it's so easy to act happy

but sometimes you just have to realize when you're not

i'm not

*sigh*

sometimes i feel like i try so hard but nothing happens because of it

but than i wonder, was i even trying hard enough?

and why are people stupid bitches, especially girls

i miss home and everyone back there...<3<3<3

i miss all my girl talks with alex :P

i wish i could go home right now, i really feel like i can't go on being around these people and being someone who i'm not, i'm all clamed up and not as crazy as i used to be...what's happening to me??

eh, lifes to short to worry

peace peace i got class in the morn

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I'm HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

:D fo reals homies.  i was serioulsy feeling depressed for sometime when i came back to Irvine.  i ran away from my roots to try something new and now being away and than coming back to what i left i realized i never should have left.  you can't take mo-town out of this girl, i got mad love for STL.

AND it didn't help that when i came back to Irvine SO much drama happened.  basically i lost my two bestest friends.  but now i realize it was totally for the better, friends who i hadn't really been that close too are all of a sudden bringing so much more into my life. and i'm thankful for everything.  there really is a reason for everything :)

school is rough as usual, it's hard with 18 units yuck...

but i'm happy! oh and i'm switching to verizon same number tho i think

and i freaking want a date for v-day but there are some slim pickings when you're in a nerdy ass major haha.

but i'm tired and i have a long day tomorrow so peace peace!

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i could be writing my essay right now, but shit, i just woke up and i need to shower and i want to blog so STFU lol jp!

last night was a good night, it was a night that made me want to stay in Irvine.  me and like 10 other people went up to LA and had a fabulous time at a club up there, ok but my question is, how does a straight girl in a club for gay boys get more action than her gay friends??? haha long but funny story lol and it was not from a woman. :P

wouldn't it be amazing if life could just be continual nights of partying and just being crazy, not having to worry about school or anything, just chilling and being with the people you love. 

but i also relaly learned who my true friends are and it hurts knowing it has come to this but if that's what they want then that's what they'll get.  i've given up :(

but whatevs it's all good :D i'm havin a good time lol but honestly school is rough but ima make it one way or another so i really should get ontop of that essay if i want to have a dream of a chance of going out tonight

so ima go shower and finish the essay peace peace!