So its the last week of school thank God!!!!  I have 3 finals to work on.  One spanish, one history, and I have a writing porfolio due tomorrow (tuesday) that is going to be the end of me.  Tonight (monday) I feel I am going to be up very late and I have to work tomorrow.  I do not want to work tomorrow but I'm just going to go with it.  I am going to be exhosted.  I have a feeling that tonight is going to be an all nighter.  Tomorrow nigt i'm not sure if it is going to be an all nighter.  I have nothing for Wednesday than God.  Except studying for these freaking finals!!!!  If I survive this week its going to be a merical.  If I pass my spanish class this semester that is going to be even more of a merical. 

Also, I feel like I have let myself down and i am letting my family down, manley my parents.  This is just such a frustrating time that I am not putting my whole hart into everything that I need to work on.  Spanish everything is going to the way side until this freaking portfolio is done.  I'm putting all my effort into that currently that everything else is suffering.  All of this goes back to my time manigment.  See, I have nobody to blame but myslef. 

Ok, so it is the end of the semister and I definitly know that it is crunch time for me.  I have a tone of stuff due that I haven't even started.  Some stuff due within the next few weeks and other stuff due at the last day of class (final day).  Thank God!!!! finally were getting a chance to talk about finals!!!!!  I thought this day would never come.  But my problem is that I know that I need to get my act together and just not do anything almost but the stuff.  But for some of it like Spanish, I don't feel so motivated.  Other stuff like English I'm really into doing but I'm dreading to work on it because I'll get sucked into the world of English.  I need to find a good balince.  But that is hard with a new paper for English that is due within the next two weeks ontop of all of the other stuff I have to do for English.  I love the professor that I have but it some times seems that she thinks thats the only class we have.  I know she understands that it isn't because she talked to the class about time manigment before.  Haha, I just had an epifiny or how ever you spell it.  To help with my work load, when ever I got my journals back from my English Prof, maybe I should have edited them then.  Wow, what a revilation.  How could I be so freaking dumb!!

Oh well, that was my rant for today.  Good luck to everybody who is finishing up with school.  Work through the stress, the light at the end of the tunnel is almost in view.  peace yall!!!!!

So on Monday I went into the PX on the Barricks to talk to Matt about coming back to work there.  He seemed happy like I was considering coming back.  But guess who else was there and over heard our discussion.  If you guessed Anette, your correct!!!!!!  Matt was about to ask and she already was shaking her head no.  He actualy didn't even have time to ask.  So I don't know what I did to earn her hatrid.... but I have it.  So i'm not sure if i'm going to go there any more.

My brother Chris says that I shouldn't go back.  He says its like going back to a girl friend you just broke up with and trying to get back together but the reason you broke up is still there.  My oldest brother Sam says that I should do what ever makes me happy.  I loved everything about that place except for Anette or how ever you spell her name.  

Um I sorta lost my train of thought so i'm going to stop there for today.