i hate this....xanga...uh...i cant post a pic of me.....and it's really nice!!...unlike the other one over there....uhh....okay this is like really really really REALLY PISSING ME OFF!!!

that is so messed up...it's happening again..the same thing that happened in 5 GRADE...dammit!!...this is such BS..and its cuzza the SAME DAYUM person...LAUREN!!!......why are you always ruining MY LIFE!!...cant you go ruin someone elses...cuz THIS IS THE FUCKING 2 TIME!!..and i cant stand it no more..god..why am i so dayum nice to you when i know that you're gonna freakin ruin my life again again again and again....this is so stupid.....cynthia please help.......you knoweverything that i'm feeling u agree that .........yeah.....u know and yu feel the same...LAUREN!!....U'RE GOING IT AGAIN!!!...AND I DONT LIKE IT AGAIN!!....god...sh!t..you say i'm trying to hard..the only way and the ONLY REASON..why you're with us is because I ..yeah me!!...i said that you were cool and nice..and for ppl to GIVE THE THE FREAKIN SECOND CHANCE!!...why the f*uck and i so STUPID!!...to have actually thought you have changed since 5 grade....yeah RIGHT!!...you're still the same person..using ppl ....to get where you are today..YOU ALWAYS MAKE FUN OF ME....AND THAT'S THE ONLY WAY YOU HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS....WITH OUT ME YOU'D BE FREAKIN RETARDED..and i thought that you were my friend....you talk SH!T behind my back...and DUDE I HAVE PPL TELLING MY EVERY SINGLE WORD....EVERY SINGLE SENTENCE...THEY BETRAY YOU ....in the begining of the year..ppl came out to me..."Janice why is that bitch hanging out with us?" *Oh dont worry she's cool she's gonna hang out with us it's okay dont worry nothings going to go wrong.* "But Janice I thought -----" *I said it's okay ...aite..it's cool...she's fine now* "Alright Janice whatever you say.."...YEAH AND NOW!!!..DAMMIT!!..CYNTHIA...I SHOULD'VE LISTENED TO YOU!!!..AND EVERYONE ELSE..CYNTHIA YOU WERE RIGHT...SHE HASNT CHANGED..SOMETHINGS JUST DONT CHANGE!!!... and i couldn't see it........

CYNTHIA!!!!! IS THIS HOW YOU FEEL??..WE'RE IN A FIGHT YOU AINT SPEAKING 2 ME..ANDYEAH...U'RE WIT GEMINI..AITE??!!...YEAH...the pack is OVER you said..you promised..

which leads into this

this is from chris's site...which he took from his friend..aite... ^_^

F i r s t s
First best friend: amanda m
First car: ..im 12

First kiss on the lips: ..i'm not saying who...

First real kiss: not saying who
First break-up: ..beau
First screen name: eiloveyu
First self purchased album: umm..no clue
First funeral: ..in october...umm...my grandpa on my dad's side..it's a chinese connection not like my dad's dad..but something like that..yeah..complicated i cant explain it...
First pets: ..hamster..lol..Mr.John!..lol..I MISS YU!
First true love: ..i'm not telling...either it was Beau..or Anthony..i dont know how i liked one of those guys..not saying who..i was a idiot...
First enemy: ..lol...umm...Hannah Jones
First big trip: New York age 7...
First music you remember hearing in your house:..a chinese song..

l a s t s
Last cigarette: dont smoke..dont plan to..
last car ride: back home from school
Last kiss: umm..depends whatcha mean by kiss
Last good cry: .graduation..from 5 grade...my BAD cry was yesturday at school
Last movie seen: ..Incredibles.
Last beverage ..coke...
Last food consumed: ..umm..some cracker..
Last crush: ..lol..haha...umm i have a crush on a guy right now..but i have to stop liking him..because i have no chance with him because he's so freakin busy all the time...and he says he cant remember when there was a day he WASNT busy...and he said he's not gonna like no one no more...so yeah...i just gave a really god description of him..you should know who you are..also you wanna go to the Marines after HS
Last phone call: ummm to..i have no clue..lol...
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: puma
Last item bought: ..uhh...food..from school..lol...

Last time scolded: ..last night..i think.... + _ +

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your very best friends?: ...i dont wanna talk about that.........not ONE bit!
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?..NO IM SINGLE..lol..haha..

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop?: ..um Forever 21 OR...umm oh sh!t i 4got the name..lol...

02. any tattoos or piercings?: ears..that's all..but wanna get tattoos later on..

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs?: ...no...lol..medicine..lol..haha

02. what kind of shampoo do you use?: ...umm..lol...PANTENE..and summin else
03. what are you most scared of?: ...being hurt..and losing the ones i love..also..umm scary things..lol..like ghosts..and monsterS!
04. what are you listening to right now? RYAN CABRERA = TRUE
05. where do you want to get married?:..Bahamas?..Hawaii..somewhere like that

06. how many buddies are online right now?:..lemme see..hold up...170 are OFF...lol...haha...
07. what would you change about yourself?: ....i dont know..i wanna relive some parts of my life better...or over..to see what i could change..like maybe i wouldn't be single if i actually TALKED TO....nvm...HIM

f a v o r i t e s
01. color: black.silver.and white
02. food: ..french fries..lol..
03. boys' name: ..Chris....lol.DOESNT HAVE SH!T TO DO WITH CHRIS TOM.aite?..its like that..or umm...Chad.....or ..Tobey..i unno..lol...

04. girls' name:..Charlotte...Rachael..Sapphire..Ruby..August

05. subjects in school:..Social Studies...and Spelling...lunch..lol
06. animals: DOLPHIN..MONKEY
07. sports: ..tennis umm how bout football and basketball
08. perfume: ralph lauren and Estee summin..lol..
09. cologne: umm there's this one but i 4got...but like HELLA SMELLS HOT!

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. taken a bath with someone?..younger..when i didnt know what a dick was...lol..haha..or yeah... 0 0
02. smoked? no
03. made yourself throw up?:..yes
04. skinny dipped?: no
05: been in love?: yes
06. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?:..when i was YOUNGER!
07. pictured a crush naked?: ..EEEWWW NO
08. actually seen a crush naked? ...no...

09. cried when someone died?: ..YESH!!!..DUH...

10. lied?: no i havent....lol..LMAO...*stupid asshole*

12. fallen for your best friend?: .........no comment.....lol..jk...no i havent ..well..no wait....UH OH!
13. been rejected?: ......umm..i think...by....SOMEONE..NAMED.....HIM..lol...
14. rejected someone?: yes..lotta times
15. used someone?: ....lol....ssshhhh
16. done something you regret?: yes..liking ..someone..one of my ex's

c u r r e n t
clothes: uniform from school
music: ON THE WAY DOWN..RYAN CABRERA
annoyance: ...MY CONTIENCE

smell: ...nothing..i cant smell nothing
favorite artist: .....umm....Vanessa Carlton..and Jesse Mcartney
desktop picture: Tidus and Lenne
dvd in player:..THE TALE OS TWO SISTERS..HELLA SCARY MOVIE!!!! AAAHHHHHH..i'm still freakin freaked out..afraid to go in the kitchen...

l a s t | p e r s o n
hugged: ..umm...i unno
you imed: ..Joey

a r e | y o u
open minded: ..yeah depends on what and wit who
arrogant:...sometimes..

interesting: ..depends
moody: yeah!
hardworking: ..yea
organized: kinda
healthy: yeah
attractive?..lol... -_+
bored: yesh
responsible: yesh
obsessed: yeah
angry: yeah
sad: yeah
disappointed: yeah
trusting: yeah
talkative: yeah
legal: .....no comment

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: ...hahahahhaahhahahaha....im' not telling!!!
slap: ..AAHHHH...LOTTA PPL THAT I FREAKIN HATE!!
look like: ...Lenne..lol..i kinda do..already...
talk to online: ..***

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: coke
flowers or candy: flowers

tall or short: TALL..but some shorties are HOT
thick or thin:...both ...MIDDLE!!
Long or short: ..long..lol *sigh*..jk

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: sleepy

all i need is: ..someone there for me....

what do you notice on a person first: ...eyes...and height.....lol...and lol..nvm..ur gonna say im racist
worst question to ask: ....do you smell?..have you gotten ur period??..do you get horny?


who makes you laugh the most: ..lol..i'm not telling...they're guys...threee...of them
who makes you smile: ..same guys
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them:...no one ...i dont see him

who do you have a crush on: ..lol...hhhmmm..who do you think??
who has a crush on you: ...i have no clue

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: yes...he's never on...no point

wait to see if you don't IM someone first if they will IM you: yesh
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no

wish you were younger: no

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: 2
of hearts i have broken: 3
of guys i've kissed: ....
of girls i've kissed: none
of guys you've "done stuff" with: none
of girls you've "done stuff" with: none
of continents i have lived in: one
of tight friends: it's decreasing
of cds i own: damn..like i unno over 200..but like some i lost