.:*well today was just a total chunk-waste of my life.. BoRiNg to start w/.. BoRiNg to end w/. and it's raining outside, but i like it. today i've realized how much i actually miss janelle. uhg.. it sucks when u think u and ur best friend are going to be friends forever.. and it's not just one of those really close friends u hang out w/ every once in a while and only tell them certain things.. it's that kind of friend that u could just as easy call family and u HAVE to tell them EvEryThiNg. i miss that. but now that i have jake, that empty feeling doesn't seem as empty anymore. BaSkEtBaLL SeAsOn!! which means SnOwCoMiNg!! >>dance! oOoOoh >> thunder! i hope it storms like crazy tonight.. bcuz thats just the kind of mood im in.*:. 

.:*drama.. ughh.. gotta luv it. >>> NOT. things ended up working out for me & jake. but i was seriously about to dump his a**. i meen, all i could think about was if it would always be like that (him getting mad at me all the time) & it didn't seem like it was worth it. then i kept thinking about the reasons of why i actually like him so much! and i couldn't do it. and obviously, either could he. we like eachother too much. -lol- well if that night didn't break us up, then it'll take alot to get the job done*:.

.:*Should a girl really have to put up w/ her b/f getting mad at her all the time?? ok.. not all the time.. but AHHHH!!  i dunno whut to do. he just gets so jelouse sometimes and all i really want is him!!  so wtf do i do.. not talk to a friend i've had since the 6th grade just bcuz he hates him?? it's not like i like him like that or as if i'd leave him for him.. BcUz I WouLdN't!! gadamn. i really do love jake.. but if it's gonna be like this then i'm not sure that's what's gonna make me happy. and it's all my fault.*:.