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Name: Shawnna
Birthday: 4/25/1989
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Interests: learning to survive without the one thing you need in order to live
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Sunday, December 26, 2004

Christmas without you dad is hell

Since you aren’t here I fell

Why didn’t you call me today

So please ask god to make me ok

 

I open presents and none from you

I see moms name but not yours I should have knew

Day after day waiting for you phone call

Now I’m waiting for you to fall

 

More gifts I would say

Then would laugh all day

Toys clothes more more

You promised you’ll came back you swore

 

Time went on time went by

Day and Night went by now I’m looking at the sky

Clothes worn Clothes washed

Dreams all my dreams squashed

 

Tear after tear never changed a thing

Cries after Cries thinking it was a fling

Call after call and you never there

Hard times this is all to much to bare

 

Cut after cut scars all over my arm

It’s too bad this is all self harm

You never came back to me

So I ask god to set me free

 

I pierce myself to show how much I hurt

But do you care nope you’re a pervert

I loved you for all to long

I’m weak and no longer strong

 

I can’t see past the lies no longer

You feed on my pain to make you stronger

But in the end you the weaker of the two

Because you left and you have no clue

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


Saturday, December 25, 2004

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! 


Monday, December 20, 2004

Hey Im back! MySweetieBee04

MySweetieBee04: I’ll try to give you everything you want and need and I’m not going to leave you like your fag ass dad did! I’ll try to fill the empty spot under the tree where the presents from your dad should be, I’ll try to wipe your tears when you cry!! I love you okay? Is that a crime? You’ve been through enough! Spending time with you is like seeing and angel!! Remember when I was climbing up the tree to get to your window because you were mad at me and you wouldn’t let me in the front door? I love you!! Bye Mike

Awww thanks mike! I love you and im not mad anymore!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for my x mas gift!! love you

shawnna


Tuesday, November 23, 2004


Saturday, November 20, 2004

to somebody i loved...

Im sorry i breathed and im sorry i excisted but why do you have to determine my fate? when did you get the chance to kill me? What did I ever do in life to make my life this way? Im sorry i ever cried for you. When did this world become to hard to live in? I dont really want christmas to come because i dont want the stress of wondering if my "dad" will call,Send anything Im not looking forward to that day

:( but im hopeing all my friends will pull through. All i wanted was the truth from him and all he ever did was lie!!! My mom said that there will be no lies but thats all she ever does now!!! is lie!! shes becoming such a i dont know what u wanna call her but i have many names! No one is truthfull anymore I cant even trust  me own family and i cant trust myself. No one trusts me to know what i know!! its so annoying!!! and only a couple of people can relize in not okay and im not going to be safe from myself.

 



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Which Kingdom Hearts character are you?
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Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
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Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
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What kind of dark person are you?
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You..are definitely not a smile.In fact,if i asked
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What Kind of Smile are You?
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pirates of the caribbean

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You are most like Anjiru (Angel)the half angel,
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you love to fly and have a lot of fun with your
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vampire?





Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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Spike.

Who's your male Buffy soul mate?
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heart and that he couldn't love or ever be
loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants
wrong. This dude would go thirty times around
the earth if you would ask him to. A person who
threatens you must really have a death wish.

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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and now you are completely shattered. Hang in
there, you will find someone much better.

What kind of love are you?
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You represent... anger. Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to...
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You have Purple Wings! Lost and Confused, when your
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can never decide easily, and even the simplest
choices are difficult to take. A quite, kind
person, you have a very sharp mind and can do
anything if you set your mind to it. But
something probably very sad happened in your
life, and now, you question anything. Lost in
your trance and afraid to peak outside your
box, right now your life is very frustrating.
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Purple is made from blue and red, and with just
a little bit of pushing, you can go back.

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Your a Guradien Angel! Guardien Angels are also
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army of God. Not always meaning that they are
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demons. Warrior Angels are not always friendly
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You came from the sky. Your a daydreamer and prefer
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Where did you come from?
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You are Form 7, Gryphon: The Wyrm. "And The Gryphon displaced the balance of
the world in his favor. With grace and
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all good things must come to an end."
Some examples of the Gryphon Form are Satan
(Christian) and Baphomet (Assyrian). The Gryphon is associated with the concept of
control, the number 7, and the element of wind. His sign is the gibbous moon. As a member of Form 7, you are a very in control
individual. You maintain your coolness in most
situations and always seem to be prepared.
Though some may say you are a bit of a control
freak, you know that you really do make the
best leader even if others can't see it.
Gryphons are the best friends to have because
they have a positive influence on people.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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^^Who is your ultimate Rock Band?^^(pics+new results)
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You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful,
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the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is
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I'm depressed

why is YOUR livejournal annoying?
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I'm Nelson, who are you? by Lexi I'm so like Bart!
I'm Bart, who are you? by Lexi Take the quiz: "How punk r u"

True punk
you are a true punk, you into all the stuff that a true punk would do, smoke, drink, do drugs, listen to REAL punk bands... keep going Take the quiz: "Your Drug Personality..."

Party Drugs ((X,Coke, Meth, Dextro))
Party party party party, You are prolly one crazy fuckerrrr. Ha thats cool tho, you are living your life like you want. Having fun, being crazy... and thats cool, when you die youll be one of the few that can say, and mean it, that you actually had a good time while alive. Maybe you've made some mistakes, but thats fine thats what life is about... you make mistakes and you learn from them... SO KEEP PARTYING AND LIVING IT UP Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have?"

Mysterous/Hidden
Your eyes are mysterour or hidden. You never like to go out and meet new people. You never trust anyone untill you have know them for years. you never talk to your parents about anything at all, and you neve tell your friends everything that you should. They say they care about you, but you think they just want something from you. Sooner or latter in life you know you will find that one true friend. Take the quiz: "How will you commit suicide?! (PICS!!!)"

Cutting
You will cut yourself to bits and pieces and bleed to death, and I doubt that it will be the first time cutting. You so alone, so sad, don't let others bring you down. Stay away from knifes and enjoy life. Take the quiz: "Which Singer Are You?"

Aaron Lewis
Like Aaron, you are a pretty depressing person. You had a terrible, troubling childhood, and you've had your heart crushed many a time. You like to sing about those problems to better ease your own personal pain. You deliver your messages heavy and soft both, but either way you are conveying your feelings to the best of your ability with what you have. Weed, Pot, Mary Jane, I can go on with the names. You like life relaxed and slow. You enjoy smoking or eating you yummy drug. Keep chilling...Oh and dude, get out of your parents basement...lol Take the quiz: "why will you die"

you'll die cause of lonelyness
you'll die cause of lonelyness because you were an outsider...nobody ever loved you....they thought you were way too evil!!! you were always in places nobody ever could find you...thinking of death... Take the quiz: "Are You Really Suicidal or Do You Do It For Attention?"

Really Suicidal...I Feel Ur Pain!
You really suicidal.. I know how you feel.... Maybe we should talk sometime! Take the quiz: "What kind of cutter am i?"

Sad and lonely cutter
I sit in the corner cutting feeling sad Take the quiz: "should you kill youself or continue to live your shitty life"

maybe
youre gettin there...i dunno bout you but i think you need help...but not that badley...have a nice day...serioulsley...you need one Take the quiz: "What self-mutilation emotion sequence are you?"

Vulnerability, Satisfaction, Crushed
blah blah blee Take the quiz: "Do you hate your life?"

You absolutly HATE life!You can't wait to die
Your just like me! You hate life and can't wait for it to be over! Maybe you'll comit suicide! Or maybe you just need someone to talk to or a docter! Take the quiz: "Would the Good Charlotte people like you?"

The would love you!
They would like you! Congrats! They would probably hang out with you for a while and talk if you were EVERY lucky enough to meet them! Take the quiz: "Do you need anger management?.."

woohoo..you need anger management..i think..
hmm..you're just like me..get mad when people get in your way..think about killing people when they piss you off..like to beat the shit out of people.. Take the quiz: "Which Interview with a Vampire character are u?"

Lestat
Lestat de Lioncourt is a vampire made in Paris, France a long time ago.Lestat was born into a royal family. Although he family was not very rich, he was not poor.One of Lestat's amazing feats before becoming a vampire is that he killed a pack of wolves with a sword without anyway to escape when he was around 20.Lestat made Gabrielle, his mother, Nicholas, this didn't work so well because Nicky turned crazy afterwards and killed himself by jumping in fire, Louis, a New Orleans planter, and Claudia a child whose mother was killed by the plague. He was almost killed twice by Claudia. Take the quiz: "Which Hobbit are you?"

Frodo
You are the front one! You like life, but you like death too, at least you have the spotlight! Take the quiz: "What Spice Girl r u most like?"

Posh Spice
You are Posh spice. Your quiet, smart ass but with a great sence of fashion. You weren't the most popular of the fab five but your the most popular now after that you're maried to David Beckam Take the quiz: "Which celeb girl are you related to?"

Hilary Duff
Hilary Duff! Yeah you and your new cousin, sister, or how ever you are related will have fun shopping in malls.Oh and you may even become famous from all those sing lessons Hilary is giving you! Take the quiz: "WHICH FAMOUS PERSON IS YOU SOUL MATE"

christina agulara
U do want love but not not just yet u want to be dirty Take the quiz: "What hottie will you marry?"

Chad Micheal Murry
You got a fine hottie Lucky you Take the quiz: "Are you a huge fan of Johnny depp?"

Wow, are you sure you are just a fan?!
Man you seem to know everything or almost everything about Johnny depp that its like you are a stalker. But its not a bad thing, you are a huge fan just like i am...Johnny is the best right and really hot too! Take the quiz: "Which rapper would you be?"

Eminem
You've been through it all!!!! Lets just say you and Eminem are alike! Take the quiz: "Whats your political view."

Patriot
This is the best country in the world. Freedom and liberty is a human right. Take the quiz: "Which branch of the military are you?"

Army
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