I know, I know.. I go around in circles, it seems things never change. I know, people think I'm naive, for not changing, for not putting an end to it.

But fuck you.

I've never given up on anything in my life, why would i give up on love?

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day."

"They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday...
But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other."

Highschool is officially over. I've waited 14 years for this, to be able to graduate high school. It's not that big of a deal, only in the sense that Ive been waiting for my montgomery county public school days to come to an end. I'm gonna be honest, I'm not gonna miss everybody, especially at Magruder High School, but there will be some people that I will miss, especially two in particular, no need to mention names, they know who they are. I'm moving to Baltimore on, i think, August 25 But I'm only barely 45 minutes away, so I know I will be coming down here like every other day, maybe even every day, depending on how homesick i get, and how much i will miss my two favorite people!

Sucks for all the juniors now, they still have a year left. I'm glad I'm leaving highschool at this time though, each year it keeps getting more immature than the last. People in highschool fucking act like they're in middle school. There is all this middle school bullshit going on, and I'm so thankful I am no longer part of it. I am so glad I no longer have to deal with people that constantly lie all the time about the stupidest things just to make themselves look better in front of other people, I'm so thankful I no longer have to deal with being in class with those girls that think they're better than everyone else just because they have a tan, a real gucci purse, a little more $$ than everyone else and a fake group of friends, I am so glad i no longer have to deal with those people that think  they're so tough and call themselves "mean girls"but who did they get in a fight with? Did they have the balls to pour soup on someone else or slushie? Do you ever hear about them doing ANYTHING mean? no i dont think so, they're just stupid and mostly everybody actually is annoyed by them, I'm glad I no longer have to deal with the stuck up people that are smarter than everyone else but are arrogant enough to show it and make it obvious by looking down on other people, I'm glad I no longer have to deal with those people that act like something they are not n think they look cool doing it, you know the ones going around saying they hate posers when they themselves are one, I'm glad i no longer have to deal with those immature people who play around like they are in elementary school chasing each other through the hallways knocking everyone out of the way, its just stupid n childish and i remember doing that when i was in the third grade, I'm so glad i no longer have to deal with those people that can't keep a fucking secret n just like to put other peoples shit out there when its not their place to do that, i never knew someone cud get so bored, Im glad i no longer have to deal with girls that like to talk shit but dont act on it, and when it comes down to it and someone really does go up to their face and says something, they become speechless and have nothing to say all of a sudden, I'm so glad i no longer have to deal with people that cant stand their ground, theyll say anything to somebody just to please them, but then theyll go to the other person and do the same thing too, going against what they had just said, I'm definitely glad i no longer have to deal with any fucking wh-ales in our school or camels or killer-daddys, Im so glad i no longer have to deal with those immature,ignorant people who think partying and getting drunk n getting high is their life because in reality theyre just throwing their life away, no matter wat they say our lives start NOW, we're working hard NOW to build a future for ourselves, partyin and getting high n drunk all the time only gets in the way of that, it brings us down...Im so fucking glad i no longer have to deal with teachers pressuring us and treating us like we're 10 years old or worse, like we're a bunch of wild animals, IM SO GLAD TO BE OUT OF HIGHSCHOOL.... theres only the senior picnic, graduation, and maybe beach week that i will have left to see everybody, and then 10 years from now, ill see u bitches at reunion....

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

 So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, laà
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, laà
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Some people say whats the point of having a relationship? And hey, I agree. You break up, sometimes make-up, and then break up again... really whats the point? I see no positive outcome from labeling someone your "boyfriend" and having them label you as their "girlfriend", or vice versa. I see no point in getting your hopes up when you really do find someone special, only to have it fall apart and at the same time, tear you apart. You input so much time and energy into it, and then in the end it’s all just been a BIG WASTE. Somebody please tell me, what the fuck is the big deal in having a boyfriend/girlfriend. Whats the point in having somebody constantly by your side, or if not, constantly craving for them to be by your side, or celebrating month after month an anniversary over dinner, having somebody be there for you at all times, having somebody to wake up to/for in the morning, having somebody to always hold or always have to hold you, having somebody you can talk to whenever you really need it or in fact just having somebody to talk to, having somebody you think and wonder about 24/7, having somebody in your life that you truly care for and trust, having somebody to smile and laugh with, but most importantly having somebody love you, for you. Theres no point whatsoever in all that...right? Isnt that what you think? You’re right, who would want any of that anyway? Its soooo much better off being single. You know, how while all your involved friends are spending magical nights with their significant others, your out clubbing or partying looking for what your involved friends have, and while all your involved friends are coming home to someone that cares for them, your coming home to an empty bed because even if you did have a great time at the club or at a party or getting high or drunk, by the end of the night things don’t change, you’re still... alone and you didn’t have anyone that was special to you to have shared that fabulous time with. Yeah, being single is great, huh? If I’m confusing you, then let me just say that my tone is entirely sarcastic right now. Being single sucks. It’s so overrated, there’s always this big hype about how it’s so much fun being single because then you get to party and do wild and crazy things and you get to go to clubs and parties and meet a lot of different girls/boys and you can hook up with as many different girls/boys as you want, yadda yadda. NO. Yeah, it may seem like that to some of you, and it sure seemed like that to me at first too, but to be completely honest, I think that’s all just one big illusion for us single people to make it seem like we’re having such a great time ALONE, even though in reality, deep inside what we all really want is somebody to be there by our side too. Because if you really think about it (to all you single people), just look past all the "fun" in all that stuff, and wonder to yourself if it really was fun, and how much more fun it would be with that "one person" that makes you weak to your knees. Because I can GUARANTEE you that sharing those times with that special girl/boy that’s on your mind and in your heart 24/7 will surpass all those times you’ve deceived yourself into THINKING your having the best time ever as a single, even though you’re really not, instead you’re just missing out. Like at banquet yesterday, yeah it seemed like I was having a great time dancing with all these guys and in between all these guys and getting all freaky and whatnot with my guy friends and it was fun, but truthfully the entire time, I just wanted to dance with that one person thats always on my mind, that one person that makes my heart skip a beat every time I see him, and I think about it and imagine how much more better it would have been if I was getting all freaky and whatnot with that one special guy to me, instead of just a bunch of different guys that don’t mean a thing to me like he does. I was looking around and I saw all these couples dancing together whether it was a fast-paced song or slow song, they were completely engaged with each other, and god, it made me sooooo jealous. I wanted what they had, I wanted to be able to slow dance with him and look into each other’s eyes and hold each other close... I dunno, maybe I just noticed it more because I was on a different level yesterday, but I was just soo jealous of all those couples out there, they all looked so happy to have each other, and those whose significant others were not there yesterday for whatever reason were not blown like me because they knew that they had someone to go home to later that night, someone they could talk to about their night with... And by the end of the night, sure enough I came home to an empty bed, nobody to have had shared a fabulous night with, nobody to talk to about it with... single.. its just so much fun..