..Yeaaap.
I've been labeled as a certified failure all over again. I totally bombed first semester thanks to my stupid fucking laziness. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! I hate myself so goddamn much! I need to DIE.
No, really. Suicide has been one of my top thoughts all during break. Stupid fucking depression. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! My mom hates me, too.
:: More cursing. ::
I wish, I wish, I wish I had a knife. Yeah, that'd be nice. Mm, sharp things.
I'm planning on skipping out on lunch 2nd semester. Since it's my study hall, I can just work all through it. Besides, 1st lunch means Drew and Bill and being ignored. So I may go once or twice, but other than that, 5th hour = full blown study hall.
I'm also going to try and be on the computer (as hard as it'll be) as little as possible. This goes for the phone, too. Even after I get all homework done. Nope, no slacking off for me!
I'll stop watching TV, reading books, all to do my homework.
Yay for me! I hope this makes my mom happy!
...I'll be depressed as the shit and doing well in school.
Can't win 'em all, though, can you?
She'll get the fuck over it. Though, I think no matter how good my grades get, it'll never really be good enough for anyone.
Christmas was okay, leave for the awful fighting between me and mom. But then I went to see LotR with Drew and Kat. That was nice, sitting next to him for almost four hours. I was happy.
Now, it seems like it doesn't even matter in the least. I'm that depressed. I suppose I should shut up and stop complaining before I get bitched out.
Mood: Depressed, worthless, annoyed, lonely.
Music: Finger Eleven - "Stay and Drown"
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