BizzleBazzle's Xanga

Friday, October 13, 2006

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 13:40:30 GMT

back to the books...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 22:28:17 GMT

this is it.

It's MCAT score release day. It's 9:25 pm on October 12th. Scores come out at midnight eastern standard time, which is 11 pm here. I'm sitting at my desk trying to edit a paper due tomorrow and i can't focus. I'm very very scared and for good reason. The MCAT's went well at first, but the verbal reason was very difficult and i didn't finish all of it, and the biology seemed like it had some unorthodox material on it (with respect to previous MCAT's). I just hope it was all worth it. I spent my last two summers studying my fucking ass off, i hope i just get this break. This is all i want right now, just this break.

tonight can be the happiest or saddest day of my life thus far. here goes nothing...

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:00:07 GMT

i'm FUCKING DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Friday, August 18, 2006

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 20:57:06 GMT

you know, it's weird. the night before the mcat is like your birthday--you're probably thinking ARE YOU SERIOUS? birthdays are good things. well, allow me to rebut; you get a ton of calls the night before the mcat from family and friends, you get some text messages, you get some facebook comments, you even get GIFTS, and all in all you grow up (in a sense) because you realize that tomorrow is just an open door, if you walk through it you've paved the way for the next 6 years of your life. so happy birthday to me. here goes nothing....

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 17:37:07 GMT

the mcat is the zenith of pain. it is physically difficult to get through that motherfucker.

khagi out.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 01:10:17 GMT

one of my sparse updates to xanga, will unfortunately be one of negative emotion. today marks the end of a 3 year era. today, my girlfriend decided once and for all that it wouldn't work out if we stayed together. this was the conclusion that i was fearing for a long time, but apparently she had it in mind for much longer than i had previously imagined. i am apparently a lot of things i didn't think i, nor others thought i was for the last few months, but that's neither here nor there. the bottom line is that i still wanted to be with this girl very much and i still love her, but she doesn't want me the way i want her anymore. so basically that means it's over--fair huh? she wanted to be friends but i refused because i didn't want to feel used. after all why should she have the benefits of friendship with me if she was the one to break it off ? furthermore, if i still love her would it not be extremely difficult and heartwrenching to continue to be friends with her? of course it would. so option 2 is for me to disappear from her life. severing contact in order to hide my feelings so that they may fade with time and possibly develop a fruitful friendship with her once again. if the future holds someone else for me, then fine, so be it. but that was 3 years of good times as a couple that i wish hadn't ended with the option of tormentous friendship. i hope she's glad i hit rock bottom. but hey, nowhere to go but up now right?

Postscript, i'm solely writing this so i can look back in 6 years (if xanga exists) as a doctor with a wonderful woman by my side and say, wow, that was passive agression saturated with wasted emotion right there--but i'm glad i finally moved on because it led me to you sweetie.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 17:12:50 GMT

well, here i am at my new kick ass apartment...absolutely anyone that wants to come by can do so. i may be having a bbq on saturday or sunday, we'll see.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 22:31:22 GMT

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Thu, 25 May 2006 16:46:57 GMT

I am here....

you are not...HAHAHAHAHA

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Wed, 10 May 2006 20:38:56 GMT

I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH PRE MED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all that's left is the MCATs this august and then i can apply..

wow, feels good to never have to take those classes again (by those classes i mean any form of chemistry).

Note to self: advise others not to do pre med at washu, they will save money and it will be easier for them.

Plans for May: sleep sleep sleep, workout workout workout, ride my bike, run, nap, mexico on the 22nd for vacation (shoutout to my brosky simon!), dave matthews concert on the 30th, moving into my kick ass apartment with my kick ass roommates (shoutout to altin and neil) on June 1st so i'll be preparing for that.

all i can say is: sweet.--> and then some.