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| iss been a men min since ii been on zanga.............so many thingsz have happened..........ii Sony da otha day fa once buh his new found "revalation" ta pay attention ta me has seemed ta kum ta an end afta a short week.......ii knew iit wuddnt lass long buh of course ii qot ma hopes up aqain, as alwaysz............ii tell ma self not ta kare but ii find myself duiin juss dat..........iss a neva endiin battle wiit me Nd ma dumbass emotionsz..........liike a fukkin rollacoasta........buh ne way...................ii did anotha very bad thing da otha day Nd diss tyme ii regret iit kuz iss not how ii xpected iit ta be.........ii xpected iit ta be liike ol tymesz buh iit was watteva ta me........ma lyfe iis so takini a turn fa da woarst........iss liike all ma moralsz, self esteem, even maself has qon riite out da window.......ii don kno how ii qot diss depressed Nd wen buh iit juss happened ta kome along Nd iit wont leave me........buh oh well kuz no one seemz ta undastand Nd iss not liike ii kan xplain iit ta n e one...eitha dey'd juss blow iit off or start talkiin bout dem selfsz or a tyme wen they were depressed.....ii on kno how iin n e way they think dat wudd help me seein as how ii rarely open up ta ppl Nd discuss ma emotionsz Nd den dey start makiin iit all about dem........((Nd niqqaz wonda y ii stay by ma self ta ma self))......ii alwaysz feel liike i iqot onlii me ma self Nd ii Nd alot ppl juss make me feel more Nd more liike dat iisz xactly da way iit iisz..............maybe wen ii turn 18 Nd qet outta dis place maybe, juss maybe, ii'll change......kuz sumthin has to
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| lemme tell you bout yestadaii............iit was such a fuqqiin disasta............
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| yestadaii we leff skool round 3ed per cuz we really aiin feel liike stayiin iin skool........ii aiin qo ta first or 2nd...........we was juss walkiin around nd chillen nd shyt............we walked madd far ta cop sum bud 4rm ab nd he aiin even have nun on him........y he aiin juss tell us dat ii on kno..........so we qot a riide 4rm dutches ta qabsz ........Monii went baqq ta skool...........we was tight cuz we was liike we cudda qot our attendance on nah ii mean..........buh afta iit happened iit was type funny..............qabsz qot dis flat iron dat does wonda`sz fa ma hair............iit look press nd shyt......den she curled iit.........ii was lookiin soOoOooOoOoOOoo FLYy..........ii was like ii need ta qo see sony lookiin liike dis.............. tadaii ii aiin qo ta 2nd dass iit...............round 7th per ii wasnt feeliin qud so ii had ta dip ta da nurse buh of course dey cudnt du nuthin fa me .................reesse nd qubsz lef 9th so ii had ta take da bus all by ma self...........de nii cudnt fiind da bus cuz iit was parked iin a different spot.........wen ii qot ta qabsz dey w | | |
| tadaii was ok.............ii mad certain ppl whom ii need not name qot nuthiin betta ta du den ta qet all friendly witt a bytch who defintiely aiin fuqqiin witt me.................iss aiight doe..........iim sure as hell not qon stoop ta dey level........iim so above dat............ii had ma hair out.........madd pplsz was giviin me complimentsz.........truss ii was madd qassed fa a moment............let da hype qet ta ma head riite quicc ((((lmao )))) afta skool we was qon qo ta da village buh since we was on da N43 we decided ta juss qo ta da mall..........fa sum reason ii on memba iit takiin dat lonq.....iironically we aiin buy no belly ringsz nd dat was da whole reason fa us qoiin........we juss bout sum food................toco bell once agaiin............we seent arrianna who use ta qo ta hempstead high nd shyt.........she wurk at spencers.......................we aiin peep no cuties ((((maybe cuz we wunt dere long enuff buh den again we are iin li)))) we actually didnt get lost...........iim startiin ta kno ma way round ROosevelt field mall............ii wanna qo see anotha movie...........Deja Vu was poppiin...................iim tight cuz iim tired a liviin here ...........iss liike strait up jail...........kant du shyt wit out haviin ta cut or hurry up nd sneak iit afta skool.............nd dass da bullshyt............ii kant wait till ii aiin qotta du dat no more Nd ii no longa got ta "Li3 aBOuT Us"
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| tadaii was a qud day..........we sol da sidekikk fa a buck fity ta a spanish dude even doe he new it had a locc code nd dat one a da buttons wasnt wurkiin propa............nd sharell sol him ha boyfriendsz sidekikk 3 charga fa $10.........so ii qave qabsz da $10 she put iin fa R-U..................nd we bump dat ii bout dem taco bell .........we was chilliin juss talkiin bout sumthingsz u kno gurlsz talk nd shyt liike dat.........buh den we had ta go.........as usual.........ii took a nap..........ii on memba wat ii dreamed about buh ii kno iit was qud............buh wen ii woke up ii was feeliin really down fa no reason.........ii kant even say no reason cuz deresz a reason fa errything nd behind errything...buh ii on kno wat da reason was ......dass juss how ii was feelin.........
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