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Name: Matthew
Birthday: 6/10/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Jesus, God, the Holy Spirit, music, family, friends, art, books, girls, dating, and anything that helps the boredom
Expertise: My faith, singing, playing my instruments, reading, painting, and drawing
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  treveccashorty
Member Since:
9/16/2004
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| Dont necessarily no why I decided to write on this right now, randomly during the summer. Yet, I really felt the need to write and this is one of the only outlets I have. Its hard for me not to have an outlet where I can completely express myself through a medium that I hope is not lost amongst the masses. Not the usual writing that takes place online with the abbreviated words and the lols and the ttyls, no, words that express more than what they were originally meant to express. Words that take new life like one of those statue lions in front of the New York City Public Library. When you were a kid did you ever imagine one of those statues suddenly breathing and jumping to life. Though realistically if those lions did come to life then the first thing they would probably do would be to attack and kill one of the onlookers. Yet as a child you dont think of that, the only thing you think of is the impossible suddenly becoming truth. You can control the the impossibilty when it happens, yet as you get older the impossibilities run rampant as they tend to do. Then slowly your life starts to slip away from your grasp, wheeling you in this uncontrollable updraft when all you really wanted to do was to play with the lions. Have you actually talked to anybody recently, I mean actually sat down to a conversation where the soul of your thought is exposed in an intimate way. The art of conversation lost its way within the dot com generation. When you walk up to people you say hi, how you doin, what have you been up to, I am fine thanks, then the uncomfortable silences pursues until one of the two makes the movement that signals that you are both bored with the conversation and it is time to move on. You see the lions in the background beckoning you to new adventure yet the walls are still around you. Then you say, well on the computer I feel I can say pretty much anything but no one does. Everyone says what they think they should be saying and they start to create a pseudo self that supposedly embodies the human perfection which they seek to be, yet it ultimately creates a lion which we can't end up controlling. No one really says anything, because if people actually said something then the world would actually change. STOP being fake and embrace what you really are. Nobody should have to apologize for saying something genuine or being the person that they actually are. In this world that glorifies individuality they sure shoot down the real individual quick and a million pseudo selves grow like weeds to replace the one individual who had more to say than the million who spawned from empty words. No, not me, shoot me down and hopefully I will still exist. Though I will be wounded, I will heal and bounce back stronger than I was before. I aspire to create real words, though I am afraid I dont really know how. I have lost most of you and nobody will probably read this, but quite frankly, I dont really care. I am off to go search for lions. | | |
| My pain, my weekend, my lifeSo this weekend was interesting, great, fun, and relaxing. So here is to updating my xanga with a picture that just plain cracks me up. Oh, and I am still feeling the pain.
Hope everyone's semester is fantastic and that everything is goin well. God bless.
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| Everybody seems like they are updating their xanga so I might as well, you know, it is the whole jumping on the bandwagon thing. Work here at the church is truly a blessing and things went awesome over the fourth. One of my many duties was organizing and pulling off a special fourth of July service. They do not have a choir here so we put together an impromptu choir of volunteers, which I must confess I had my doubts, but actually they pulled it off nicely. It is amazing to me how quickly one can feel like they belong to a congregation if the fit is right.
I miss all of my Nashville peeps cause there really isnt anyone to hang out with here and it gets kinda lonely sometimes. Oh, and I dropped my cell phone in a pool so those of you who may try to call me, yeah, aint gonna happen for a while.
God has been extroardinarily good to me through this internship and I really know now, no doubt in my mind, that my life is supposed to be spent serving God through ministry and that excites me to no end. Well all, I hope your summers are going great, please give me a buzz and if you are lucky, my phone may be working by that time. God bless. | | |
| So far so good this summer as my job here continues to get better and a little more complicating each day. I do like it here a lot but I am missin Nashville alot also. Miss all ya'll and hope you guys are having a great summer. God is doing some amazing work in me this summer and I pray that that work will continue. I ask that you might pray for me that I might face my demons head on. Next Sunday is our big fourth of July service so this coming week will be incredibly busy, which will make Fourth of July all the more relaxing when it gets here. Been helping Brian move from place to place as they continue to look for a house, hopefully they will find one shortly though I am enjoying all there stuff being in my little apartment here. After July 8th he will probably move in with me while the girls will stay at his mom's house in Richmond Virginia, which will be tough for them to be apart, so pray also that they find a house quickly so they wont have to spend as much time apart. It is funny living on my own and nice at the same time, though I must confess I am missing college life and look forward to being back there. I aint ready to be completely grown up yet though I am getting there. Welp, gotta go to some cook out thingie so I hope everyone is doing ok. God bless and I hope you guys have a great rest of the summer. | | |
| Nothing terribly exciting and new to report. I have gotten into a kinda groove here and have a somewhat normal schedule now. The pool at the house is being opened this weekend as I celebrate my 21st birthday, which is exciting and worrisome at the same time. I get to see my family this weekend also to help celebrate, which is exciting and worrisome at the same time  The family that I live with is leaving for a month or so, so the huge house with be virtually mine, which is a little exciting and worrisome at the same time. So to summerize this entry my life right now is a little exciting, and a little worrisome at the same time. Good night Seattle, we love you. God bless. | | |
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