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Wednesday, July 16, 2008

FRUSTRATION

Have you ever read that book "The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day"? I have. I actually experienced one today....oh, not the whole day, mind you...just the first half. So this is what happened....

On the way to work, I hit EVERY SINGLE RED LIGHT...except one...that was yellow and it was on Euclid and Lambert (no, I'm not bitter :P *chuckles)

When I got to work, I was expecting the peace and quiet of the office to soothe my tattered nerves. It didn't.

I got sent to the attic to take inventory. Once up there, I realized what a HUGE task it was and I sat down on a chair that wasn't there...don't mock me.

After about 1/2 hour of a hot attic, I got smart and turned the air conditioning on...oh yeah, now we're getting smart.

5 minutes later, someone who hadn't realized I was up there, turned off the lights on the stairwell. So...I had to struggle my way down the stairs in the dark to find the light switch.

So between all that and being clumsy beyond belief, I staggered through my day *sighs* I guess that suffices... no need to further embarrass myself :)

Around 11 o'clock I took a break, driven to my bible in near tears of anger and frustration...and I read this verse:  "We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed - always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body." - 2 Cor. 4:8-10

WOW.

Although I thought I had it bad...Christ had it worse. Here I was complaining about small inconveniences when He suffered and died a brutal death...all so I wouldn't have to. The verse reminded me of God's immense love...so powerful that He was willing to die when He didn't have to. Surely I could get through my workday in 1 piece!

After reading that, as you can imagine, my perspective was dramatically changed. Even though I smashed my finger in a door, dropped a plastic tub on my food, and hit my head in the attic, I reminded myself that it was a small price to pay and it wasn't worth sacrificing my joy over.

With all the frustration out of the way, I was able to notice things I had not looked for earlier. I saw the butterflies, "stopped to smell the roses" if you will...and the day seemed SO much brighter.

So...next time you lock your keys in your car, remember that verse (and call AAA *grin* I have key-less entry on my car....jealous? *wink*) and try to enjoy the day...even if it ends up being a "Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad, Day" ;)

God Bless!


Sunday, July 13, 2008

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My Paper Heart
By Francesca Battistelli
I'm Letting Go
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OOh...I found another one! *tear*

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~ Author Unknown

Dear Patrick,

I was then an only child who had everything I could ever want. But even a pretty, spoiled and rich kid could get lonely once in a while so when Mom told me that she was pregnant, I was ecstatic. I imagined how wonderful you would be and how we'd always be together and how much you would look like me. So, when you were born, I looked at your tiny hands and feet and marveled at how beautiful you were.

We took you home and I showed you proudly to my friends. They would touch you and sometimes pinch you, but you never reacted. When you were five months old, some things began to bother Mom. You seemed so unmoving and numb, and your cry sounded odd --- almost like a kitten's. So we brought you to many doctors.

The thirteenth doctor who looked at you quietly said you have the "cry du chat" (pronounced Kree-do-sha) syndrome, "cry of the cat" in French.

When I asked what that meant, he looked at me with pity and softly said, "Your brother will never walk nor talk." The doctor told us that it is a condition that afflicts one in 50,000 babies, rendering victims severely retarded. Mom was shocked and I was furious. I thought it was unfair.

When we went home, Mom took you in her arms and cried. I looked at you and realized that word will get around that you're not normal. So to hold on to my popularity, I did the unthinkable ... I disowned you. Mom and Dad didn't know but I steeled myself not to love you as you grew. Mom and Dad showered you love and attention and that made me bitter. And as the years passed, that bitterness turned to anger, and then hate.

Mom never gave up on you. She knew she had to do it for your sake.

Everytime she put your toys down, you'd roll instead of crawl. I watched her heart break every time she took away your toys and strapped your tummy with foam so you couldn't roll. You struggle and you're cry in that pitiful way, the cry of the kitten. But she still didn't give up.

And then one day, you defied what all your doctors said -- you crawled.

When mom saw this, she knew you would eventually walk. So when you were still crawling at age four, she'd put you on the grass with only your diapers on knowing that you hate the feel of the grass on your skin.

Then she'd leave you there. I would sometimes watch from the windows and smile at your discomfort. You would crawl to the sidewalk and Mom would put you back. Again and again, Mom repeated this on the lawn. Until one day, Mom saw you pull yourself up and toddle off the grass as fast as your little legs could carry you.

Laughing and crying, she shouted for Dad and I to come. Dad hugged you crying openly.

I watched from my bedroom window this heartbreaking scene.

Over the years, Mom taught you to speak, read and write. From then on, I would sometime see you walk outside, smell the flowers, marvel at the birds, or just smile at no one. I began to see the beauty of the world through your eyes. It was then that I realized that you were my brother and no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn't, because I had grown to love you.

During the next few days, we again became acquainted with each other. I would buy you toys and give you all the love that a sister could ever give to her brother. And you would reward me by smiling and hugging me.

But I guess, you were never really meant for us. On your tenth birthday, you felt severe headaches. The doctor's diagnosis --leukemia. Mom gasped and Dad held her, while I fought hard to keep my tears from falling. At that moment, I loved you all the more. I couldn't even bear to leave your side. Then the doctors told us that your only hope is to have a bonemarrow transplant. You became the subject of a nationwide donor search. When at last we found the right match, you were too sick, and the doctor reluctantly ruled out the operations. Since then, you underwent chemotherapy and radiation.

Even at the end, you continued to pursue life. Just a month before you died, you made me draw up a list of things you wanted to do when you got out of the hospital. Two days after the list was completed, you asked the doctors to send you home. There, we ate ice cream and cake, run across the grass, flew kites, went fishing, took pictures of one another and let the balloons fly. I remember the last conversation that we had. You said that if you die, and if I need of help, I could send you a note to heaven by tying it on the string of any balloon and letting it fly. When you said this, I started crying. Then you hugged me. Then again, for the last time, you got sick.

That last night, you asked for water, a back rub, a cuddle. Finally, you went into seizure with tears streaming down your face. Later, at the hospital, you struggled to talk but the words wouldn't come. I know what you wanted to say. "Hear you," I whispered. And for the last time, I said, "I'll always love and I will never forget you. Don't be afraid. You'll soon be with God in heaven." Then, with my tears flowing freely, I watched the bravest boy I had ever known finally stop breathing. Dad, Mom and I cried until I felt as if there were no more tears left. Patrick was finally gone, leaving us behind. 

From then on, you were my source of inspiration. You showed me how to love life and live to the fullest. With your simplicity and honesty, you showed me a world full of love and caring. And you made me realize that the most important thing in this life is to continue loving without asking why or how and without setting any limit.

Thank you, my little brother, for all these.

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Life is so uncomplicated through the eyes of a child; so beautiful. If only we could all have the same perspective! To live today, enjoy life, see the beauty in everything...because you never know when you'll be called away.

Matthew 24:36
"But of that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven,but My Father only"


Touching Story I read!

This story is just insane....sooO sad but yet, so true for most of us.

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~ Author Unknown

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.

"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me.

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know," the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide.

The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are.

Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!! There's a miracle called Friendship That dwells in the heart You don't know how it happens Or when it gets started But you know the special lift It always brings. And you realize that Friendship Is God's most precious gift!

Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us. Show your friends how much you care....

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Doesn't that just boggle the mind? Goodness...what a crazy story *shakes head*


Friday, July 11, 2008

Random Thoughts And Observations :D

Here's some random thoughts and observations from my overly burdened and exhausted mind. I'm suffering from lack-of-production-syndrome and I have the incessant need to do SOMETHING over the summer...I wonder if this is how retired people feel...? Anyways, I've been doing nothing but work and socializing so I'm pretty worn out. Sorry to all the people I haven't taken the time to get back to! It will happen soon! =D I cant wait for the weekend so I can do more fun, hard labor!! =) Enjoy;

1. Bubbles are the single most amazingly fun thing to play with on a windy hill, with a five year old :D

2. File cabinets are  heavy and should not be kicked.

3. Learned a new surf word:  Haletious (?) I guess it means horrible *shrugs*

4. Up close, skunks are actually quite cute. (as long as they don't spray you!)

5. There is a strong possibility that I'm afraid of heights.

6. Surfing 8 hours straight probably isn't a good idea for my muscles.

7. Five foot waves tend to be intimidating...I don't care what anyone says!

8. I've decided that bike riding at 7am isn't as bad as I thought it was.

9. Sunburn was not as bad as the peeling. =P Okay, maybe it was...

10. Clearing out my room is going to be such a hassle.

11. Summer feels like its nearly over and I still haven't done anything really productive.

12. I. like. poems.....a lot.

13. Haven't seen a single movie since the day Prince Caspian came out. I want to see something!

14. My pool is awfully warm...even at 11pm.

15. The art of speech and debate is applicable in any situation...seriously.


Thursday, July 03, 2008

Currently Listening
Roots Run Deep
By Jadon Lavik
Tis So Sweet
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THE FLY!!!

Isn't it funny how we can get distracted and bothered by the smallest things?

Why just last night I was peacefully getting ready for bed when SUDDENLY...a little fly began buzzing around my room. Now we all know how small and insignificant, yet how ANNOYING, a fly can become. There is a reason they're called "bugs". True to his name, this little guy fluttered about my room without a thought in his pea-sized brain (if that!) I frantically searched for the flyswatter and to my utter disappointment, could not find one.

"A small aggravation, and nothing more" I assured myself, hoping (more like PRAYING) it would go away. It was not to be *cries* For about a half hour, I sat in my room hoping the thing would just fall down and die. I tried to deny its existence. I tried to hide from it. I tried everything! Even exterminating it with a whiff of my sister's body spray! Nothing seemed to work.

Isn't that the way it is with sin? We all know its there and its annoying as heck but we fail to do anything about it sometimes. We try to convince ourselves that its going to "go away" or that it will just suddenly stop buzzing around your head...but, of course, that is not likely to happen. The irritation of your sin gets louder and louder and more pushy until you think you cant stand another second of it!

Of course, you could have just dealt with it right away...with the right tools. I'm not saying that Christ is like a flyswatter- because that would just make this analogy so much stranger ;) -but we have things at our disposal that we often times do not use in the face of sin. Instead of getting rid of it while its small, we allow the harassment to get out of hand and to (very nearly) begin to dictate your sanity!!! *chuckles*

When you don't deal with sin right away, it spreads into other areas of your life as well. When I had successfully killed the fly (with my shoe...EWww), to my complete horror, I spotted a spider climbing up my wall. You can obviously guess where it went from there...that's right...I went crying to my daddy to kill the spider *nods*




Yup, its ugly, stupid, and gross..."sin" is a Greek word for "missing the mark" which basically means that while we may think we're living our lives in an acceptable manner, there's no way we can live up to the standard of perfection. God put that standard in place and we violated it through disobedience. Thank God for Jesus coming down and bridging that gap because I get plumb worn out striving to "kill the fly" or "hit the mark" on my own!

I've been learning a lot this week about grace, mercy, and the differences between them. I had always known what they were but I didn't really understand what they entailed. Grace is getting what you don't deserve (like a lollipop for a rebellious child). Mercy is not getting what you do deserve (Like punishment for disobedience). I'm sure glad that we have such a loving Father who is also perfectly just when dealing with His kids.

Some people may feel "entitled" to this or that from the church or other people... because they "deserve" it, but I'm just glad that I don't get what I deserve! Eternity in Hell?! No thank you (I'm sure there'll be plenty of flies there) At the same time, when we repent of what we've done, God's grace abounds! Instead of giving us the punishment that was meant for us, He allowed His SON to take the beatings, the bruisings, scorn, hate, and death for us.

That just boggles my mind.

But to allow ourselves to lose sight of all that...for a few moments of "pleasure" in sin...is totally not worth it. Sin may seem harmless enough at the moment, but its end is destruction. Always.

SO KILL THAT DARN FLY BEFORE IT GETS OUT OF HAND! ;)



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