I have nothing left to say .. except don't judge me if you don't know me or if you do know me than don't judge me by how i think ^^^

Lost.................

Dear Boy,

I do not know who you are, or where or when we will meet, but I do hope it is soon.
I pray that when we meet and fall in love, you will love me for me, and not hope for someone who is thinner or prettier. I hope you won't compare me to girls who may have brighter smiles. I hope that you will make me laugh, take care of me if I get sick, and be trustworthy.
I hope you will remember that I prefer daisies to roses, and that my favorite color changes with my mood. Please know that my eyes aren't blue, they're brown..
Please know that I might be too shy to kiss you first, but please don't be afraid to kiss me. I won't slap you or push you away. I'm sure your kisses will be perfect. When we go on a date, please don't stress about where to take me; what's important is that I'll be with you.
If I cry, please know it isn't because of you, just hold me close and I'll heal quickly. And, if it is because of you, I'll heal just the same.
And if we decide to break up, please understand that I may be bitter, but I'd like to be your friend if you'll let me. I promise to remember that you have feelings too, even though you'll never admit it, and when you are ready we'll have a friendship.
Please tell me if anything I do bothers you, or if something just doesn't sit right. I would like you to always be honest with me. If I have a bad day, I hope you will shower me with confidence and smiles.
I hope you don't think that I'm asking too much of you. I hope you understand that I'm a little bit nervous and very scared. I wish I could tell you how or when we will meet, and if we will be in love forever. Every relationship is a new game of cards, and ...(sigh)...I've never been good at cards. But I will try my best to be kind and love you dearly for all that you are, without expecting too much from you. Thank you for listening; this is all that I ask.
Yours always,
Me

 man im so done wit ppl its amazing no matter how hard you try or how much you care they will never chnage i had so much fun this weekend with shayla and courtney and jen.. Well mostly SHAYLA!! we had so so so so so much fun!! FINAL STOP! haha o lord and on twister 2 how our boobs like jumped out of my shirt  you bathing sute haha I LORD " i thought seadragons were shaped like question marks" " O wait that seaHORSES" lmao im such a fucking loser haha i love you and thank you 4 understanding bout eveything you'll understand the thing above ---^ more than anyone i love you sweetie!

EWWW .. i don't even know wut to do now! i don't even want to go to Rangview next year not at all.. they main reason why i was going or excited to even go cuz i would to get closer to my shayla and now shes not even going to be there erughhh im so sad all i want to do is brake down and cry! . she means so much to me and we were so close last year and now  we don't even get to go to the same school GOD i hate this so much there are no words to explain how MAD I AM!! god i wish i could like pop into her moms head and scream "LET SHAYLA GO TO RANGVIEW NEXT YEAR!!" OMG u guyshave no idea how happy i would be if her mom just changed her mine! i would die of happieness! o lord! man idk im too pissed to write any more nothing seems to be going good anymore im so fucking sick of school and ALMOST everyone in it and to top it off  he whole shayla thing GOD!!

Shayla-

    I love you so much babe no matter wut its us aginst the world i love you so much we will never loose eachother no matter how far u go we will always be close at heart I LOVE YOU i TRULY DO!!

Well this weekend has been too much fun.....

Friday::: I went to school that to AMYS than we went to their last volleyball game ( which they WON) yay! and than me, mom, jesse, micheal, amber, kim, and amy all went out to eat and we went to senior ricks ( bad choich cuz my sis works there) well we were eattin and mom found a hair in her food!! (NASTY) and we were just have a fun time and eating and talking and than some how a food fight started and i told them all to stop! I swear i did but they didn't listen so i guess in the bathroom there was FOOD all over the place  and so the manager called my sister ( which was STUPID cuz my sister had NOTHING to do with it) and they called my mom and dad (which i understand) but ya i got in some trouble so me and amy are going to go in to the resterant and say sorry

Saturday: i sayed home and helped my sister get ready for prom ( she look BEAUTIFUL OMG!!!) and than i went with her and her friends and everyone to take pics than came home and CLEANED!! wow i cleaned! and than i hung out wit mom jesse micheal amber dad kim and her cuz shanda! and we all went cosmic bowling OMG i had too much fun cuz they played music and crap and we were all danceing and jumping and BOWLING haha it was GREAT FUN and my and amber and micheal and jesse decided that next year if i don't have a date for homecomeing than im going with micheal and if amber doesn't have a date than shes going to go with jesse! hehe we took so much pics lol can't wait to see them cuz im just so damn cute !! <---- WOW WAY WAY WAY JUST KINDDIND.

Sundau:: i cam home from jesse's and than im going to take a shower and get ready than right befor church me and my dad are going to go hit softballs co i can be good when i play dis summer!! yay im so excited !! im only going to play 2 sports next year and that softball and lacross!.. i exCITED!!

So still i like this clayton guy ... hehe and wow idk

I MISS shayla so much u guys have no idea and i feel bad cuz i always tell her that we'll hang out but we never do and its my fault but i'll change that cuz next weekend its me and her no questions asked!!