random quote by my BFF after taking pics on her cellular of a hottie "if you ask me for my purse in school, i know your not gonna use it for a tampon now!!!!"

ok so long time no update...

so since then nothing that much has been going on life has been pretty amazing..

been pumping gas .. you know the usual rofl.. lauren and ash<333

umm mall on friday with Joe<3 nano ash lauren and Karen.. we had the best time.. stealing random things and shot gun and what not... omg whateva

then saturday.. HOMECOMING!!!.. lyns ash B and Kay came over along with Joe cody nano and Elvin.. it was good we looked.. gaw-jous.. teehe

had an amazing time dancing and getting taught how to dance lol.. so it was a good time and no drama for my momma this year.. that makes me wanna cream my jeans.. jk..

then home after the dance and we had a mean tourney of TROUBLE and Guess who bitches.. we play for blood and our friendships were tried ...lol I owned at Guess who and Ash owned trouble.. teehe.. it was the most chill time ever.. rock on

today got up and got breakfast made for us..mmmm then everyone left and i took a quick 5 1/2 hour nap really fast got up and showered and went and hung out at laurens with joe ash paul nano lauren and nick.. we had fun staring at each other.. lol then we ALL jumped in ashs car I almost had shotgun till I was thrown out of the way <-- was jealous cause I was stronger and I play soccer.. psh whateva.. so then we had fun rockin out to random things in the car on the way there and we need new music and such lol eff on you.. then we went to visit lyns after that all got sorted out.. and racing zippers apparently Nick has alot fo time on his hands to practice.. rofl.. twas silly.. so got McFlurries and such.. had the biggest WTF face on ever.. we're fighting?... yeah I almost care.. this is a little immature if you ask me but you didn't so whateva... then went to laurens house and hung for a few min. took her pussy almost.. readjusted then.. got lasagna for the way home took ash back to the home.. lmao.. and jsut chatted on the way home.. ^^^ pissed like you don't even know.. so what the fuck ever on you...

 GAW-jous.. yeah thats right..  rofl

so I have alot on my mind today.. nothing bad.. just things that i haven't thought through...

I'm really happy<3.. and thats all im gonna say

I'm really sad..</3 .. also all I'm gonna say

and I'm soo conflicted its not even funny right now... not things anyone should be concerned about considering if I haven't come to you to talk about it already.. I probably won't at all...

I love the trance CD lyns let me borrow<333 omg I think I fell in love<333 and Troy's cd lol iot makes me laugh.. the first 2 songs made me wtf?!?1.. then it was all good

who listens to the hamster dance anymore?.. teehe..

 I hate how my life is turning out it just got to be normal then all of a sudden its turned up side down.. yeah shkae a soda bottle and open it.. thats at the point im at..

chem can lick my left one and Mr. Moyer can proceed to suck the right.. I hate him and his lame ass not funny jokes.. and bald head and I can sound smart cause I was a chemical engineer and no im a lame ass higschool chem teacher.. who the hell does he think he is?!?! yeah I don't know either..

spanish 2.. it makes me smile.. test kicked my ass though I think.. and uhm.. thanks to mike I might have scraped a passing grade together.. sa-weet

World Cultures.. Mr. Scholl is by far the best teacher uhm.. in the WORLD!!! slept through the entire movie and he said nothing (mind you I failed the last test with a 62%.. not so sweet) its whateva

went to Mickey D's last night and hung out with Lyns<333 I heart that girl more than life pretty much.. and I got a Mcflurry and it was pretty close to titty freezing weather.. yeah thats right.. stephen came with.. it was nice to hang out agian.. after all the dramas over... *wipes forhead* and yeah

rough day today but its ok Im Gorgeous.. especially today

oh got a haircut that made my uhm month.. donated it to the hair deprived.. and it felt good iM going to do it agian hopefully if I can wait that long I kinda love my shorter hair better...oh well

and I think thats it..

do you know that I secretly adore you?..

                                           yeah you probably do YYY

P and S... lets get drunk and screw?!?!..(lyns knows wusss up)

what I wouldn't give to be completely sloshed right now

ok so last night I got bad news..

my daddy is moving a bajillion miles away...to california to take the job... I never thought I would be that sad to hear that hes leaving.. boy was I wrong...

other than that I can't complain life is pretty good.. I played counciler (sp?) to a few people.. it was not a good night for alot of us apparently...

almost didn't get my present for thursday.. but now I am?.. <--- excited like whoa...

I'm the happiest I have been in a long time..

I get to go party in Cali for the summer

and I have amazing friends..

what more could you possibly ask for..(besides a million dollars.. also would be appreciated.. lol)

well ok I was told to update and there it is...

its amazing how brown her eyes become...

                                                                              when she says she loves me....

wow drama.. the story of my life. thats why I was put on the planet to deal with everyones drama..this would be to much for all yo mommmas combined beotch..

So yesterday i was thinking.. why do i care about what happens to us?.. i really don't.. Why do  I care that my so called friend goes out with my Ex?...Why do you think I have 1 friend?.. why are the friends I do have so shady?.. Why do i pretend to care when I listen about your tales of him and you?...Why can't I pretend I'm happy?... Why do iw ant to move away from here so bad?.. Why do i like him so much more then I thought?.. Why do i fall so hard for boys?..they hurt me in the end... Why aren't i gorgeous?.. he used to call me that.. Why are you bashing at me like this?.. we used to be friends.. why can't me and my ex be civil for more than .1 seconds?...

I'm drowing and I can't keep my head above the surface.. I have so much to deal with.. how do you lose 2 friends and a dad to a job 345862395682345 miles away all in the same month?.... your me and you act like me selfish and arrogant like me thats how.. I'm a bitch you knew that from the start i don't take shit I deal it and if you can't deal than tough.. we're not friends.. simple as that I don't need you..

so to me its ok to be a little selfish.. otherwise you get walked all over.. you need to be arrogant otherwise your depressed about yourself... you don't need alot of friends.. I love the few I have to pieces..I drama is good it keeps you on your toes.. too much will kill you.. act happy always. otherwise you involve other people in your problems.. put a smile on..otherwise the day will suck no matter what... love like you never loved in the moment.. otherwise you'll blink and it'll be gone.. have meaningless relationships.. it'll make you love so much more in the long run...

so Idk it was an ok day I read your xanga and I was a taken aback a little at first I was like what?!?! then I was like ok fair.. w/e in the long run I knew it would happen and its ok was to be expected.. we don't need to be friends and i wanted to tell xanga first to make sure I got it right never the less I think you know.. I have nothing to talk to you about I don't like you we grew apart what else is there to say we're both shady people and thats not a good combo... I won't talk about you and you won't talk about me and we'll go our seperate ways...It was fun but I can't deal right now and i don't want to i have so many other things to dedicate my time to then this petty drama that I've been over

Lynsey I don't know whats going on between us I thought we were friends?.. talking about me to paul?... shady like whoa.. I can't believe..well actually since you did it when nate and jess had a thing this is a little less surprising but I never thought it would happen to me and you I have never done anything like this to you and it hurt to know you would do it today.. I have no problem with you and him being friends in any way whatsoever.. but I do have a problem with the fact that i know you talk about me to him (fact) and I know that you said that to me in flex just to be malicious.. fuck you I don't need you either your not worth my time if this is how your gonna treat me... and I hope to god that you and him stay friends or whatever you guys are...

So this brings me to that fact that i am so confused about everything going on in my life right now... I don't know whats going on with( we'll call him my boy) my boy.. our situation is so confusing I don't know what I want right now I don't want to scare him off with all of this and it sucks that all of it happend all at once...

but anyway update more later...