Well my winter break started off just wonderful! Just to let you know, I'm being completely sarcastic. Today was pointless, long and drawn out, and I was in a different mood/mind set than I normally am.
Recently there's been a bit of friction between me and one of my close friends. It seems every once and a while this happens and when it does it seems like for the same damn reasons over and over again. I always seem to want to try and maintain a friendship with them, but they dont seem to care as much, but then after a while we seem to come back as close friends again. Just this time I'm just kind of tired of it. I've tried all I can to get along with this person and maintain a friendship, but I guess it's not enough. Plus I think I'm being even too nice, as my friend Jeff put it. So instead of trying to break my back and be a friend to this person.... if they're not sure they want to actually try and be friends instead of not having straight forward answers then I might as well let it go. But I have a much more important thing to worry about now than acting like first greaders and trying to find out if its worth being friends with this person.
Today I came home from school, and was gonna lay down and take a nap before the pep band game tonight when my mom called me. My grandpa had a stroke today. This is Grandpa Vern, the one who owns the greenhouse for some of you who may have met him.
My grandpa has this lady that comes over to clean and cook and such for him I think almost everyday and today when she got there my grandpa was passed out laying on the floor. She ran to the greenhouse (which is across the street) to tell my uncle(who now owns the greenhouse) and my uncle went over there and called 911. The second my mom got there my aunt said, "Mary, you have to go to the hospitol" because obvious of the stroke.
My aunt had been a nurse before so she thought it was a stroke and when my mom and uncle were there they told them that it was.
Aparently it was a different kind of a stroke, I forgot the technical name of it, but what happened is one of the blood vessels in his head popped which made blood hemorrhage.
OR
it could of been some medicine my grandpa was taking that made it bleed, they're not sure yet
but it was either resulted because of high blood pressure, or it caused him to have high blood pressure. All I know is it go to past 200.
Anyway... the blood in his head apparently had gotten to the size of a lemon and was putting pressure on the brain and they had to give him surgury or he would die automatically.
He went through with the surgury and me and my dad went down there and a bit after we got there, the doctor came in and told us the surgury went fine.
At that time me, my mom, my dad, my aunt, uncle, cousin kim, the lady that takes care of him and her husband were there.
So it sounded good. Then most of them went home except for my Uncle, and my, my mom and my dad. We tried to wait to see him and I did get to see him. This other guy when we were waiting came in. At this time my uncle left, but he wanted to know what meds my grandpa was taking because something he was taking could of caused it. He also said that he doesnt know how he's going to be either. He said some get worse before they get better. He also said he doesnt know if he will survive at all.
They put him in a coma overnight so when I saw him he was all drugged up. I said a few things to him, whether he heard me or not that I dont know. I had to hold back tears in there.... I just hope to hell he's okay.
They already know the stoke has paralyzed his left hand completely.... his whole left side could turn out that way too, they dont know though.
Tomorrow he's supposed to wake back up.... everyone is going to get to see him again tomorrow except for me because I have winter guard.
Just when I heard about this I knew I had to see him because I felt guilty of not getting to see my great aunt in the hospitol before she died about 3 years ago. My great aunt that died was my grandpas bother and well I dont know whats going to happen to him, but I sure as hell want to be able to communicate with him as soon as possible. Just writing about this is making me have to hold back tears.
It sucks to have to start off break this way and probably I'll be visiting him a lot over break.
Lately its just been a really rough time for me. I've been stressed out, and there's been times where I have been depressed becaues of certain things, and I've just had to worry about things.... and now this happens to my grandpa. It just doesnt seem like anything is going to settle down where I can just relax and be happy.
I'm not looking forward to going to winter guard tomorrow because I'm worried about him and just I cant do much except for pray.
Well I hope the rest of you have a good time on break. Considering the stress I've had lately, and friction between friends, and now this.... It just seems like theres going to be a lot of down moments.
I dont think I ask much from my friends and such, but if I needed a friend, and this goes for all of you, this is a really good time where I could use one.
God Bless
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