| It's Kate's birthday. Well it was, about 40 something minutes ago.
I got a bit drunk, and I never do stupid shit. I don't pull my New York Jana drunkie here in DC. It's kind of not acceptable. Here, I have to be professional. I have to be ... me but without alcohol or anything else that in New York never seems like a big deal.
Well, today New York Jana took over. It wasn't as bad as I thought. She just missed New York and... the other stuff. Of course. *sigh*
I bought a $40 headphones (Red Skullcandy) today and blasted my System of a Down, Lucero, Sum 41, The Bled through them and got few compliments on my music. And when trashed enough, sneaked to the pool that is "closed" until June 1st and while being watched and taped, dived in with my clothes on. I loved it. I did. I really miss my drunk Jana. I miss my New York Jana. I miss stumbling home at 7 am, greeting my NY Times delivery guy as I unlock the door. It's not the same without being crazy.
So, as I ran down to change and then went back up to the roof to hang out a bit more, I realized that I have been hiding my New York self. Why? I am not sure. I guess I wanted to be invisible for a while. However, after the stunt I pulled last night? Not happening. |
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| I erased it all from my computer. Not that that maks things easier or anything but at least I dont feel as pathetic.
Deleting is what I do best when it comes to certain people... and it's only because I allow myself to spew out bunch of shit that needs to be deleted in the first place.
As a journalist, especially a political one, I should know better. I should be better.
FUCK, still so much shit to work on before being good enough.
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| my entire body still hurts. I think I am depressed. |
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| still working on my policy paper... lol
It has been a week.
I am sick. I havent been sleeping, and my stomach can only bear to deal with simplest meals such as a plain croisant. Anything else is poisonous.
Only 3 more weeks. In 21 days I will be sitting in the car on my way home. It makes everything so much better. |
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| Men have officially gone crazy.... all of them are freakin' heartbroken!
I thought that was what women were supposed to be! Now all the women want to get laid while all men want to sit around and complain about their love lives. Wonderful. What has this world come to?
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