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Name: *JeSs*
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Birthday: 6/5/1984
Interests: driving at night, being up until the crack fo dawn, singing in my car, listening to music, hanging out with the crew, going to shows, writting poetry, taking random photos, going to school and working with the children, my job at Denny's, being the Dorky Jess that certain ppl know, my unique laugh that catches peoples hearts, the GyM, beginners Yoga, listening to enya and other soft listening music while burning incense.
Expertise: writting poetry, photography, making people laugh..and others smile. (hands/need I say more?) haha...I have a few things I'm great at wouldn't say 'expert' at. But these things arent rated G...so we'll save them. haha. (Getting my heart broken by men...go figure)
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Member Since:
12/28/2003
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| So this is Aidan, Jess is in Kansas and won't be back untill weds... I just thought I'd be sneaky and post on her Xanga(even though she gave me the password) I adore her, she is the greatest girlfriend ever (: I can't wait to see her on Thursday... Hmphhhh... I thought I'd be a dork and write a poem while on the phone with Jess. It's just something I was day dreaming about and I thought I'd turn it into a haiku:
In fields of flowers
Basking in perfect blossoms
Beautiful stupor
I think that would be grand.
Good night,
Aidan | | |
| *quick update before I head to philly at 9am to the airport*
my Hunnie:
http://www.xanga.com/hisheartofglass
check out his site...he's so cute 
After all of this loss here lately I never really realized just how
grand life can be until God brings such an amazing person into ur life
at just the most perfect moments to make things in life make more sense
and make things all around just easier. Last night I drove out to
Bethlehem to pick up Aidan...and he took me to Hoyts to see the movie
Ladder 49. He is so special. I've dated and talked to many boys in the
past few weeks since my last yeah....but Aidan is so different. He's
more my style I guess you could say. He moved here from California not
to long ago...and wow so has the accent that wow it's hot. He's so
scene but yet...so emo scene. He smells soooooooooo heavenly....I
walked out to my car this morning to get my makeup and all I could
smell when I opened my car door was his cologne...I about died it was
so wonderful. That boy cuddled me all night long...would not let go.
He's a lil taller than me...and his body type is perfect. The type that
I have always liked...so cuddly. And he's getting his lip piercing
redone. He's so cute guys...I loved his belt last night...hot studded
belt...he looked so good. Wearing jeans with a studded belt a hot
tighter sweater...hat backwards...and gosh. He's so emo too...so sappy
like me...it's great.
And he *hearts* me...he created a xanga just not too sure on what the
xanga site name is...cuz I think he fell asleep at his pc..he was up so
late talking to me...but yet we were out so late. So long story
short...this wonderful boy...asked me out last night...aat this
park...and well...I said yes...Jon, right now in his life...I believe
doesnt know what he wants...and was sorta iffy on the whole him and I
situation...we both had very different views on politics...and
different opinions I guess on things...plus I'm getting sick of
distance...and honestly I need someone that I can see someone a lot of
the week. My scheadule is very tight...and with Aidan living here that
already makes our relationship so much more flexible. I was open with
him on my 'depression' issue..he says he can deal with it...that he
will handle my mood swings...he's so cute. I heart him definitly for
being the greatest boy...n caring so much bout me in so little time.
Anyways everyone please keep my family in your prayers...tomorrow is my
Grandmothers funeral....(one of the hardest and longest days of my
life)...thanks for all the prayers and thoughts already they mean a lot.
<3 Jessica
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| My grandmother died yesterday morning. I've now lost a huge part of the
woman that I've grown up to be. My grandmother shaped a lot of who I am
today inside of my heart. I will be missing 3 days of school to attend
her funeral. And I'm going to try and type up something to read at her
funeral. Which is going to be very hard...but I believe I need to do
it.
I realize that there is a lot of hate in this world...more people
wrapped up in worrying about cutting others down about their weight,
about their lacks, about their abilities. There is a lot of Jealousy in
this world itself. And to me I've realized thru this loss that all of
these things are just down right pathetic. We all never know when it is
our time to pass on. We might have everything we could've ever dreamed
of having in our life and not realize that in God's plan we have only 5
yrs left to live. So why spend those years worrying about what others
have vs. what you dont. Or how others look the way you wished you
could...or spending those years letting things that happened a year ago
or years ago still influence ur actions and decisions in the person
that you are today. I lost my grandmother yesterday morning...and by
God...I'm no longer going to lower myself to the actions of those
people that choose to live their lives not in God's way. I may not be a
'true' Christian in every shape and form...but I'm going to attempt to
trying to change that. I'm going to try to be more spirtitual even if I
work on Sundays...I loved my Grandma very much....( I cant tell you all
about my past on here or you would understand ) But...I will say...that
I know she would want this....she would want me to be more holy...and
thru her I know...I can...
<3
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| We shook our bootays up hxc last night up at StoneWall. Saw Matt in drag...fun stuff. And had my butt randomly grabbed by sum hot boy...lol. Saw Don/Anthony/ and Kenny. So fun...was talking to Monica and Sheri and the next thing I know some topless hot guy is grinding randomly against my ass and low and behold it was my dearest Don...went over n talked to him and his boyfriend for awhile...totally embarrased me tho by going yea this is Jess...I call her "Jessty Breasty" (Pokes my boob) because she has huge titties...I was soooo embarrased. He always called me that at work. But I adore him. We then hit up Denny's where later Kenny came in with sum friends and we laughed n chatted for a bit...and then I was off for sum sleep. Jon wasnt feeling too good tho he texted me for awhile about being sick...I think he was a lil not to happy either that I went to a club...but it was a GAY club lol...so he had NOTHING to worry about. hehe. Anyways...I'm trying to get my car inspected today wish me luck.
<3 Jess | | |
| feeling oh-so-cute (fuzzy lilac sweater/jeans/purple vans/pearls/silver rings/glitter belt) 
¤Last Night¤ honestly was one of the best nights ever. Altho my dad wasnt too thrilled about me driving to King of Prussia yesterday evening I think he realizes just how happy it made me I think. lol. I love honestly how Jon and I can just cuddle together w/ my head on his shoulder. He's so very sweet. And he gives the most passionate kisses that tells me just how much he really does care about me. He would'nt let me pay for my dinner last night even when I put my cash on the table he made me take it back. He's a doll really. So we went to one of my favorite restaraunts (Chilli's) and I got a Buffalo Ckn Sandwhich which was really banging. He got the SW egg rolls..and quickly got sick afterwards. Felt so bad for him. I dont like to see him in pain. I would've cuddled with him n rubbed his tummy to make him feel better but it was getting late and we both had early classes this morning.
It was so cute last night...we were kissing and the song "She drives me Crazy" came on in my car and he pulls away for just a second to do a lil laugh and goes "you drive me crazy". lol I couldnt help but giggled n then we started kissing again. hehe. So cute really. The only uncute thing is these freaking marks he leavles on me all the time.  I guess he feels the need to mark his territory even tho we arent officially together yet. Wow I just...cant tell you how happy I have been here lately besides the bad news about my Grandma. Honestly I think she might be doing better my mom right now is in Arkansas visiting Kim, Brian and baby Greyson so...my mom is going to keep us updated on news about my grams.
But...Saturday cant come fast enough...Jon is driving up to my house and we are going to go out for dinner and then go to the NCC production of The Caucasian Chalk Circle that Charles is in. Not even sure what it is really about...but it starts at 7pm...and I told Charles I would go. I think we are going to hang for a lil while at my house n maybe I'll kick his ass at sum Sx3 Snowboarding haha. Since I'm oh so good. He says he's really good at video games cuz he has an xbox and play station. (Oh well I can still kick his bootay! ) Ne wayz...hmmm...what else? I work tonight...(cooking blah) ah well..gunna mention to Tim a cooks raise we'll see how that goes. But anyways last night was very enjoyable...Jon really makes me laugh..and smile. The fact that he we are getting to see one another 3x in a matter of 8 days is nice...considering we dont live right next to one another. It's nice. Indeed. But I'm done rambling for now. | | |
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