i'm home! hoorah!

so why is it life is so complicated.
making mistakes...wishing for hope.
i could make you melt if you'd only let me in.
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party....and i'm still here.....hurrah for kaci's makeup bag....me and clayton had some fun with it...haha..pictures pending.
i ate way too much food today feel like i'm gonna explode.....grrrar!
now life is pretty freakin amazing.
hello love.....
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school is going really great.
i miss my friends from home.
i miss my family.
i miss not having my cat sleeping by my face at night.
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i'm completely pissed that i can't make you happy.
....that i do the wrong thing at the wrong time.
....that i am sick.
....that i can't see my beautiful brand new mommy lacy's babies.
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i am shocked that i haven't ended up dead from all the homework i have.
....that i haven't run out of money for rent yet.
....that i have only worked one day since i moved here.
....that i have made a-MAZING friends already.
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i want to share a moment with someone special.
i want a sertain someone and his 300dollar phone to like me....hahahaa....
i want to forget what i've lost and remember what i have and what i've gained from losing.
i want to cherish every moment.
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i need to find a job i can actually work.
i need to lose 15lbs....and still look healthy!
i need to sleep, and remember my dreams the next day.
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i am getting better.
i am finding a happiness that may be for real.
i am going to the beach tomorrow with my new best friend kathryn.
i am learning a lot about myself as i live.
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i saw corpse bride....BRILLIANT indeed.
i love tim burton and the deppster.
protest downtown yesterday.....for the war and hurricane effects....grr.
hurrah for smiles...boys who wear eyeliner....and back massages.
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love to all.
sunshine, hope and prayers to all hurricane victims.

and to that special someone....thank you.xoxo

Currently Watching Big Fish By Ewan McGregor, Albert Finney, Billy Crudup see related

i miss my cat...meh....sadface....
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they say when you meet the love of your life...time stops...it's true.

HEY ALL:
wow! life is crazy. i'm moved into my apartment. i've spent the last 7 days goofing around with my mom, and brother in HOllyWooD...what could be better? i miss my friends...school doesn't start for another 2 1/2 weeks...what to do?! darn...haha...sunday will be my first night alone at my place, HECK YES! i need that right now...i'm searching for a possible roommate...but don't know yet if i want one for sure...i'm applying for jobs, may already have two interviews in line...hurrah! i need to work...ahhhh! everything is so expensive here...yikes-stripes it's ridiculous! ...other than that i did a photo shoot with this photographer from NEW YORK...fun stuff! we went to malibu, santa monica, and venice beach to shoot! haahaa! i was laughing the whole time...me at a photo shoot! HA! it was deffinately fun, but not my thing. tomorrow i'm going to a party, so we'll see if i meet anyone new and exciting. only one so far...haha his name is jeff. he has a house on the beach in malibu- ooo-la-la! he may teach me to surf! woot-woot! haha....we'll see about that. love to all...and keep in touch.

from my heart to yours.
laureN