sometimes PAPER
is the only thing
that will listen to you.

it's not a lie if you believe it.
it's not a mistake if you always repeat it.

she talks about you
like you put the stars in the sky.

I hope this postcard finds you lonely.
I hope you're as lost as I was when you left me

I said I'd never forget your face,
vaulted away inside my head.
And memories never seem to fade.
you were the best part of my life:
my last regret.

I am going to let you down,
you'll get lied to, decieved.
I'd say that I'm sorry,
but that would be another lie.

imagine that we never met.
you'll do the same, from the looks of it.
imagine that you never lied,
oh yeah that's right,
it's what you did the first time.

sing me a song, tell me about
the things you're dealing with lately.
i don't understand how you could
sing to me lies and let them linger inside of me.
give me a reason to stay with you, let me know
so i can run away faster than ever before.

and here we are with nothing,
but this emptiness inside of us.
your smile, a fitting final gesture.
wish i could have loved you better.

and after that night, i don't think i can
ever forget how you made me feel and how
hours later, i still have the butterflies
from when you held my hand.

*687* sorry for the long time until an update kids.

darling, all of these awkward jumpstart-stalling
conversations mean much more to me than anything.
it comes down to me and you and whether we're
supposed to be or not, we still will be.
we're so much better off than them.

she feels weaker every morning;
physically, mentally, and emotionally.
the funny thing is, nobody can tell.
it's because she hides it so well.

so take care of you and i'll take care of me.
we're just lonely hearts looking for melodies.

i said i'm okay, but i know how to lie.
you were all that i had.
you were delicate and hard to find.

it's just another one of those days.
i can't help but feel a little upset
about the things you and i never had.
i had the world, but instead threw it all away.

he'll give you excuse after excuse
& tell you how he's oh, so sorry.
honey, don't fall for it.

this hand can write the words
just as fast as i can think them up.
in a state of half awake,
i fill the page will all my frantic thoughts.
i hope one day you'll get to read,
what i don't have the guts to say.

look how pretty she is when she falls down.
now there's no beauty in bleeding mascara.
lips are quivering like a withering rose.

the only thing that is perfect,
are all those states we put in between us.
because you know i'm always writing postcards
saying just how good it feels not to have you here.

i don't wait by the phone like i used to.
i don't hope for kind words you might say.
you don't prey on my mind like you used to,
but you can still ruin my day.

i'm sharing a drink with a memory
and a laugh with an empty seat.
do you still look the same?
cause i know that i don't.

how does it feel to know
you've taken someone's smile?

it feels like we just met yesterday.
and i just want to scream loud,
"this can't be happening."
please don't grow up without me.

when your world is crumbling,
i promise to stay near.

*677* more please and comments

if i could take your pain away,
i would scream for you and i'll bleed for you
so you'll never feel this way again.

he broke her without even trying.
he invaded her heart without a care.
he wedged himself in her hidden thoughts,
and cares with a flippant smile and cocky attitude.
he never knew, he couldn't have cared less,
and as the perfect person to make her come alive,
he was the perfect person to break her down.

i didn't know your name,
not even the color of your eyes.
but when i saw you, i knew we were
meant to be something great.

you had my heart way before
you started to try and get it.

where are you now?
as i rearrange the songs again,
this mix could burn a hole in anyone.
but it was you i was thinking of.

you broke my heart again this time.
you're fading now, you crossed the line.
you just crossed the line.

i'm obsessed and stressed with this mess.
i can't think of things to write, to type down.
these fingertips are moving faster than these lips.
you can only imagine how jealous my mouth is.

then she found him,
or maybe he found her.
his were gentle words
she has never heard before.

we almost had it right,
but the puzzle pieces misaligned.
you've been talking in your sleep,
but you never mentioned me.

i want to swallow these pills to get to sleep,
so i don't have to make a bad impression.
i need to start to be myself,
because i'm sick of everybody else.

breakdown, rebound.
this could be my last goodbye.
you cross your heart, i hope to die.

and here we are again,
laying in the dark spilling the secrets
we wouldn't dare to say
anywhere else but here.

i know i say i'm just fine.
but i hope you wonder from time to time

that note, i kept it for a year.
all these times i figured you'd be here.

i hate the way you look at me.
where's the pills that cure this thing
that you call, sweeping me off my feet