| new xanga: www.xanga.com/jay_owns ____________________ Sunday: ugh. i knew this would i happen. i so called it. :[[[ _______________________________ the new brand new cd is my favorite. it feels as though i havent been to school in forever, such a lancination going is. im ready for christmas and christmas break to come. thanksgiving was lame, but hey at least no school. friends? life? love? family? good, good, ugh, good. my friends are all amazing, im sorry im 98% of the time a bitch, i realize that even if you say im not. im not a good friend, i admitt that, im sorry...most of the time im unable to to take care of myself and often mess up things that are good. im sorry. my moods change like crazy but im not bipolar, just a human. im sorry. but im also female which equals about a hundred more issues. im sorry. please dont get angry or mad at me when im being me, i cant help it, its me. im not perfect nor do i strive to be, thats not who i am so if you dont like it then stop trying to be my friend. im sorry i tend to push things and very impaient. i never intended to cause so much drama in such a short period of time. im sorry. i understand i am not able to be with my friends every moment of everyday and thats fine with me, but please dont tell me were good friends if we barely hang out and im not talking things such as a car ride home as hanging out. im sorry, but as i see it hanging out is when its you and the other people/person actually being together, indulging in a conversation perhaps or just being together doing whatever. im sorry if you dont see it that way, but please talk to me. i know your busy and i dont want to sound barbarous but i mean come on, there has to be sometime. im sorry. im sorry i tend to over act over the smallest of things but thats just me. i try my hardest to be the best friend i can be, but it just never seems good enough. almost a year, ive tried my best. im sorry for all the times ive screwed up. im sorry i talked to the people you dislike, my only hope was to forgive and froget the past things, and it worked until i saw how upset you were. im sorry. i tend to envy the people before me and even get jealous at some times. im sorry. christmas is coming up, im super excited. im not expecting much from anyone, if anything at all, but i dont care. i love giving people gifts. christmas has always been a good holidays but this year is special. all new people in my life and im excited to spend the holidays with them. their my favoritest people in the world. love? yeah...ive got nothing i love my best friends? he makes me a better person. she makes me a better person. he makes me a better person, he makes me understand. she makes me love life. he makes me smile. he makes me talk. she shows me how to live life. he listens and is such a great help to me. he is my bestestest friend forever. she is my girlfriend. he is my goofy goober. i love people who show me the way, the right way. their able to help, listen, and understand me. whether weve known eachother for a year or a few weeks, it doesnt matter. youve proved to me that you will always be their for me, thank you for that. its nice to know sometimes that you have friends that will always be there for you no matter the time, day, year, place. i love my favorite 3. family is family, they will always be family. thanksgiving was good with the family and the web-cam with the rest of the family out in cailfornia. christmas will all be together again. im cant wait till i hit up europe with my mum, it seems so far away, yet so close. i wish it would just hurry up and get here... i havent anything left to say. im sorry... now for geometry |
