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CaptainObvious06
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Name: Emily
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Dayton
Birthday: 12/26/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Guard, Music, Friends, Orchestra, Chipotle, frogs, country music, esp. keith urban and rascal flatts, chemistry, aim, giggling, being tickled, snow, two-and-a-half men, cookie dough ice cream, movies, cartoons, euchre, pharmacy, snuggling, being teased, puppies, candles, reading, shopping, coloring, working with kids, hiking, watching stars outside, being with my family, esp. gma, christmas lights, playing christmas music, helping others, fleece blankets, and spending hours upon hours doing absolutely nothing with my amazing roommate KENDRA! :)
Expertise: Guard, Violin, and Science
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/5/2005
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| I'm moving back in on August 28th, and there's so much still here left to accomplish. So much is headed my way, and I really hope I can handle it. I didn't used to be really good at handling things on my own. I always felt like I needed someone to hold me up, to push me through. For once in my life, I feel like I can handle it on my own. Most things at least. Obviously everybody needs somebody sometimes. That doesn't mean I don't want someone to share things with. Not at all. But I'm really proud of progress I've made as far as self image and independence. The other day, I actually had the self confidence to know that someone walking away from me would be a personal loss on them. Like they would be missing out. And I believed it. Fantastic. Once again, really glad to have friends to call when I need a mental train of thought to be put back on track (you know who you are ladies). Somehow, those Ashley girls know exactly what I'm thinking before I think it. How they know how my brain works is beyond me. I never thought that I'd find someone that could follow my thought pattern, let alone predict it. I've only found that in one man (no, not my daddy) but that's another story in itself. Been there, tried it, and unfortunately that game isn't in the cards. Too bad though. I'm sure there are more. Besides, that kid has had a lot of practice, being surrounded by me for the past two years of his life. Poor thing 
By the way, going all in on a pair of threes probably isn't the best idea....but what if?
Day by day lady. Day by day. | | |
| One surgery down, one to go :) Gma is without a gall bladder but doing fantastically well! They were able to do it laproscopically, which means a faster recovery. Her successful surgery also means that I can make the trip to Ada this weekend, which is much needed and highly anticipated :) In a couple weeks will be the open heart surgery, then we should be free and clear for awhile.
That's all I have for now for the update. :) 4 weeks to ONU! | | |
| My grandmother's liver, heart, and gallbladder are all bad. She can't even go to the grocery store because she's so weak. I can't handle seeing her this way. I wasn't at the reunion because I wanted so badly to spend every possible second I can with her. Life is unpredictable, and to all my sisters, I am sorry for not being there, but I needed to be with her.
Thinking I was going to find some sort of magical love with the aforementioned lasted approximately a week. Wow. Five weeks of hope and in just 20% of that time, it all went to crap.
In fact, the love life has been pretty pathetic lately. Worried? Not at all. One thing I've got plenty of is time. Confused? A little. I know I'm attractive and smart, spontaneous and cuddly, serious or humorous. Not hard to please, and easy to get along with. So yeah, I'm a little confused. But its all good. Guess my time is just not right now, and I'm cool with it. Not angry or bitter, maybe just a little disappointed.
Missing some friends from the ONU. :( I shall work with the August schedule as soon as it comes out and we'll rock this town. Or that town. Or somewhere. Somewhere will get rocked. It has to.
Off to clean my car or something lame before the family party, which I'm sure will be full of watermelon and cornhole and my drunk uncle talking about his sex life. Yeah, you wanna be there. It's at 2 pm. Come visit. You'll have a good time. And if you're 21 there's always plenty of beer.
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| To NOM and BackCrazy how many thoughts can just run through your head on such a short walk. Seven minutes each way, max. I think. I've never really timed it, but then again, I'm not too concerned. I just needed something to soothe an achy throat. Too bad NOM doesn't serve a cure for an achy heart.
Confession: I'm watching twiterpation sweep this campus. Questions? I thought so.....
Story: So my daddy (yeah, he's my daddy....don't make fun or i'll beat your face) and I love disney movies (seriously, make fun and I will torture you even after i see the grave). One of our favorites is Bambi. Anyone who has ever seen it knows that when Bambi gets older, the little owl tells Bambi all about what happens in the springtime. I'm not stupid, and I think that it's true.
Maybe it has something to do with the nice weather. Maybe it has something to do with the allergens. I don't know, and I don't care. But everyone is mingling in a very adorable boy:girl fashion.
I miss my daddy. Did I mention that? I always miss him when I think of stuff like this. Some people say that the only man a girl can ever trust is her daddy. Well, I don't think that's ENTIRELY true...but I do really care about him.
I'm off track. Well whatever. So in the span of approximately fourteen minutes, thoughts unravelled. Most of them including watching everyone else get all cute and hook up. With me, left in my room with text books and dvds.
I had a little convo with God on the way. Yeah, I did. I guess he's just testing me as usual. Seein if I can fight temptations and be patient for someone I "deserve." I never really understood the meaning of that word. At least not in the context of deserve. How do I know what I do and dont' deserve? I don't, that's the thing. But I guess God does.
So bring him to me at Your will. But please don't make me wait forever. Because watching everyone else pair off like tiny woodland critters might eventually prove to get old. | | |
| Life is not that bad. :)I should be SOOOO pissed right now. 93/150 = 62% That is NOT passing. But I'm OK! I know I can bounce back so easily. And the thing about pissing me off is, it just makes me want something more. Telling me I can't do it, really? Yes I can. Fuckin' watch me. I was also only 5 points from a passing grade. and approximately 12 from the average. Meh. I love music and I love life and I love my friends and I can totally kick this quarter's ass. | | |
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