I am really feeling. Those of you who really know me can see through this well constructed layer and see how I am. This past week I have worn my emotions on my sleeve and I think that I have scared a few people who thought that they knew me. Also this week I have realized that I am losing my friends slowly. it's nothing that they have done, I’m just disconnecting and pushing people away because I’m insecure about myself right now and I feel that I need to be honest and say that I'm not doing well right now. I'm not sick, I’m not getting sick, and I’m not going more insane or even going sane... I am lost. I don't talk about my faith a whole lot because I don't want to, but I feel that people need to know where I stand. So these are my beliefs:
1.) There is only one God and no matter what name you call Him by He still listens
2.) All people deserve to be treated like human beings, from child molesters to Mother Teresa
3.) There in no such thing as someone who was born inherently evil, all people choose to be good or evil, so deal with it!
4.) No one deserves to die, it is much worse to have to live the rest of your life missing the people you love and facing the consequences of your actions, then being able to die
5.) Jesus loves everyone, but that does not mean that I even have to like them…
6.) Having faith that Jesus is the son of God saves you, good works are just the perks
7.) Having money isn’t the sin, it’s what you do with it and how much you value it
8.) Reading the Bible in context is almost as important as reading the Bible
9.) The Bible doesn’t hold all of the answers, sometimes you have to just pray
10.) I know that I know nothing and so I know more because of it. All of those things aren’t directly from the Bible, obviously, but I still believe them and they have a part in how I believe in this crazy religion. I also believe that while other religions might not have it all right, they don’t destroy the world. Oh… 11.) CATHOLICISM IS PART OF CHRISTIANITY! Anyone who thinks differently is an idiot. That’s it… I think… | | |
| Beyond the Reach of Time
So I used to believe that if I tried hard enough that I would be untouchable, or at least beyond the reach of those that could hurt me. But since creating this page and affiliating myself with the idea of being "beyond the reach of time" I have found out how within the reach of pain and time that I am. My heart is breaking slowly not for the life that I have led, but the time I've wasted crying for those that didn't care for me, or just used me for their benefit.
Nothing taught me this more that living in another country. I made amazing friends there and I don't regret leaving the states for five months. I regret not keeping in touch with as many people as i should have. I regret not being the best friend that I could be for the people that I left in the states while I was gone.
Since coming back, I have learned who I can count on, and surprisingly it's not everyone that I thought it would be. There were some people that I figured that I wouldn't be able to count on, and have since found out that I can.
The feelings that have been building up inside of me for the past few weeks have bubbled up and over the wall I've had to rebuild. So if I seem short with you, or it feels like I don't like you, you're probably right at this point. I no longer care if everyone thinks that i'm a nice person, I'd rather have a few enemies, than try to make everyone my friend, because, if you just go around being nice to everyone, you'll never know who you can count on. here I'll end my piece and let you all to bed and rest. Take care you all, no worries, you really are my friends.
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| so...So... I'm back on campus and I'm not sure how i feel about it.
I'm alreay sick of people.
My fish is trying to kill itself right now, and it's pretty amusing....
I'm sitting at my desk and i'm wearing a really freaking nice shirt and i'm going to be putting on red heels...
I burned my hand on an iron and it's blistered.
I have no idea what i'm going to do with all of the free time I'm going to have this semester.
I think I might sleep.
Do fish have tongues?
I'm pretty sure, that I need to shoot myself before the semester starts, but have a feeling that even that won't make coming back here good...
I'm looking forward to harrassing freshmen tonight, not too bad, but within reason.
these were my thoughts of the day!
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