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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 11:00:54 GMT

and i knew this was too good to be true too. ha, but then again, who doesnt want to be in denial.

you just have to see it.....as long as you care, that is.

Friday, July 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 11:17:44 GMT

ai. so this is what you want to do with your resolve

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 01:30:49 GMT

its finally the weekend, finally some sleep. I cant stand waking up at 6 every day and feel like i want to die going to work. but one thing is for certain, is that i have learnt a lot in just 5 days. 90% of the stuff i do are not learnt from school, so basically im starting from scratch. what is worse is that everyone expects you to understand everything after explaining it once. well maybe its just me but im lost quite often. My boss sits right next to me but hes nice enough to explain a lot of things to me, indirectly making me leave later than i want to every night (tho i appreciate his willingness to teach). So when i have to work 5 days a week now, it really makes me treasure the time i have on weekends, kinda like how we treasure the rare sunshine we get once every 10 days in hong kong.

sigh anyway, talk about changes, i wonder if this is change or not, but actions speak louder than words. To me, a dbag will always be a dbag. the most despicable people are those who act all innocent and claim genuineness while refusing to admit intentions. it might not be a conscious one but the reality doesnt lie. i think ive been watching too much drama lately. hmm, ok bitch post complete. once again, im the only one bitching.

Monday, June 09, 2008

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 10:47:19 GMT

isnt it weird that the things we want others to understand the most are usually the most difficult and poorly communicated of all?

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Sat, 31 May 2008 11:57:19 GMT

i guess im not in that circle anymore....how things have changed.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Thu, 29 May 2008 09:25:44 GMT

dreams can be so wildly imaginative and sadly realistic at the same time. At one time I can motorblade down the street (its kinda like rollerblading except theres a motor on the blade.....yeah i have cool dreams) and then another time its "im not talking to you".

This pseudo-reality thing is pretty cool, if you ask me, I see people I hate in my dreams as well as people I have not seen in a long time. It just makes me wonder a lot, it keeps me guessing about things, things that I cannot know but can quite logically deduce. It isnt hard to guess when something is popular and beautiful. Ah well, nevermind in the end its always the same

On a random note, this anime called fate stay night is awesome. I know its anime and its got the usual clicheness with it, but i thought the plot was pretty well-thought out and everything just clicked with the anime, and the ending was definitely one of the best i've seen.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Wed, 21 May 2008 05:32:07 GMT

sitting at this pittsburgh airport, enjoying the free wireless here, things are getting more real by the second. I dont think i will be back at pittsburgh for a long time (there really isnt any reason to come other than for school or to see a friend). I just spent the whole day yesterday moving shit from my apartment to another, it was slavish labor, as i had to empty my whole apartment. Then I have to pack, two full (like full, really full) luggages when i have already thrown away half of my stuff basically.

Now theres delta airlines, quite possibly one of the dumbest airlines i have ever seen (maybe its just the women). So I have a transit at New York, so I wanted to check my bags all the way through to hong kong so i dont have to waste so much time rechecking in in NY, "sure, but we need to see proof that you are flying out of NY" the lady said. "I didnt print my itinerary out, but I have the flight number and the confirmation code." I said. "We need physical proof that you are flying out of NY." she replied. I could have shown her my itinerary from my laptop, but no, she needs physical proof. Basically, I would be fine if a sheet of paper said I was flying out of NY, it wouldnt be fine if i just showed her the proof from my computer. I was ready to kill her, what the hell does a piece of paper mean? If i miss my flight from NY to HK i will fucking, well i dunno what i can do. Im just bitching. oh well, i havent slept much for the past few days and i havent slept at all last night. gonna die, gonna die.

bah, then theres HK.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Tue, 13 May 2008 01:30:05 GMT

havent been my inspirational self lately (big cough).......if life is really like a song, then i just cant find my rhythm. although listening to some nostalgic songs do bring back nice feelings, seems like im just waiting for things to happen, just waiting for a lot of things to happen....not the right way, is it? psssssh.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Sat, 03 May 2008 02:03:48 GMT

things that are unsaid arent always untrue

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 01:14:57 GMT

when a chapter in your life comes to an end, another one will begin. so, one more week till exams, another two more weeks till graduation and countless years of "real world" ahead of me. As time goes by, we all adapt to the environment around us, but does it change who we are?

Transition - high school and college, they are a once in a lifetime experience. Then its anticipation, looking into the future. I wonder how much of everything will I forget. I wonder how each decision I make will guide me. Looking back at every choice along the way, some good some bad and some terrible ones. Of course there are things I wish I could have done better, but i also feel there are some that are dictated by circumstances and the environment. thats just an excuse isnt it.

wouldnt it be great, if life was a journey (in a way it is) that we embark on. instead of dreaming, making fantasies come true. even in this world theres so much to explore. i will do it someday, i think. im not sure what type of mentality i have now, but there are scenes played in my head over and over again. I know i can do better