things have changed....it appears to be a better change than i thought college is A LOT different than high school. i mean technically it's about the same because it is a school and everything, but idk. to me it's different. i like the atmosphere. i've made several new friends. they are different, but that's always a good thing. one girl is from canaan valley *or however you spell it! lol* and that just so happens to be the place my family and i love to go >.< though we haven't been in God knows how long. lol. and there's some others, but i haven't really gotten to know them like i know the chick from canaan valley. one of my friends dropped out of college. heard it was some family probs idk, but i miss seein her. she was goofy lol. it's hard to believe it's almost NOVEMBER! i mean come on. my first semester of college is flyin by. last night was my first night writing a poem in...idk how long. i think i wrote about 4 last night. one right after the other. it was crazy. my car is what i love. it IS my freedom. i wouldn't be surprised if i just took off one day. not caring where i'm going or even looking back. oh i don't think i've mentioned this yet, but i've got contacts now. i mean i do still have glasses, but i have the option now to wear either contacts or my glasses. ladies at work prefer me with my contacts >.< who knows why. oh! IT'S BEEN ALMOST A YEAR since i've been working. can you believe that? January 28 or 29th i think will make a year. wow. And i still love it there. the people are great and i've come to like everyone. i've even started speakin more and jokin around with them, so i must be feeling at home with them now. i also like it that they are willing to work around my school schedule. they WANT me to go to school, but they let me work with them also. it's hard to find a place like that. i want another tattoo so bad >.< lol, but it doesn't seem to be in my future. well not my immediate future anyways. i have a car payment, insurance, cell phone bill, gotta worry about gas. and then i start payin my mom back and helpin her with all her bills. it's hard, but i'm surviving. I just take things a day at a time. i'm just tryin to be happy =) to be ME again >.< welp i'mma go...peace =) ~*~Melissa~*~ | 
~*~Melissa loves Carl<3~*~
