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Name: Caeraerie
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Baltimore
Gender: Male


Interests: Computer programming, reading, writing
Expertise: Criminal Justice, food preparation and management
Occupation: Audit/Analysis
Industry: Government


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Saturday, August 04, 2007

Currently Listening
...And Justice For All
By Metallica
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A Sign of True Nobility

I am Caeraerie, born in America, raised there, a citizen of this nation. And there are many things I see in my country which I would like to change.  I see the greedy, the corrupt, those who lie the best being rewarded with many of our highest positions.  I see the poor, the weak and the oppressed and the rich who exploit this for the sake of profit.  And I rage against the injustice and the lies and the subtle shading of truth that makes the truth in itself a lie.  I interfere where I can; I do what it is in my power to do; but the greater evil I am currently unable to combat.

One day, perhaps.  Not now.

I rarely comment on the world's events; our news media is far better at that than I.  Nor do I comment much upon America's failings or victories; the one is the tune played on by far too many, the other is spouted primarily by those who willfully blind themselves to the shortcomings of this nation and the fact that some of the current mess we are in is of our own making.  Never mind that there were visionaries who warned us; our nation created a part, and no small part, of the quagmire we are now in.

But if we acknowledge the failings of yesterday, and of today as well, then it is only right that we acknowledge also America's commitment to principles that were considered outdated at the time of the Rennaisance.

One of Britain's foremost political statesmen, Lord Acton, wrote, "The essence of nobility, if it be measureable, lies not in the click of coins, nor the stamp of armies, nor the wealth of land and serf. The first is too much our downfall, the second an anachronism that clearer minds of the future will view with disgust, and the last smacks of extortion, theivery and exploitation.  Rather, then, if the concept of nobility lies within any, let it be measured in the actions.  Measure it with the staff of chivalry, of honor, of commitment to the principles which motivated those of older times.  And where this measure cannot be met, I say that nobility does not exist, have you never so many names in the peerage."

Today, the news has come that I half-expected,and that I half-feared would not arrive.  One of the American soldierswho had participated in what many would term the simple enjoyment of the fruits of rightful conquest has now been tried before a military court-martial.  Private First Class Jesse V. Spielman was convicted of conspiracy, aiding/abetting a felony, forcible rape and four counts of murder for his involvement in the rape of a 14-year-old Iraqi girl and the murder ofher and her family. The court has passed sentence: 110 years in federal military prison.

Spielman was convicted, not for what he did (the prosecutors acknowledge that he did not actually rape the girl), but for refusing to speak inthe girl's defense, for keeping watch while other members of his squad actually raped the girl and for not exposing the crimes. 

Wherein, then, is the nobility of character that I have seen?  Not in Spielman, certainly, nor his sister (who reportedly screamed in court about the government having set Spielman up).  No, my view is directed elsewhere.

Spielman and his comrades are not the first to exercise the right of conquerors.  Nor are they the first to do so in this bloody mess we call Iraq.  They are not even the first of the Americans to do so, nor are they the first prosecuted for these crimes and others.

But no other nation has done what America did this day.  The crime was done in secret and hidden by the flames of gasoline.  The witnesses were silenced by knife and gun.  The victim was charred.  The actions were done without the knowledge of the leaders in Iraq or in America.

But when the crime was made known, when the truth was exposed, American investigators, prosecutors and defense personnel madetheir investigations.  The lies were stripped away and the truth revealed. One by one the actors in thiscrime were found out, exposed, arrested and bound over for the courts.  And this was not conducted under some guiseof training, nor under the protective blanket of an "Official Secrets Act."  This was done, conducted, verified, and corroborated in the cold, clear light of day.  The transcripts of the trial, save only those pieces which could harm others (i.e. the classified portions) are, or soon will be, available.  The jury has heard the evidence, has passed its sentence, has recommended the penalty which has now been assessed.

And this has happened before all the world, not because America wanted to do so, but because it could do no other that to permit, even to encourage, the revelation of the crimes, the actors and the punishment therefor. 

This is the nobility I have seen.  That a nation, whose leaders are often so steeped in lies and hypocrisy that it becomes difficult to sort out which is the criminal and which the politician, would, in times of direst stress, resort again to the principles of its foundation.  Justice. Truth.  Honor. 

Well done, America.  Well done, indeed!


Saturday, July 21, 2007

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The Open Door
By Evanescence
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New world

A new world. It has haunted my dreams since I was young, a world where pain is gone, where I can run and walk and laugh and fly...

How much of it is real?  I believe all of it, and yet my head whispers that such a thing can never be.  Not for me.  Never for me.  But still, the dream...  and I am yet young enough to think of dreams as real and possible.

Lord, I have faith; please increase the little I have.

My friends, so few, so precious, so real.  Some are in pain,and I weep when I cannot soothe their agony.  Some are in torment, and I rage that I cannot drive away their antagonists.  Some are in want, and I long for the means to help.

And at least one is in exaltation; his third child born last night, and I rejoice at the greatness of God's gift

My words are so small, but they are all I have.  My arms cannot span the miles to hold my friends, my voice, or an electronic representation of it, must go where I cannot.  And my dreams must do what my heart cannot; reach by faith beyond the barrier of the physical to lay hold upon the eternal.

My friends, I love you beyond my ability to tell. My friends, you are so few, below a dozen, and yet I am richer than old king Croesus, for I have you...

Safe dreaming, my friends, my fellow dancers in the daydreams of the eternal...


Friday, May 11, 2007

And it's over.

Effective Tuesday of this week, I resigned from GAO.  While I'll be working there until possibly late June, the letters went in on Tuesday.

Two years.  Gone to history.

Seems like I should say more, a decent requiem or something.  But I'm out of words.

Good night, all


Wednesday, January 31, 2007

My fine is: $726.00

Stolen from ExLibris, cause it was funny:

 

Just read the "offense" and if you've committed the deed/crime, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each "offense" and added up your total fine. Title it: "My fine is $........" You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. If you feel like getting even more clever, add your own 'offense' at the end and tag some people to play too,  yo!

 

Smoked pot -- $10

 

Dropped acid -- $5

 

Ever had sex at church -- $25

 

Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40

 

Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25

 

Had sex for money -- $100

 

Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20

 

Vandalized something -- $20

 

Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10

 

Beat up someone -- $20

 

Been jumped -- $10

 

Cross-dressed -- $10

 

Given money to a stripper -- $25

 

Been in love with a stripper -- $20

 

Kissed someone whose name you didn't know -- $0.10

 

Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15

 

Ever drive drunk -- $20

 

Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50

 

Used toys while having sex -- $30

 

Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20

 

Went skinny dipping -- $5

 

Had sex in a pool -- $20

 

Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10

 

Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20

 

Cheated on your significant other -- $10

 

Masturbated -- $10

 

Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20

 

Done oral -- $5

 

Got oral -- $5

 

Done / got oral in a car while it was moving -- $25

 

Stolen something -- $10

 

Had sex with someone in jail -- $25

 

Made a nasty home video -- $15

 

Had a threesome -- $50

 

Had sex in the wild -- $20

 

Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25

 

Stolen something worth more than a hundred dollars -- $20

 

Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20

 

Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25

 

Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50

 

Said you love someone, but didn't mean it -- $25

 

Went streaking -- $5

 

Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15

 

Been arrested -- $5

 

Spent time in jail -- $15

 

Peed in the pool -- $0.50

 

Played spin the bottle -- $5

 

Done something you regretted -- $20

 

Had sex with your best friend -- $20

 

Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25

 

Had anal sex -- $80

 

Lied to your mate -- $5

 

Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25

 

Had sex with a teacher, professor, or TA (not necessarily to influence your grade)  $35

 

Swiped the underwear/bra/lingerie (or equivalent) of someone -- $1.50

 

Ran said item clothing up flagpole, or otherwise displayed publicly - $50

 

 

Tally it up and Title it..."My Fine Is..." (And yes, I'm counting all technicalities, including the fact that my wife is the teacher of our three home-schooled children...)

 

 


Tuesday, January 23, 2007

The Return

Monday I was afraid would never end.  Deathly-long day filled with pain and tight smiles and anger and bitterness that sucked at my will and my emotions.  I closed them off.  Shut out my feelings to walk cold through the halls of my workplace.

It worked, but at what cost?

Today is better, if only just.  I spoke with my staff supervisor today and asked him to move me from this job.  He agreed, if I could find a place to go, to move me off this team in three weeks.  For the government, that's lightning speed. 

Soooooo....

Tomorrow, I meet with staffing managers for three different teams, and we shall see what is available.  I will keep you all informed.



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