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BrianJankowski
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Name: Brian
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Birthday: 5/27/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: yeah ... football, basketball, runnin , eatin, sleepin, goin 2 jons , goin 2 the movies, messin w/ cole on the camerea and doin stupid stuff... music, talkin on the internet
Expertise: ^its pretty much all in the intrests^
Occupation: Student
Industry: Government
Message: message me
AIM:  JanX1one
AIM:  HoTSauceX816
Member Since:
6/9/2004
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| whoa! ok this was baout this worst week ever! ok it starts by havin jordan not callin me and tellin me shes leavin, and not talkin 2 her 4 like a week even tho shes gone for 3 days. and while shes gone i miss her soo much and thinkin of her all the time and i bought her a bracelet. im thinkin she doesnt like me anymore but im hopin it was just me. when she did come back she wasnt that thrilled 2 see me but i was. and i found out that when i missed her soo much and bought her that braclet that she doesnt like me anymore. and has feelings 4 phillip. so i cry 10 times now and 1 of them i cried myself 2 sleep. I CRIED LIKE A BITCH! im a lil girl i know ... so once i talk 2 jordan i said " jordan i still love you but if i went out w/ you and knew u liked someone else and not me it wouldnt b right so i hate 2 say this but we're gonna have 2 split" and it was about the hardest thing. ive been sick , wet, couldnt walk , out all night, cried 2 sleep, and i didnt even do anything wrong and im the one whos gettin hurt. top of all that earlier on 2day i saw that kid i got in a fight w/ i wanted 2 kick his ass cuz he hit beka, and i almost did, but i thought about what jordan said, and i dont wanna move somewhere. but right now im mad and sad. | | |
| man its like 2 in the mornin im doin wut i did last night, im stayin out til 5, since my last enrty i cried 3 more times, i feel like a litttle girl, i cant beleive this,what i dont understand is if she had 1 b/f 4 a year then eventually he looked up jill's skirt and how her last boyfriend, talked like she was a whore, lied 2 her, said he didnt like kayla and which he did, and like other girls too, and it took her so long 4 u 2 get over him?? and im here ive loved her more then everything! i cant even explain it. and one day she says she loves me soo much and that shes afraid ill wake up one day and stop lovin her i promised her that wouldnt happen and ive kep that promise but then i ask her if she would do that 2 me? and she said no. well... seems like it backfired on ya..im about 2 cry right now.... what i miss is the old jordan who i would alwayz have love 2 have around and when i hugged her i would never wanna let go. now she doesnt even act like herself anymore... she acts like........ alexis but damn i miss her sooo much and i lover her soooo much and i dont know why shes like this. and the thing is while im cryin about it or w/e im doin she prlly doesnt even care nemore...jordan... i kep my promise and i love u soo much .. and if it doesn end this way ... i cant believe this.. and ur not the person i thought u were...ur actin like alexis... i didnt fall in love w/ alexis i fell in love w/ u jordan..... | | |
| 2day was about the worst day ever,  ashley tells me somethin i dont believe her at first then shes serious about it and everyone keeps askin me about it i wanted 2 cry right there but i didnt, jon told me the same thing and so did jill, i was out til 5:00 last night jon told me 2 go 2 his house with him i said " 2days not my day man" and i told him i was goin home.. which i didnt i just told him that so he wouldnt worry.. i walked around my house 4for 3 hours it was raining, hailing , and there was thunder, i felt so weried... i was so numb on the outside, i never felt colder, my knees never hurt worse, so i was walkin like a penquin and i was huntchin over and i was soaking wet the whole night, im sick now and im in trouble, i can barely move my legs right now, and on top of all that i walked by jordans house 5 times, i cried.... when i got home i saw this conv i printed where me and jordan were talkin, and they plyed burn on the radio and... i cried... and it was the hardest thing 4 me cuz i havent cried 4 so long... | | |
| hey, its been a while from my last entry because i really dont write in here that much, but my last entry i didnt have that much time 2 type because i was kinda of in a hurry. But anywayz... when i was at jordans house i feel asleep on her couch. well i didnt really i was just kinda had a really really long blink...lol and i was about 2 fall asleep but newayz... i had my eyes closed and i looked up at jordan and i relized how lucky i was 2 have jordan. I mean i already knew i was lucky in the first place and 4 some reason i just felt sooo much luckier. i guess its hard 2 say. But i knew shes BEYOND perfect!! Shes just everything i could ever ask 4! and i really do mean it . well.. im gonna go...... do what i usually do.... and thats think of jordan..LoL i love ya jordan | | |
| hey, hey, today is wednesday yea jordan had 2 tell me that lol. I just got back from her house and it ws pretty cool cuz i havent seen her in person 4 a while cuz i was outta town and all. Her sisters boyfriend is pretty funny. LoL! So is her mom lol i wish i woulda had sestrichs or coles camerea so i coulda recored their conv. It was hilarious they were just laughin the whole time lol. Her mom is just like my mom. Pretty much her whole family is lol. And jordans mom asked me 2 eat w/ her so i dunno if i can i gotta ask first. But im sure my mom will say yes. Yeah im gonna ask her riten now so lata ! | | |
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