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Thursday, February 07, 2008

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 23:02:35 GMT

"yo yo, yo, yo, sweet boys got the flavor, yo, yo, you like to savor...."

so anyways, crazy life, a little bored these days, sitting in the lonely solitude of my computer window, accessing the interstellar world wide nothingness, i need to write some poetry not this and some stories, not this....yet I can't help it, I need to get more focused on doing what needs to be done, rather than what needs not to...anyways I wanna be more than friends with her, but I doubt that it would ever work, and I'm completely unsure if she even feels the same, so being friends is cool for now, I'm too complicated in the head to even try anyway, I need to do what I haven't done yet, what I wanna do, party it up but then again I don't fall very much into the party crowd, they all do that because they don't have anything else to do...ohh the woes of being rational...

I asked for two numbers last saturday, that makes three girls I've ever in my life asked numbers for...I like this assertiveness thing...the last two probably thought I was being cocky, but very far from it, anyways I need to work on my skills, get more friends and hopefully get an opportunity to enjoy more time with the ones I have, man its gonna be extremely difficult come school...but here's to winning this poetry contest! I need some tea.

At what age do you think a kid should be able to start dating?

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 22:44:16 GMT

it depends upon the definition of dating...and definitely on the maturity level of the kid in question....some kids should never date, while others should be allowed the opportunity, however there are great consequences that surmount from dating and also not dating, keeping your kid from dating will only want them to pursue it further, that kid might even offer up their virginity, just because for the thrill of doing something punishable or prohibited by their parents....I think this ultimately comes down to how much rationale, and how much maturity you have as a parent...it's ultimately your responsibility to guide your poor bastard in the right way, and if you work things right they won't end up knocking someone up or gettin knocked up before they graduate...its not dating thats the problem it poor parental figures and negligence, children are going to do whatever gets thrown at them, no matter what age they are.

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 21:41:34 GMT

Wow, this thing is still up,

crazy, well I've been through the trials and tribulations of having a girlfriend, falling in love, yadayada...

found myself a crazy one, apparently,

yet I loved her, I guess I was mad,

stuck with her through the drama, changed a little for her, yet we didn't end up together, I was lost for a minute, contemplated death, of course not suicide, but death, what if I died right then, would I be satisfied, so I've changed my existence, I'm now an EMT, and have a more respectable job, yet its not where I want to be for the rest of my life, so I'm on the move, going back to school, I put it off for her, my mistake, she probably believes I'll go nowhere but I will in time, I have a better head surfacing from the spineless entity I once was. Jack in the Crack, is in the past, I can't say I'll ever step in another one, but at least I'll never eat that crap again...haha! I'll probably find some other crap to infest into my damaged body, but I'm an organic fiend now. I'm healthier then I've ever been, and actually have a lot more determination, I'm getting further adequate in my world, yet I'm still lonesome, but I have real friends for once, and I have a responsibility to them. I can't put them off or my life, we have places to go, and people to make fun of, so we are on our way, just have to make it past these stages in our lives, we'll all be better off in the end, and find the pathway to....

Monday, November 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 09:56:03 GMT

hey how come my xanga isn't dead? hmm, funny. I guess because I post now and then, and haven't stopped posting, and I sign in just to comment on some people's pages....I guess. boy I need some new tunes, excuse me.......

Friday, September 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 13:12:46 GMT

"if i wanted to see true lies, i wouda bought the VHS for 8.50... " TopKwelity

dang......damn

umm there was ants in my raisin bran...man I'm so mad....why do they go after Raisin Bran...is it the raisins it has to be....I mean because they din't attack any other cereal just my raisin bran and the cheap crap my mom bought....damn those lil things all to hell....I'd love to personally bitch slap each one...that would be superb, if I had the chance....maybe someday. Oh well until that day...I'm out.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 22:35:21 GMT

eww, Nuevo Jack in tha Crack is a bitch. Only good thing about it is I can discuss what it's like over there with my fellow classmates, and they know which one I'm talkin about, since it's right across the street. Seems my job, my school, and my bank are all on the same lil fourway intersection. Life is falling together....of course two of those are eventually not gonna have me occupying the vicinities soon enough. hopefully the one that sells old ass fries...well the school sells fries, but I'm not sure if they're old though...all I know is don't get the chili fries. those'll fuck your stomach up.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 22:43:45 GMT

Nuevo Jack in tha Crack, so far is a success....Eli the manager so far is soooooooo nice, like totally!! Then there's another Jenny, Kristal, Vanessa, Fabian, this one older lady, then the usual older spanish speakin ladies...then hay muchas muchachas bonitas, there's this girl, though she's taller then me a lil, she is sooooooo cute, and her eyes are extremely pretty.....but I shouldn't get so worked up, only gonna get let down.......like always. I need to stop settin my heart out on shit......it sucks to be an optimist, knowing you should be a pessimist....but that's who I am. gotta stay positive, I'll find my girl........................................................................

and I'll work my ass off to romance the hell outta her....

here's to the future whereever it leads me.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 15:13:20 GMT

I'm in Perris!! Oh god no!!!

hey at least you can see the stars, now let's get started genociding all these flies....you lil fuckers.....

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 15:37:39 GMT

We're paintin the new house.....the livin room looks horrible, it's a good idea givin it texture and what not, but white and that green are horrible together.....but whatever...and my sis's room, the den, is worse, red and gold.....ooookaaaaaaay.......people chose terrible colors....I think I'll just leave my room white until some time later...or I'll just keep it that way forever....well it's not important the color of the room I have in my parents house is.....that'll be important in the future, or whatever..........well neway I'm out.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 17:24:08 GMT

Man! Stupid stupid stupid!!!

Why did I go?! EWWW!!

Okay, I took a trip to Six Flags yesterday, they invited me on the Fourth of July, to go yesterday the day following the fourth, and so I was like sure, at least they invited me, even though I knew they were planning something since the three of them, Eli, Naye, and Frankie all requested the day off from work, even after they told me that they weren't planning something together, I din't believe them, so they decided to finally invite me, since Monica was going.

so we worked it out, and we all to squeeze up in Frankie's car, well when we got there, it turns out they had only ten dollar tickets, and Eddie had his season pass, even Monica had a ten dollar ticket....so yeah, I was the only one who had to pay $48 to get in, and they made me stand in line by myself, the bitches.......I mean Monica you could've stood with me.....but I'm not holdin it against, I think she's the only one out of all of them, I'm considering still talkin to......

Okay so we went on three rides, yeah, and then they all got tired......I'm not the type of person who can convince people to get up and be excited, but I am at least the type of person with excitement....I mean so what if you guys are tired and shit, I do it all the time being tired and shit and still getttin up and doin shit....quit your whinin!! I built a backyard deck with about five hours sleep in my system in the fuckin heat, just like it was yesterday, so quit bitchin......

yeah, so we walked around for a little bit, tryin to decide which ride to go on, and well that's when Eli said that we were leavin at six, because she hadn't seen Hector the day before, or whatfuckinever, dang he sounds like a bombass boyfriend......

so I was pissed and walkin ahead of the rest of them, because they walk fuckin slow as fuck, I mean I was walkin at a slow pace myself, and they were walkin way slower....and then all day I was called Wetto, not Jonathan, or Jonatin, or anythin like that just wetto......I mean it's cool for the lil mexican kids at soccer to call me that, because they don't know my name, but for them all to just call me that, was fucked up, it just showed how much further apart from their shitty little clique that I am.

Yeah, so we left after shoppin for something for Eddies girlfriend, and we had to sit back in the sweaty hott ass car, worryin whether Frankie was gonna drive off the road or swerve into another lane, and kill us, I mean he kept on hitting the bumps and he drove into the lane next to us, not realizin what he was doin.....

yeah, and so I got home, and my dad looked at me, and said what're you doin home so early, I was like well they wanted to leave early or whatever, and he was like so you guys drove two hours to stay what four or five hours, and he was like that's stupid, and I was like yep it is....and anyway guess who's the only one pissed, the only dipshit who paid $48 to go on three rides,

and then paid about five dollars to get two drinks, and starved himself from any kind of food, just to accomodate them. Man, I feel cheated! Some fuckin friends, they din't wanna invite me at all, because it would've looked weird, but it already did, that the three of them, the three that are gettin in trouble for hanging out too much asked for the same day off.....if I asked for the day off it wouldn't have looked any weirder....I mean I could've at least came up with better excuses....baby showers and shit, on a weekday? right......

yeah well fuck em....aint gonna miss them in Perris.