Helpless...Helpless...Helpless

Like Neil Young I am awaiting the big birds flying across the sky. Tired, exhausted and helpless...I keep my eyes toward the sky. Compassion comes unwilled and unrecognized. Times when I'm not at work I can easily drink beers and not blink. I am not lost, I have not died...I am simply living, working and slowly dying. No depression...just tired. Will have a vacation in a the beginning of August....hope all of my friends on Xanga are well. Bless you all.

Blood, Ass and tears

So many motorcycle accidents. Am I more aware as a rider, or is it just that its he season for doners.

Yesterday I had a nice guy with a crushed foot and his femur sticking out where it didn't belong. I ask the MD's in the middle of the chaos “do you want me to give this brother some pain meds?” MD orders a piss poor amount. I give the patient double, calling out a 'fat dose' given. If my Femur was sticking out where it didn't belong, well I damn sure want some paint control. Later the same Dr asks for the same amount, I tell him “well I doubled your request last time, and I'll be damned if I don't do it again!”. They were pissed...but fuck them...it is not time for a slow learning curve and I was in no mood. Later we opted to intubate. They call out again for a piss poor amount of meds for sedation as ortho manipulates the leg. Patient thrashing, 7 people holding him I then call out my own dose...completely ignoring the MD's ....damn I hate learning curves!

I was thanked later by the same MD who was pissed at my reckless and blatant ignoring of orders. If we were in the military I made have FRAG'd the Bastard. But all is well that ends well.

I ran into the bloody leg in the middle of the Trauma and got blood all over my ass. So periodically as I frantically worked the trauma I would run out and call to other nurses. “Get me some scrubs (turning around with my ass out the door)”. I dropped my scrubs in the middle of the trauma bay and put new ones on..not missing a beat.

God Love my Muslim friend. He told me it happened because of this picture.

Me and Big Gay Joe!