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Name: Serenity
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Gender: Female
Interests: Music,
Dancing,
Partying,
Traveling,
Beaches,
Photography, and
Designing
Expertise: Music and
Love
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
2/28/2005
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| Hey Hun, (Another sleepless night....) Thanks for the quick e-mail. It’s always good to hear from you. :) (AND yes...I am loving the warm weather) I have been doing alright... It has been a hectic week for me. I have been trying to get slightly ahead before I leave for Cancun on Friday. I am looking forward to the relaxation, the beach, and the sun...but other than that I am not necessarily psyched about being on vaca with tons of people from Walker. But who am I to be complaining, right?!?! But I don’t know...I’m not too happy with a few different things going on lately...one being Danny. I think that is too in-depth of a subject to get into right now though... But crazy about the Virginia Tech incident, huh?!?! Stuff like this makes me angry. If you are truly miserable, kill yourself, but who is this guy to take so many lives with him? And although I know the news needs to cover this story, I cringed every time they pointed out that this is making US history. Although they didn’t go out of their ways to glamorize the situation, by simply giving this guy and this story this kind of attention automatically glamorizes the idea of attention for the countless number of fucked of kids we have in our lovely American society today. And just as I knew, a few days later over 7 different campuses received threats across the country, U or M being one of them. There is no reason we should feel unsafe in our on-campus apartments, and definitely not in the classrooms. But I do applaud the guy for leaving a video...the question “why” was killing everyone. But my goodness, he claims he did this for all the kids feeling weak and not good enough??!!? Well he showed them....huh? Way to make a stand....way to set an example...welcome to America where he can express himself and make a difference, right?!?! ANYWAY, yes I am officially an aunt. The baby looks identical to Jonathan’s baby pics, so I think I have lost all...hope?...to it belonging to somebody else. But my parents are taking it well. They showed up in Bemidji, as you can see through the pics I sent you yesterday. Holding a baby in their arms has changed their feelings a bit, and it has now brought reality out into the open. You can’t necessarily hold a miracle in your arms and still have any issues, right? My dad left me a message and referred to himself as Grandpa Bieloh, and that somewhat sent chills down my spine. Situations like this are a little bit too surreal for me. I hate when something so dramatic happens and there is nothing I can do to change the situation or the time. I hate how my parents first grandchild had to happen like this, and that possibly all of this may have messed up my brothers one and only life. Gosh...I am positive, aren’t I? But through all the news the other day I found myself wondering about you. With everything snowballing about the entire ordeal, I have never really directed my attention towards you. I know this has to have some sort of impact on you, considering Jonathan was pretty special to you, and you were (and ARE) so close to our family. At the same time you do seem extremely happy with Nick, and maybe all this does is bring on bittersweet memories, and a “thank God it wasn’t me”...right?!?! Well me stress and anxiety level has dropped a little bit, so thank you for listening to me ramble. Sleeping would be so ideal right now considering I have an early morning and a long long long day tomorrow. Take care...de-stress...enjoy the weather...I’ll be thinking of you on the beach. :) Love you....
~B
Ps. Drop Kate a note, if you haven’t already. Little 8th grader is going to state!!!! She has facebook now...State is this Friday....and I know it would mean the world to her to hear from you...maybe give her a few tips of shaking
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| Tyra Banks, Initially I saw you as one of the only role-models for the modern day woman. Your show enables women of all ages to feel inspired, and through our media-packed world, relieved. Your show usually features real women, with real issues, and through your genuine ways, there is always a resolution as the show comes to an end. However, a few weeks ago you had a show based on prostitution, and on Monday you had a whole show revolved around jersey-chasers. Those prior shows confused me on what you are all about and made me feel a little uneasy, but after today’s show about the adult industry, I am absolutely disgusted. Yes, you gave a 20 second speech at the end condoning that you do not recommend this lifestyle, but what about the rest of the hour long show? Having casual sex, frequently, for money, and for viewers is NOT okay. Not only is it discriminating towards women, but it is purely unethical. Girls and women should not take on adult performer’s views and believe that it is okay to do this and that it is not a big deal to be part of the industry. By how uncomfortable you appeared throughout the entire show, obviously you disagreed with their choice of lifestyle, so why not speak up? Why not debate? It is your show, and I feel that your opinion is entitled not only as the host but as a role-model for women. By having confident and appealing women on your show strongly promoting their (morally wrong) lifestyles, while you sit and politely interview them, almost promotes what they are all about, glamorizing what the media already glamorizes enough. So what is your issue? Are you are running out of positive feministic ideas for your shows? Where is that energy and passion you had when you were defending your tabloid attack on your weight? Where is the woman that was screaming “SO WHAT?!?!” and telling women to be proud of their realistic weights and for who they are? I do not need to be updated on strippers and prostitutes, I see enough of them in downtown Minneapolis. I do not need to see more jersey-chasers, I party with enough of those girls every weekend at the University of Minnesota. And I definitely do not need to see porn stars, I have enough sexuality and shallowness in my everyday (college) life. The real world is negative enough, especially for women these days, so there is no point for reminding us on your daytime show. Try something that is truly positively informative or inspiring for women...or else your talk show is no different than anybody else’. | | |
| Hey Sam! I’ve been meaning to write to you by now. NO, Becky did not come. Her excuse was SO bizarre that it could not have been an “excuse” to not have to come. She supposedly had thrown out her back a few days before, so she already had to take a day or two off at Jimmy’s, so taking Saturday off after that was out of the question. So no, I did not go either. I hardly know my roommates on a party level so going to that big of a party with them made me feel really uneasy. And my last backup plan, Danny, did not want to join me as well. For some odd reason he has a phobia of going to unknown parties with me. It seems as though he got his ass kicked by a girl before or something...so puzzling! So I just did something with Danny and his buds up in the Rogers area....soso. BUT the girls had a blast. Diedre seemed overwhelmed when she talked to me about it the next day. I guess there were SOOOOO many people there that it was unbelievable! It was like nothing they had ever been to, everybody was wild and wasted, AND there were even Olympia swimmers there! Supposedly one of her friends (which I find hard to believe) hooked up with a gold-medalist or something. Wow...imagine the damage we could have done! But oh well...more opportunities will come... I’m sorry to hear about your somewhat bummer weekend though! I’m sure Kelly had fun either way, but throwing up to that extent...how shitty! Thank you so much for sending me both of your stories! The “short short” story irritated me initially because I instantly fell in love with it, but it was so brief that I wanted to know more. But afterwards I liked it. Despite its length, it automatically demanded so much emotion from the reader. And then considering it’s short length, it gives the reader an opportunity to use their imagination and either fill in the blanks throughout the story or continue on afterwards. As for “Secrets worth Knowing”....I was not prepared for that one. When I realized what the basis of your story was I wanted to cry. :( But as much as I know you, and I know that story is basically, or could basically, be your own, half-way through the story I completely forgot about you and the obvious comparisons as I started following the CHARACTER’S story instead...feeling and reaching out to her instead of you. That takes talent. :) I loved it though. So well written, especially the way you introduced it. You are definitely earning your A’s. Is it next weekend that you’ll be in this area? I was just wondering what your plans were. Obviously you’ll be spending some or most of your time with Nick, but I was wondering if you’d either want to grab a coffee or a bite to eat, or spend an afternoon shopping, or maybe catch a show?!?! Danny has a bachelor party to go to Saturday night, so if you’d want to go be naughty girls or something...we could...no really, we could. I’ve been meaning to hit up First Ave. one of these days...and I think they’re the only club that is 18+ on Saturday nights. OR there is a bar or something called Cabooze off of Cedar Ave., voted one of the best spots for live music in the twin city area. From their website, it seems like all they have is reggae and like a blues type folk music...which I could die for! That Saturday they are having some contest (18+ admission) for bands, called the Cosmic Break Tour, where 3 bands that win get to play the 10,000 Lakes Festival...so could be cool, right? OR if you would want to do a college party thing... We could also try to see if Becky would want to attempt coming down again. OR if you happen to be here on a Monday night, open mic night at ACME is my favorite thing to do lately!! It is so ideal... These types of thing are why I have always wanted to live in a city... OH OH OH I also have a new coffee shop fav right up University Ave. called the Artist Grind...best organic spiced chai tea latte ever! (tastier AND healthy than my love of Starbuck’s) Just think about it...at least consider an afternoon or something. :) I hope everything is going great with you. I assume you probably have mid-terms this week or next week, before you head off for spring break. My lovely fucking Nutrition professor scheduled a mid-term the Tuesday after my spring break...isn’t she lovely?!?! Take care.... Love You, Bre | | |
| Sam, Random Though: For some reason I just remembered something from a few years ago...2004 to be exact. After Eel Pout, the night I cheated on Luke, on Valentine’s Day, let me mind you, do you remember meeting him at the end of the road the next day? I’ll refresh your memory: He had 2 dozen long-stemmed roses topped off with a big heart balloon. After cheating on him...I still got all that cool shit! Way to reward me...right? As sad as that story should be, my first reaction is to laugh...not just giggle a little bit...but to full-heartedly laugh. Now how the hell can I laugh at such a morally wrong event, and at such a pitiful hopeless guy? Know why? Because WE laughed... For most people, it takes time to be able to look back at incidents such as that and laugh. BUT no, not you and I, we laughed right then and there...and hard. I want to thank you for that. Thank you for not only lightening the mood at the time, but for matching my sick humor... I will love you forever for that moment... Love Always, Bre | | |
| Alone In This City 3/5/07 Fear
Loss
Anger
Hatred
Tiredness
Memories
Loneliness
Headaches
Heartaches
Emotionless
Hopelessness
Constant anxiety
Untrustworthiness
Never-ending thoughts This is my relationship I’m beginning to lose my grip But do I even give a shit? How much more can I take Before my heart completely breaks Will I one day awake To find this has been a major mistake How sublime To think that I’m Wasting my time... Wide Awake At Night Fight After Fight This No Longer Seems Right But Breaking Up Just Might Yet Now I Feel Pity I Wish I Were Confident And Pretty But Now Just Alone In This City How Platonic Yet Demonic But Ironic It’s What I Wanted All Along... | | |
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