R.I.P. Ryan Matthew Miller 9-26-88 -- 10-6-06

i honestly cant believe u did this to urself. we were just laughing our asses off the other day, i know u were going through some tough times with ur family but what u did was not the answer. there were other ways out, u couldve got some help. we all couldve helped you through this like we have been trying these last couple of days, do u kno how hurt christina is right now?? she is so hurt man. i miss u already, as soon as i found out i speeded so fast and came to ur house.. the cops were there and everything, they wouldnt let us see u. this still has not yet hit me... why, this wasnt the answer. u were such a loving n caring person, everyone loved u. how are we all gonna make it without u by our sides?? i love u man, u will always be in my heart.

i wish i was there to stop all of this....

i dont ever use this thing anymore but its my bday well its like 1 in the morning, my bday was the 9th, but hell yes im 17 now!!! hung out with the family today, we went to joes crab shack and went to the mall i got 4 jeans and 2 shirts at abercrombie n fitch and a pair of nikes at footlocker, it was actualyl fun hanging out with my family today. but yea, im goin 4wheelin tomorrow at my uncles in Grain Valley. theres all the great news folks lol

the picture was takin today

everything is so much better now!!

dont u just hate it when things dont go right? atleast i do... i wish my parents never got a divorce.......... but there wasnt anythin i could to change that, so it doesnt really matter anymore. but enough bout me complainin bout that..... besides any of that, everything is really great right now and i want it to be that way for a long time. ive never complain so much in my life before.... wel i did absolutely nothin last night.. thats a FIRST, i just went to bed around 12... im not doin anythin tonight either, im just in the need to stay home and be with the fam. we're bout to go watch movies inna min. i have my family over n everythin so it should b cool... we rode 4wheelers earlier, i popped a wheely n almost tipped over, it was some crazy ass shit lol. wel this is gettin too long so im out

cal

im goin to the movies tonite wit a couple of friends. man its so fuckin hot outside rite now!! hotter than yesterday. cant wait till summer! chill with the friends n fam. party it up! there's a party tonite at josh's, i better see some of u ppl there.. it should b off the chain. wel im goin to Cali to visit my old friends n some of my fam. up there on May 23rd. I really can't wait for that, ive been lookin forward to that ever since i moved down here to missouri, but i like MO. anyways this is gettin long so im out

Cal