heh

 

today i just realize that its my father's bday. its been at least 3 years where i have not been with my father more than a day. this is because my mother does not want to see my father; so me meeting him on a daily basis is slim.

 

he still insists that he would get together with my mother; IMO that won't happen. i dont want to tell him the truth in his face. but he gotta realize whats reality. he changed ever since the separation [though not divorced]. he became more religious - and i dont want him to go into a false reality b/c of that.

 

i think he's just like me - when my first relationship ended. i went to the extreme and said something that even i was surprised. unlike me however, he still cannot move on, and for about twenty years of marriage - how can he? to be honest, i woulda told him - move on, there's other women out there, or move on, you should enjoy yourself now. but whats the point? unless he's doing this because out of desparation ... why?

 

and yea, though i almost forgot that its his bday, i did wish'd him a happy bday.

 

gg