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Saturday, July 19, 2008

  • Inkling


    Things that I would love to do but won't:-

    Tattoo-ing

    I thinks it's cool to have designs that accentuates your body. But it also means that since it is regarded more so as an accessory, you got to be an exhibitionista donning one. Ok, fine. Nothing wrong showing some skin, after all it's mostly on the shoulder or arms - unless you wanna be more daring. That is one part where I am thinking of doing one.

    But I won't because I really can't risk getting Hepatitis. Didn't say all paint job shops have shoddy hygiene requirements, but I just have to be wary. My job relies on me keeping a clean bill of health, Hepatitis is an infectious listed disease among the most unwanted on the employment list. Even with stuff like vaccination and being alive with adequate treatment, that part of being sick doesn't scare me at all. I've worked and dealt with hepatitis patients, I have no fear caring for them.

    This part of taking chances is way out of my league. I can't put a career which I built upon after 4 years of study and many more years of working for the sake of looking good. If I hate my job as much, fine - ink away. But no thank you, I still wanna keep myself in clinicals.

    Plus, I am overly jaundiced fair. My genetics, my indoor-ism is to blame. But not for all things, I can easily disguised myself as Chinese, or maybe Filipino, Japanese and Koreans (sans the squint eyes) when I work overseas. And I love the radiant shine it brings to my face, although pairing it with my genetically black hair turns me pale. That's why I tend to dye my hair. He, he...

    As for tattooing, powder meets charcoal is not a good combo. Tan people have better muscular definition even if they are not that stuffed. And black ink blend well with the lines, making it not so obvious as something out of place. But with very fair people like me, it's like a white canvas sprayed with black murals. It's so striking and attention whoring. The blinding whites already engulf the bodily contour, creating no shape at all.

    So, it's all about dreaming and stickers or spray-on for me. Which is Ok since I am so dynamic, I might hate one design and change as I please.





    New Zealand Maori tribal designs is among the coolest I've seen. Extending from the upper arm way to the back, accentuating more if you got a muscular arm to boot with. Just one of these is enough to look good. I think Dwayne Johnson aka 'The Rock' really made it popular.

    Just to make a point: just because it looks good on him, doesn't mean that it will be fine on ya! Nyah! Nyah! Nya!


Wednesday, July 16, 2008

  • women are just stupid


    Henry, played by Christopher Gurham will be leaving Ugly Betty on the next season.     Gurham is pursuing another TV series role.

    I was like...

    YEAH!!!


    Bye! You won't be missed.

    Finally. As much as I think Betty is stupid for falling for a guy who had fathered a child, will be living somewhere else with the girlfriend (yup) when the child is born, leaving Betty soon after ... she was just that: the typical real life girl next door, soon to make the same mistake. And you know what was even more stupider than that? She choose to spend the precious (sic) days left before the departure date with Henry. Well, knowing that he will leave her soon - heartbroken and damaged.

    Face it: men makes mistakes because they can

    Women makes mistakes because they choose to.

    And women has the better half of the brain. Sometimes, that emotional (there, I said it) optimism is just that: a cancer that lurks within all the women whether they realize it or not.

    I am sick of hearing stories of women who fell for the wrong guy, had clues of that way prior to settling in. And suffering soon after, when the infatuation sizzled. Leaving them with children and single-ly employed to support them. Or still together, only that she is the one being the sole breadwinner while the husband job hops. Or worse, stucked within an abusive relationship - either emotionally or physically. With the children the only bond that is left that keep the fake relationship alive.

    Then, they wish that they never get hitched. Ever.

    What gives?

    It's the same old conversation that I heard over and over in the pantry room. The same role that I played when they start to pour their hearts out to me - that ear to listen to. And it's the same story: men who made women's life miserable in a relationship or marriage. As much as I want to blame the men, I put the blame more on the women.

    Why?

    The lack of reason when it comes to love and relationships. The fear of being single and unattached as 30 looms near. The belief that marriage life brings happiness ever after. The faith that men completes their life.

    And these women have relationships before (plural emphasis there).

    Like... huh?

    So, do you like grab whatever man that wanna be with you even if he is a jerk? Do you stay in an abusive relationship just because he is the one man that you found after a long while, fearful of losing him and not finding another? Do you like, get married because everyone else is doing it?

    If yes, you have my prayers.

    I have a few of my women friends, one whom posses one of the brightest academic minds and talents... failing to convince me why she needs to be married. She continued with her plans and will be tying the knot later this year. Since she is one of my dearest friend, I am worried that she will one day found herself in that gloomy position, when not all that is sweet is candy. Yes, I am that concerned because she is a believer in optimism and hope - sometimes disdaining reality. Or her approach of 'compensation' - one bad thing that happens, have a silver lining beneath it. Like, yeah! You don't Yahoo! Messenger me one day telling me about your sour episodes, Lidwina! I know how emotional you can be. I am not stopping you to get married dear. I am just worried about your life ideals that you hold on without considering risks. I can't Judge this Jimmy guy since I don't know him as much as I knew Anderson.

    And Ferlicia. I can't believe that you, among all of my girl friends - fell for that dick! Hurts you bad huh? I am really sad that it happened to you. But really, you - being deeply infatuated is something out of my dictionary. Because you are among those many people who have the best reasoning and outlook in whatever you do. Except that one thing. The asshole Dickens.


    And how can I forget about Sister Sally, Disi, Daisy, Nabilah, Rozani, Surayahani, Bernadine (yeah you too - I hate that overly jealous husband of yours. One that I heard is physically abusive to you).

    And Aishah, I hope you knew head on what the meaning having a relationship with a married man is. Yes, a Muslim man can marry up to four. But I bet no woman wants to share their man. And no woman should hurt another's feeling. I know deep inside, you knew very well what you get yourslef into.

    And some other people I rather not mention.

    ...

    ...

    ...

    You tell me if these mounting evidence is not enough? You tell me. As much as I hate to say this, women fails badly when it comes to evaluating all things love. Fail. Just fail. F- for all of you.


    Out before somebody says that without making that mistake, my mother won't have me

Saturday, July 12, 2008

  • ready for RMWF?


    Since yesterday, my cousin Damak has been SMSing me about the trip details to the Rainforest World Music Festival due tomorrow. Albeit anxious, anxiety and annoyance (yup, a bit of that too) that I felt, it's kinda funny that he is the one that is more enthusiastic about this. You have only been here Damak. I've been there like 6-7 times already. So relax! You asking me to call Sarawak Tourism Board about the ticket availability was like "What the hell is this?!" when I read the SMS. If the ticket habis and we can't get in, I say we just lepak at the beach or go wander around town. I was thinking about sipping some Coffee Bean or that Ipoh Town cuppa. Which is kinda impossible that ticket ran out because:

    1 - it's an open air concert with the venue being the ENTIRE Sarawak Cultural Village. This is not a seated arrangements where space is limited. Like last year, people were just like here, there and everywhere! I guess the ticket that ran out was the one being sold in the Visitor Information Centre and outlets alike. We can still get the ticket at the entrance, like last year

    2 - How can they afford to miss sales of an extravagant RM90 per entry fee? Somehow I am afraid thinking of how much they gonna charge us the coming years. Once it hits the 100 mark, then its way too el cheapo. I can't really understand the need to charge so much when the performers line up are like diminishing or not as hot as previous years. Don't tell me that fuel cost is the cause. With so many organisers, sponsors and events alike, it's not hard to imagine money not being make.

    3 - Beside the RWMF, there's also some crafts or whatever bazaar there. Think they will deny entry for that too? No, money is once again the factor, And I heard they will charge seperately for that too. How cool is that?

    4 - Taking into account the hoards of orang putih and foreigners taking advantage of their vacation to visit the RWMF as well... it's hard to imagine that all of them have booked in advance. Yes, a few do came all they way for the thing but you cannot deny the passerby that decided to take a peek and stuck.

    So relax!!!

    In a related matter, I think I have spent way too much money on the event. Excluding ticket, I have used my limited funds for clothing, shoes, hair dye, hair spray, a new sling bag and a pair of coloured contact lenses for this one night event. I dunno whether it is crazy or just plain stupid and extravagant. I did this since two years ago and I found myself repeating it again. Even if the enthusiasm and excitement kinda diminished this year. Tradition had to be continued.

    Learning from last year, I am planning to take a lot more snaps this year. And promise to be as wild as last year!

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