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Name: Brandon
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Atlanta
Birthday: 11/2/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: My amazing and beautiful Jackie Doby, music (**Avenged Sevenfold**, Godsmack, Disturbed, System Of A Down, rap, but NEVER country), food (LOTS of food, even though you can't tell I eat a lot because of my skinnyness, lol), Airsoft, playing military video games online with friends, AIM, making web pages from both scratch and using DreamWeaver, computers, Internet, ect.
Expertise: I am the master of being lazy.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  pimpslacker16
Yahoo:  Slacker_Master17
Member Since:
3/3/2005
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| I've noticed that the only time I'm really happy anymore is when I'm with her, even when something reminds me about everything that usually would make me sad and fight back the tears. Then, as soon as I walk out her front door to go back home, I get all sad again cuz then all I can think about is what all has happened. But, when we're together is seems eveverything is great, sometimes like nothing ever happened. We're laughing, tickling each other and loving the sound of each other's laugh (she hasthe cutest laugh and giggle I've ever heard! omg, I love it), hugging each other, ect., the only thing that I really notice that's different is that we never make out anymore and don't really even kiss very much. We used to have difficulty to not make out all the time, now it never happens  . Also, we never do anything sexual at all, and we used to do it probably every other day. That's the main things I've noticed that are a lot different, however, I honestly think she still loves me.
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| It hurts so bad, to know that she doesn't love me anymore, to know that we're falling apart but not being able to do anything about it but watch helplessly as it happens. If we break up, I don't think I will ever be the same, and who knows how long it would be before I could even think about moving on. I love her so damn much, she means everything to me, and I used to be the same to her and she is to me. But now it's all changed, and I don't know what I did to cause this change. She says it's not me, that I'm still the same, but maybe that's what's wrong is that I'm still the same and she's gotten bored of me? Idk what to think anymore, my mind is just constantly racing lately, trying frantically to think of something I can do to keep our relationship from drowning before it's too late, but I'm just so afraid that it already is too late. I love her so much, and I know that I always will whether we're together in the future or not. I just really hope that we can make it through all this, I just hope that it's all a phase of confusion and that she does love me afteall, I just hope with all the hope in the world that we don't fall apart and that we make it through this. I don't want to lose her  .
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| Yea, so I'm suprised I got even one comment while I was gone to Tahoe for a week, but that was even after I basically asked for comments. I think I'm pretty much done with Xanga, fuck it and Myspace both  .
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| I'm going to Tahoe tomorrow!!!! And my amazing, beautiful, incredible, smart, funny, silly, fun, precious, most awesome g.f. in the world Jackie is coming with me, for a week in Tahoe, California! Omg it's gonna be awesome. Plus, my Valentine's Day was fantastic. Don gave Jackie $40 for us to go eat somewhere, so we went to Chilis cuz it's cheap and it was the only place we could find that wasn't packed with a 2 hour+ wait. Well, they brought out my wrong dinner, so they gave me my dinner for free; that was awesome and unexpected. Then we went to Starbucks and they gave us the wrong drinks, so we waited for maybe 2 minutes on the uber nice ppl there to make us new ones and they gave us 2 "one free beverage" coupons; that was also awesome and unexpected. Then just hanging out with Jackie all night and everything, it was just awesome. Damn I love her, she just makes me  , I love it.
So yea, since I'm gonna be gone for a week, lets see how many comments I get while I'm gone. I'm gonna guess.....absolutely none. So, prove me wrong people!
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| My dad informed me today that he's putting me on my own car insurance plan instead of being on theirs, making theirs $800 extra/6 months. Well, by being on my own plan, I'll be having to pay $1572/6 months, or $262/month. I didn't even make that much a month working at Chick-fil-A, and I sure as hell didn't make that much a month at g-a-e Kroger. I have no idea how I'm going to be able to find a job to pay for that, gas, food, ect.
So me and Jackie went job hunting today, and ran into quite an interesting girl while walking towards Subway (exit 17) after leaving Fajitas. Me and Jackie were walking together, and I had left my cell phone in the car and Jackie never has hers with her cuz of the broken antenna. Well this girl, probably in her early to mid-20's, asked if either if us had a cell phone she could use. I said we didn't, and she like freakin snapped. She was all like "I know you have a cell phone, don't lie to me." So I'm trying not to laugh, trying to calmly say "sorry, we seriously don't have a cell phone with us," and she continued with "you're what, 16, 17, and you don't have a cell phone? Don't lie to me" as she passed us. So I was like "I'm 18 dumbass, you need to watch how you talk to people" (cuz at this point I was just getting kinda mad). So this chick like FREAKED OUT and turned around and started walking back towards us saying something like "oh I'm the dumbass? Let's see you hit me," lmfao. So I'm like laughing as I'm talking over my shoulder, "haha, first off I wouldn't hit a girl cuz I'm not a jackass," and she continued talking and shit.
So me and Jackie just kept walking and I guess the girl had turned back around, but I was just like laughing the whole time cuz some random ass stranger snapped on us like a freakin crack head, then I called a stranger a dumbass, omg it was so funny, but freaky as hell tho. Idk what this girl was on or what the hell her deal was, but it was pretty damn funny.
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