its been 969 since i started this xanga and they still think there's a chance they'll get my money...whores

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i'm too old for this shit.

Wiser, but not by much

Wah wah I finally got my phone back and I get my computer within the next few days so I can be back out there with you kids. I feel so outta the loop...ah well I guess that's one reason why I might be *sigh* looking forward to school. September 5th. Gotta love how I have one less month of school what with the senior status and whatnot. I miss my friends and I'll miss em when I get out, but I know their numbers and stuff and just cuz we don't go to school together anymore doesn't necessarily mean we can't hang out, right?

well I've been doin my own thing and kinda finding new stuff to do. I've made better friends with the ones I have now, I've gotten closer to them. I guess when you spend a lot of time with someone, you really get to know them and it makes being around them feel like home. like everything's right for once. friends like that aren't exactly a dime a dozen. most times I've tried to hang out with other kids or just try to reconnect, its either like we just left the room for a sec and picked up where we left off, or there's that awkward conversation in a sad, pathetic attempt to regenerate what was lost. I guess if we could have what was, then we would have what is now. we wouldn't grow, we wouldn't learn and we wouldn't gain anything from experience, joy and heartache. one thing I've learned from my studies is that suffering has to exist for redemption. without suffering, there would be no compassion. without bad, there would be no good, fundamentally.

I guess thats enough for now and I'll update when I get a minute. this is the part where I insert the obligatory "I love Crystal", but you all know that.

may peace be with you as it is with me.

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