edit.//

i am not destroying my xanga.
it shall live.
offend who it may.

yeah so.
i took kaitlyn to olga's tonight.
never listen to friends about so called
'good restaurants'
it was the size of a claire's store
it was pricey.
it wasn't that great.
and it smelled like feta cheese and dirty crack.

gah.
I adore that girl.
she makes me feel so special.
when i am with her nothing else matters..
i have no expectation.
just being with her, looking into her eyes and holding her hand
is enough for me.

i have never felt this way about anyone..
what is this feeling?

it is so odd..

i admit.

i like it.

I don't drink
I don't smoke
I don't do drugs
I don't sneak out
I don't lie about where I am going
I'm home and in bed at a decent hour

yet they still found the need
to go snooping into my private life.

no bathroom door locks
no door knob on my door
listening in on my phone calls.

xanga was my only privacy.

but you found the need to
read it.

i am not demonic
i am not buddhist.

i am christian who lives a buddhist life.
( i.e. meditation, yoga, soundscape music )
so what if i was another religion??
that would be between me and God..
not you and i.

don't judge me til you know me.
you call yourselves parents.

i should have known that things
wouldn't change.

I am closing this xanga down.
for it has been invaded.

email me if you want the name
of the new one.

rawr_caliente@yahoo.com

good day ladies and gents.

do ask yourselves.
' who can i trust? '

p.s. i'm staying with a friend right now.
then on up to knoxville i go..

i am fine.
just hurt
it is like picking up a journal
and reading its entries.

edit.//
i found two songs that are just me.
1. fall out boy ' dance dance'
2. John Cougar ' dance naked'

don't get me wrong, i still want
to stab fall out boy with a spoon
and push john cougar down..
that hasn't changed!

original message.//

i found a poem i wrote last year.
i wrote it when breaking up with my ex-
omfg. she was it dramatic.
this poem is all deep and shit
and i thought some of you would like it.

'untitled pain'

In knowing of bitter ellegies..
I found poetry in despair..
suffocating in this deserted mind..
finding no comfort for this distressed soul.
you said love was to be found in the heart
of a midnight runner..
and that was so.
then you showed me the love you had for me
was yet hatred
and hatred alone.
never knowing a specie of it's kind,
your soul departed from you like the screams
of a slain faun.
the rain continued to fall in soft silhouettes
like an inflamed case of cancer your memory
became one with me.
i said i loved you.
as you watched my heart bleed into the dark
leaves, never realizing what you had done.
I lay under the bearth of an oak
depicting a future with a better past-time.
still finding silence in this hell
a calm peace fell upon me like the heart of a storm.
i come to find that the acts of heart-breaking hatred
you had bestow upon me were known like
an intimate suicide.
you ran crying like a dying canine
previously attacked by a bastard pack of wolves.
and it was then..
then, the despair became one with me.
we were damned.
like the acts of you and i.i cried out like a first time mother
with a still born in her hands
'why?'
was my only question.you had stolen my heart in an
act of inhuman play.
and still here,
i lie slowly dying.

i am officially the camera whore from hell.

Damn.. 8 years of braces works.

fun reuinion.
i saw three old friends today.

it was awsome.

gah.

i have such a damned dirty mouth.
i must work on that.

dyln.

NEW PIC..
i look like a downsyndromed person.
heh. i think my contact was screwin'
up when i took it.
( hints one eye is squinting.. lmfao )

i was looking at this collage of junk
on my desk.. && it reminded my of myself.
[ maybe the random-ness? ]

i am very sad to say
xanga doesn't do it for me anymore.
it has gone from an addiction
to a waste of time.

no this isn't good-bye.
this is just an explaination,
as to why i will no longer
write a new entry every-single day.

i have a myspace
[ even though i think it sucks ]
so if you think you will go
through 'dylan with-drawls'
visit my myspace at:

http://www.myspace.com/like_woah_shizzle

don't do anything i wouldn't do.

dyln.