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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 22:18:46 GMT

more quotes.... just on i dono life and me..

[1] "If u spend ur whole life comparing yourself to others, u'll never be worth comparison."

[2] being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up. these r the best days of our lives--n the only thing that matters is just following ur heart & eventually ull get it right<3

[3] 8 out of 10 girls say the first kiss tells them everything they want to know about the relationship

[4] whatever life holds in store for me, i will never forget these words ;; with great power comes great responsiblity

[5] people are going to hate you, love you, love to hate you, and hate to love you. but the ones that mean the most will always be there <3 -- SEX && THE CiTY

[6] sometimes it takes being away from someone for a while to realize how much u really need them in ur life ((I MISS MY MOM))

[7] HERES A REELY CUTE STORY!!!!

--A boy walked into a cd store
and saw a girl behind the counter.
She smiled and he thought it was the most
beautiful smile he has ever seen before and
wanted to kiss her right there.
He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to
buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her
money for it.
"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she
asked, smiling her cute smile again.
He nodded and she went to the back.
She came back with the wrapped CD and
gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store.
He went home and from then on, he went to
that store everyday and bought a CD, and she
wrapped it for him. He took the CD home
and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out
and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His
mother found out about this and told him to
just ask her.
So the next day, he took all his courage and
went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the
back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his
phone number on the desk and ran out...
!!!RRRRRING!!!
The mother picked up the phone and
said, "Hello?"
It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and
the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday...
" The line was quiet except for the cries of
the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she
wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the
closet. She was face to face with piles and
piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was
surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she
started to open one.
Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out
of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.
It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you
wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn
The mother opened another CD...
Again there was a piece of paper. It said:
Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out
with me? Love, Jacelyn

[8] theres only [ one ] rain cloud in the entire
sky - and it's raining on me.
somehow__ i`m not surprised // eeyore

[9] GiRL TALK:
[x] did you know .. kissinq is healthy?
[o] bananas are qood for period pain.
[x] it`s qood to cry.
[o] chicken soup actually makes you feel better.
[x] lyinq is actually unhealthy.
[o] only apply mascara to your top lashes.
[x] it`s impossible to apply mascar with your mouth closed.
[o] chocolate will make you feel better.
[x] more than half of guys want YOU to make the first move.
[o] most boys think it`s cute when you say the wronq thinq.
[x] a qood friend never judqes.
[o] a good foundation will hide hickeys. ..
[x] boys aren`t worth your tears.

[10]

*::10 wAyS 2 GeT tO a GiRlS HeArT::*
1. Hugs from behind
2. Take her hand when u guys walk next 2 each other
3. When standing, wrap ur arms around her
4. Cuddle w/ her
5. Dont force her 2 do nething
6. Write lil cute notes
7. Complement her on everything
8. When u hug hold her in ur arms as long as possible
9. Say i love u..n mean it
10. pick her over ur friends..no matter wut

enough for now ill add more later

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 17:20:31 GMT

hear r some quotes. i was browsing through n thease r some i thought were cute

no matter how much time goes by
u'll never forget the first time he looked
at u and how u fell in love with his eyes

true friends are the ones that when you`re crying your eyes out, are pulling the tissues from their purses. the one`s making you laugh so hard that you could pee ;; and the one`s who aren`t teaching you how to dance, they are the ones shovinq you onto the table sayin ; letsgogirl

i love how i can be a total dork
around you, and you will still make
me feel ABSOLUTELY amazing

If you look, my eyes say everything that my mouth wont,
my tears say what my eyes cant, &
my body says what tears wont show

its the little things that count.

It's wierd how one day someone walks
into your life & then you can't remember
how you ever lived without them..*

friends will prove people
you're not a physco path,
but best friends
will share the retardation

never forget what they did to you,
but never let them know you remember

i didnt need to ask for anything for christmas. cause i already have *him*

if he's got you smiling since day one
don't ever let him go

but everything happens for reasons she will never understand

sometimes u gotta put
walls up ->> not to keep people out but to see who [c.a.r.e.s.]
enough to | break | 'em down

Love is giving him the ability to break your heart, but trusting him enough to know that he won't

p u s h m e u p a g a i n s t t h e w a l l
& k i s s m e l i k e y o u m e a n i t

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 03:21:50 GMT

Randome shit is going on. Ups and Downs Bad and Good. Alot of stressed out molments that u could never understand.

------------ SO HEARS SOME QUOTES ----------------
(1) Have you ever been in love?
Been in real love?
I have ... the moment my heart fell for you.
(2) Id love to run away, from you..but if you didnt come and find me...id die.
mom n dad - (3) I know u never meant 2hurt me, but that doesn't really matter, because in the end, it hurts just the same.
(4) A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said no. She asked him if he wanted her, he said no. She asked him if she left would he cry, he said no. She turned 2leave, he grabbed her arm n said..ur notretty; ur beautiful. n I don't want u; I need u. n I wouldn't cry if u left; I would die
(5) i ran up the door, closed my stairs, said my pajamas n put on my prayers, turned off my bed n got into my light, all becuz u kissed me good night
(6) We all used to try so hard to fit in. We wanted to look exactly alike, do all the same things, practically be the same person, but when we weren't looking that all changed. Growing up that was supposed to bring us more independence, but what the summer actually brought was independence from each other
daddy - (7) I wish that I was as invisible as u make me feel.
.:.whAt am
i To yOu?.:.
katlyn - (8) Things people-they always go away-sonner or later. u cant hold them anymore then u can hold the moonlight But if they’ve touched u, if they’re inside u, then they’re still urs. The only things u ever really hav
(9) It's really amazing how shit changes from one day 2the next. how u hav it one second n then its gone. how it only takes one person 2make or break ur entire life.
(10) To explain the unexplainable is the ability to explain your thoughts
(11) Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, any one can start from now and make a brand new ending
(12) Never ruin an apology with an excuse
(13) Everything changes eventually. That's just the way life is and you have no control over it. Like suddenly people who you think are always going to be there, they disappear. You know? People die and they move away and they grow up
(14) "Please don't lie to me," she cries... "unless you're absolutely sure I'll never find out the truth."
megan n bri - (15) A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out
(16) When it hurts to look back and your scared to look ahead you can look beside you and your best friend will be there
(17) “Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile in it.”
(18) On the outside, ur not that same naive kid anymore. u've been through 2much lately. But deep down, at ur core, there will always be a part of u that rejects reality... that is eternally hopeful
(19) Dont tell a girl shes hot..thats not what she wants to be..tell her shes beautiful ..thats what she wants to hear
(20) It was never about finding something better. It was about :.finding someone who wasn't so close to me. So that I could tell where I ended and he began.: In many ways, I feel like you've partially invented me.... and that scares me so much
(21) A friend is someone with whom u can really be yourself; one who appreciates the good in u, overlooks the bad, n brings out the best in u. With a friend, u can share a laugh, a viewpoint, a success or disappointment, n a complete assortment of problems, large or small. A friend is someone who understands it all, one who lifts u up n never lets u down, who makes u feel it's a pretty nice world after all. A friend is one who knows all about u, n loves u just the same.
(22) Jealousy</3
(23) a few quesitons that i need to kno... how you culd ever hurt me so...i need to know what ive done wrong and how long its been going on. ((Was it that i never paid enuff attention?)) Or *did I not give enuff affection?* Not only will ur answers keep me sane but i'll know never to make the same mistake again. You can tell me to my face..or even on the fone..either way i hafta know. >Did i never treat you right?< .:.Did i always start the fight?.:. Either way im going outa my mind all the answers to my questions i have to find.
(24) bRokEn
(25) "...we were meant to live for so much more..."
(26) When I do right, no one ever remembers. When I do wrong, no one ever forgets (i cant keep saying im sorry for something i dont do anymore)
(27) "Before anybody wanted to deal with it she was too far gone."
(28) ~*kiSs me
iN the rAin*~
(29) Never let ur memories be greater than ur dreams

---- 29 MY LUCKY NUMBER.. i'll leave you with that

Friday, December 09, 2005

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 18:57:14 GMT

Snow! x3

i love it when it snows i just hate it when it freazes. Every year me and my brothers no matter whats going on we have always gone snowboarding... sleding... paintballing... Ect. in the mountains that were right behind my old house. this year will b no differant! =D im so happy i cant wait there are some huge ass fuckan hills up there.

- this year hasnt felt much like christmas NOT ONE BIT! -
but things are starting to turn around. dad n i r getting a small christmas tree n we bought some decorations for the inside of the house. n nana said shes deffinatly comming up for christmas this year. she'll b with my mom ocfourse but shes going to b hear on the 20th or 21st. so that means we'll b going to philly to see my unkle n aunt n ashlee n katie! we havent seen them since popops funeral. so thats makes just alittlre more like christmas. n roger n jeff will b comming down the day after christmas just like ushual. n dad n i are probably going to b spending christmas eve at tereases house with the "new" family. not so sure about that one. thats just going to b weard cause i dont really think of them as family like i dont think the whole "were moving in with them" thing is really occured in my mind yet even tho its happing as we speak. dads got there basement all set n shawns moving down there so we can start to get my room upstairs painted n re-done the way i want then were going to start moving over there little by little.

just doesnt seam like christmas yet. i hope it starts to soon!
x3

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 02:30:58 GMT

hey guys so alot has happened in a week.. some good n some really bad

monday when i got home from school i found out rob n i r goin bac out. i was so happy about that cause well 2b honest i thought there was no chance of that ever again. so yea weard.

tuesday only thing i rember was seing rob in the morning, him waitin 4me at my buss with mark n mark 4the first time in 2months. that was very strange n completly just like nothing ever happened btw us like the whole breaking up thing.

wendsday i cant rember
thursday i was sick n i stayed home n just went on the comp n i think i just talked 2jeff pritty much all day. n i didnt even go bac 2sleep n now that was a saprise cause that was the whole reason i didnt go 2school.

friday went 2moms house n around 8kyle, dodge, sam, kelsey n i drove 2jeffs house n i hung out with him till 12cause mom n jon were in philly moving. latest i've ever been over there n that was weard cause well its my mom hello!! well yeah didnt go 2bed till 6am the next mornin cause mr. jeffry kept me up allllll night n he made sure to call me when i fell asleep at the comp lol so i would get bac on lol.

saturday slept till 12went 2shawns 2babysit gabby n then julie called around 2n gav us the worst news ever. yet another blow that im just not ready4. my aunt nancy has been pregnate 4almost 6months now. n by 6months u know the sex of the baby n u can c all there little fingers n toes. well somehow nancy had a miscarage but hears the thing they found out the babys been dead for 2weeks now n the worst part is nancy had 2keep it in her till 2day. when she got her operation 2hav it removed. they havent named the baby yet but it was a boy n funeral wil b sometime this week... after that everything just kinda went down hill everyone was complet messes.

sunday got better tho. shawn n gaby n aunt julie came over n we visited nancy n shes still not doing good at all julie has the kids so that nancy is left alone with johny cause they need time. i cant imagine how there doign now i mean this is there 4th child yeah grant it they new they were havin money problems n they new they could never aford another kid when they can barly aford what they got but i mean comon 6months ur completly atatched n then something this bad happenes.

R.I.P baby henry

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 20:04:35 GMT

ok so i havent updated in what 3days. hey thats not that bad. wow 4one i dont know what 2say in hear. well new layout well sorta new its been up since saturday so its still new. i think ill just do quotes this entry. o n ppl hav been askin me 2put up some pics of me n my new hair. oo alls i gota say about my week so far is haha saturday night.. party halarious. megan put the alcohol in a snaple bottel (i think she had just alittle 2much 2drink) sad part is she didnt hav that much yet lol n well she put alcohol water n mayo n ketchup n dressing n a bunch of shit in a snaple bottel n tryed 2trick me into drinking it! almost fell 4it.

-------- PICS ------ (good enough??)

now for the quotes -----------

it is a curious thought,
              but it is only when you see people
                  looking ridiculous that you
            realize just how much you love them

you can't be old && wise if you
were never young && crazy ;; *

you have four years to be irresponsible. relax, work is for people with jobs. you'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time hanging out with your friends. so stay out late, go out on a Tuesday night when you have a paper due Wednesday. spend money you don't have. drink until sunrise... the work never ends... high school does

Another year, Another tree.
But this year you won't all be with me.
And it don't, feel much like christmas.
unless the whole family is together once again

all the little things that annoyed you so much
turned out were the things that you missed most

&& she wants to be that girl, the one who had absolutely everything in her way, but was able to overcome the obstacles && prove them all wrong

drunken words are sober thoughts

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 12:55:03 GMT

hey guys. i know everyone is really worried about me latly n no1 wants 2leave me alone. but im glad about that cause i dont want 2b left alone. im kinda scared 2b left alone cause when i am i start 2think about "everything" n its just not good... i cant really say that im doing much better cause well im not. i think im just getting worse with every day.
wendsday was good 4me tho my dad took me over megans n with us being as dumb ass's we are we decided 2ride our bikes on the perkiomen trail all the way up the the nail2. about half way we realised we were takin the longg way so we took a shortcut on a randome road, got even more lost then ended up on main st. which was exackly where we wanted 2b. we went 2visit joane but she had clients so we went 2dairy queen cause were even bigger retards. lol but then we went 2marks house n hung out 4aphew hrs n we were talkin about everythin from last summer n the things that followed it... i miss that summer.

well thanksgiving is a whole nother story. my thanksgiving was completly fucked up in every way! we had the whole family 2gether 4the 1st time in a yr since the devorce n my parents just had 2ruin everything n scream at eachother n every1 left. i didnt even get a thanksgiving dinner.. n if that wasnt worse enough. katlyns mom tryed 2commite suicide, thankfully it didnt work. sams a even bigger wreck b.c of that n i spent the wrest of my night trying 2calm her down. that was just the breaking point right there cause that wasnt all that happened i got a while nother list.

yesturday on the other hand was ...alittle... better i went out shoping with my mom, aunt naun, baby gabby, n michelle. we were out pritty much all day. but today mom n i are going to "atempt" to get my permit again since last weekend i couldt go through with it. then were going with aunt naun n gabby to some place. then at 2 dads forcing me to go to the mall with the (step family)... not so bad i guess cause collean is comming this time. i like hanging out with her shes a cool step sister n shes my age so thats even better. but sean n casey hav to come two... err step brothers there ok... so that should b eventfull maybe i can get my mind finaly off things.

tell me is it all worth it in the end?
honsetly...

R.I.P. Katlyn 11.17.05

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 12:11:30 GMT

Thanks so much everyone whos helped me deal with losing a best friend n a sister 2me. katlyn. its been really hard 4me b.c everything reminds me of her all the time n whenever i had a problem she was right there the first one 2call me n help me she was my confadence right there n she always new just what 2do. im going 2miss not talking 2her every night online n on the phone n school n partys n just hanging out n being total dorks together. her birthday is next month she would have been 18.. katlyn who's guna b there now? just like i told brittany n as julie n larua sawl my clock stoped the night katlyn died. at 12 o'clock. n flickers on n off about every 7minouts. i told brittany yesturday that it freaks me out cause thats the time she was burried. n thismorning it stoped..

the funeral was on monday. i was there 4about 5 hrs. after everone left laura n i stayed b.c we couldnt say goodbye. KATLYN ITS NEVER A GOODBYE its ONLY A I'LL SEYA SOON. im not quiet sure what 2do without her in my life im used 2seing her all the time n talking 2her constantly. we new everything that went on in eachothers lives. we talked about everything n anything. from our parents getting devorced all the way down to what color r nails should be.
... where do i go from hear?

R.I.P katlyn x3

lie 2me, can anyone give me something worth living4? tell me a reason worth fighting for. give me anything, anything to keep me breathing I wish tHat life waS like a VCR, because then yoU could fast forward throUgh all the bad parts,and rewind to the good ones lets get drunk n pretend it never happened. pretend you never left. pretend everythings fine n ur still hear. i know how it feels, to sit on the edge of your bed, with your face in your hands, wishing the world would end She says she doing ok but the look in her eyes and the tone of her voice tell a different story . *

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 20:23:37 GMT

R.I.P katlyn Black 11.17.05

last night katlyn was driving home from work and she ran a red light and was hit head on.. she was ok aperantly till she got to the hospital but i guess they couldnt do something fast enough. my best firend and i didnt even know till i got home today. no one ever deserves to die alone n not like that!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KATLYN. (may angels lead u in)
u'll never b forgoten! i promis you that BFF things wolnt b the same without you

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 19:46:57 GMT

Sunday - after i updated i went to jeffs for his birthday =D n we hung out for awhile till i had to leave 2g2 danices party which was sooo much freakin fun. i got to see so many ppl from pv. it was great i hung out with megan the entire time n ihavent sean her in awhile so that was awsome. n awie danice has her licens n shes officially 17 x3

Monday - school. then brittanys house we were goign to watch a movie or two but we havent sean eachother in such a long time that ofcourse we just ended up talking the entire time. i missed her so freakin much it was great to hang out with her and talk face to face.. BnT BFFLnD.

Tuesday - school. went to jeffs after. till like 9 - 9:30.. hey im getting better at halo thanks to u and puff lol. mostly you.

Wendnesday - TODAY - school. got a call from Eckerd about my interview tomarow. im not sure if its the one in limeric or the one on high st. lol so i have to call bac n see. so that interviews tomarow after school n i have to walk home.. Err. no car tomarow. damit. lol. but yeah. goign to jeffs in alittle bit..
::edit::
tonight went to jeffs for acoupple hrs. i think thats the only time we have ever not played halo well no thats not true. eather way it was alot of fun. thanks babe n chear up. i almost wana hit her myself just cause she pulls that shit but im sure u got plenty of ppl gettin on the two of their asses. i still think its funny when i hit my head. lol n u crushed up tilonal n brought me water. n u couldnt stop laughin at how retarted i am lol.

((at my moms friday - sunday)) comming home at 4 tho cause i dont wana go in the first place. but shes takin me drivin on sat. so thats a + atleast i can drive. n i get to see kyle.