So, right now I'm sitting here at Michael's house, bored but happy.  He's been here since Friday night.  We have had so much fun.  It's been really laid back, but I've definitely enjoyed every minute of it.  I can't ever get enough of him.  No matter how we are while he's gone, nothing is ever wrong when he's home.  The arguements that we have when he's back in Cali I think are because we are so far apart.  We get so angry and frustrated that we can't see each other and take it out on each other.  It's always easier to take things out on the one we love.  Having him home this weekend has reassured me that everything is fine.  We are meant for each other and this WILL work!!  I'm so stoked!!  :o)

We are about to head to Applebees for lunch, then we're off to golf.  Well, actually, Michael and Joey (Sara, Michael's sister's, boyfriend) are golfing and Sara and I are drivin' the cart!!  I've never drivin' a golf cart before, I'm definitely excited.  It's gonna be CRAZY...no I'M GONNA BE CRAZY!  :o) Hehehehe!

I totally miss all of my friends that have left for college.  Here I am, stuck here in Oly still.  Well, I'm not stuck, I have a choice, but money is totally tight right now and will be for a while.  Oh yeah, I gave my notice.  My last day of work will be September 16...craziness...I'm gonna miss it...and the people.  OH!  More crazy news.  I found out my manager has colon cancer...the next day, my old manager Nancy, yeah, remember her...she had cancer on her lower spine...then...I got a call on Saturday, Nancy past away on Friday..........past away.  She's gone.  I mean, no matter how rude she was to me while I was working there, you never wish anything like that on anyone...her funeral is on Thursday....life has some crazy twists..

Well, we're off to have some cart drivin' fun!  Peace out!!

Until next time...Jeremiah 29:11

14 days until New York!!!!!!!!!!!  :o)

so, life has been....pretty crappy lately.  i mean, i try so hard to be the same peppy girl that i've always been but i know that i'm boring and depressed.  i know that i'm not that fun to hang out with anymore....i wish life was different...

God is there and listening, but sometimes...i feel like He doesn't want to listen anymore...

i want to feel loved...i want to feel like i'm the one and only...i want to feel like i used to feel.....

Wow, I haven't updated this thing in ages.  This time was worse than all the others!  Haha!

Lets see, a lot has gone on since April.  Currently, I am finishing up my two week vacation from work.  Whoo hoo!  It's been awesome.  Michael was home for three weeks, left yesterday, so I got to chill with him and his family.  Didn't do a whole lot, just hung out mostly.  Went to the beach, played Texas Hold'em and Phase 10 a lot, had a BBQ for the 4th, watched him play softball...it was fun.  It's hard going from seeing and being with each other every minute of the day to not seeing them at all......only 16 more months to go before he's home for good.  :o)

Lets see, what else...my cat had his leg amputated.  He had cancer and the only way to get rid of it was to amputate his entire leg.  I think we are going to call him Tripod from now on....:o)...no, but seriously, it's really sad.  Oh, and I'm starting the Art Institute of Seattle this Fall.  I'm totally excited, except that means that I have to quit my job and work part time.  I haven't told anyone at work yet because when I told them I was even applying to schools, they treated me differently.  I'm hoping that there will be something part time for me there.  If not, does anyone know of any part time positions opening?  Ugh, I hate looking and starting new jobs.

Oh, I'm going to New York in September!!!  My sister is going for work and I'm tagging along.  Hotel is paid for and my round trip ticket was $292!!!!  We are in the middle of time square, a few blocks from Broadway, Good Morning America and MTV!!!!  So excited!!

Well, I've got to head out.  I'm gonna try to update this more!!  :o)

Love ya lots.....74 days until New York!!

A is for age: 20
B is for booze: Corona

C is for career: Interior Designer? (hopefully)

D is for dad's name: Michael
E is for essential items to bring to a party: I'm all you need!!  :o) 
F is for favorite song at the moment: 

G is for boyfriend/Girlfriend: Michael Carey!!! my baby! :o) 
H is for hometown: Lacey, originally from Sacramento, CA, but spent most of my growning up in Lacey

I is for instruments you play: clarinet and sax

J is for jam or jelly you like: strawberry
K is for kids: want 2-3

L is for living arrangements: home, mom, me, dog and cats 
M is for mom's name: Debbie
N is for name of your best friend: Michael
O is for overnight hospital stays: Like 2-3 weeks when I was a baby
P is for phobias: water and spiders

Q is for quote you like: "reality continues to ruin my life"

R is for relationship that lasted the longest: Michael Carey, 16 months :o) (but pretty much 5 years ;o).)
S is for sexual position: Michael knows *wink*
T is for time you wake up: 6:45-7ish

U is for unique trait: no idea
V is for vegetable you love: celery or carrots
W is for worst trait: too many

X is for x-rays you've had: teeth, heart 
Y is for yummy food you make: anything with chicken :o) and cookies

Z is for zodiac sign: Aquarius

::Current Mood::  blah...

It's so incredibly gorgeous outside, clear blue skies, sunny, warm....but I just can't get into it.  Even this nice weather isn't doing it for me.  I don't know what my deal is.  I don't know what's wrong...actually, yeah, I do know whats wrong.  School, work...I love my job, absolutely love it.  The people are nice, the paychecks are nice, the benefits are VERY nice...but it's just not doing it for me.  I sit next to a girl who is 25 and has been working there ever since she graduated..before even.  She started as an intern.  I don't want to do that.  I want to go to school...not this online crap.  Well, I like the online classes and would love to continue them, but I want to attend school at the same time.  I want to do both online and onground classes.  That means I would have to quit my job and go.  I don't have the money...I couldn't do it financially.  Not school...I have loans for that.  I'm talking, phone, car, credit card, gas....regular, everday bills.  I can't do it.  I am getting no help, wouldn't get any help.  I have to pay for everything myself.  This is horrible...absolutely horrible.  *sigh*  what do I do?

Welp, I better get back to my essay...it's beautiful out and I'm stuck inside doing homework.  Not like there's anything else to do anyways...I don't have friends.  They've all stopped returning my phone calls....

later......