Okay, so I've caught the "Joe Syndrome" and havent updated in a while so Ill just quick fill everyone in on my life.

Snoball, wow, Kellie talked me into running and I managed to win. Sucky part....didnt acutally want to. So now Im stuck with planning for next year and it should be interesting.

Next up was softball tryouts which actually just finished on Thursday. I think I did pretty well for my summer team but I wont know the results for a while. As far as school goes I made the B-squad which is pretty cool but there are some parts that kinda suck becuase of age requirements and what not. Im excited to get back into the game although its been really hard.

School has been going well and I've gotten my grade up in English which rocks becuase it is my hardest class. I manage to stay awake in science now and it acutally is quite interesing becuase we get to do experiments almost every week. Its odd to think that as of today I am on spring break and there is only one quarter left in the year. I have made so many friends and acutally fell like I can be myself around them which rocks.

Speech has been going awesome. I hate the fact that I have to do so much research but it has paid off because I took 2nd in the Novice division at one meet and then my last meet I pulled off a 5th place in Varsity which rocked becuase I totaly dominated a table of Seniors scoring 98 out of 100. This week I have to do major research though becuase Confrence is coming up in just over a week and a half and I have nothing ready.

Im also gettting ready for the solo/ensomble contest for choir. We have 6 weeks to prepare for it and there are only 2 left before prelims. Mary and I are singing a song that is all in Latin and I have the words down luckly but for my solo, all in Italian, I still need some work. Looks like my break is going to be dominated by softball, speech, and singing. whooo

Thursday night I made it back to a DeMolay meeting for the first time in a couple of months which just rocked. I forgot how much fun I have not just sitting at the metting but getting to talk to all of the guys. We played the piano and had a snowball fight which I havent had in forever! After most of the guys left Bev and my mom were still talking so Ben and I carried on with the fight and he won but I got some good shots in.

Tonight was a good time too. We were supposed to have softball from 7:30 to 9:30 but our coaches just scrapped it because we just started break. So instead Maggie Alex and I all hung out over here and watched some movies which rocked. Tomorrow Im going to Robbinsdale and I get to see even more people that I havent seen so that should be exciting.

And finaly, I think I might have a little get together at my house on Sunday night so if you wanna hang out here and watch movies just give me a call and we'll see how it goes.

Why cant humans have the relationships they want? Why cant everyone get along with their parents, their siblings, their friends? Because we are lazy cowards. In order to get that great relationship you have to put in the time developing it but everyone is too busy doing everything else but spending time with people. Not only that but we would have to acutally tell people how you feel about them. Everyone hates doing that because it makes you vulnerable. So maybe having the relationship you want isnt easy but wouldnt it make you more fulfiled?

Sorry, i was just watching spanglish and it kinda got me started on a rant.

warning: I wrote this from the bottom up so it might be hard to follow

So winterfest was this weekend. I had a great time but there were some rough parts. It was pretty cool though because I was basicly forced, partly by myself and partly due to circumstances, to talk to a lot of different people and Im glad I did. I always hate how fast the weekends seem to go when Im at an event. I feel like I just got there and then we are all ripped back to our little area of the state. I always leave with great memories though. Last night while a bunch of people were watching a movie I hung out in the game room and we just BSed for a while. It was really nice becuase I was having a shitty night, my allergies were going crazy and i had a horrible headache but everything changed. I was surprised when I woke up this morning though, only my shoulders hurt. and becuase I only have 4 days this week (yay for random catholic holidays) Im going to get my massage on friday.

Leaving this morning I was left with a lot of questions but the ride home left more than enough time to think about the answers. Im only left with one, why did you have to be right alex?

This is a really good song that I was listening to on my way home. Its odd how you can find a song you havent listened to in forever and then you listen to it again and you realize everything about it all over. Im guessing your not all going to read through this so I'll just bold.

Mr. Jones
Counting Crows

I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco
dancer
She dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning
Cut up, Maria!
Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
Cause I want to be someone who believes
Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely
I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very, very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic, yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray guitar and play
Mr. Jones and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Uh, I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight
I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me I will never be lonely
I will never be lonely
Said I never gonna be..lonely
I wanna to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big, big stars, but we got different reasons for
that
Believe in me, because I don't believe in anything
And I want to be someone to believe, to believe
Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio
Yeah we stare at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you, man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan
Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky
When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as fucked up as you can
be
Mr. Jones and me staring at the video
When I look at the television I want to see me staring right back at
me
We all want to be big stars, but we don't know why and we don't know
how
But when everybody loves me
I'm going to be just about as happy as I can be
Mr. Jones and me: we're gonna be big stars...

So I'm done. No more being Junior Sweetheart for me. Im really sad too. Its been my life for two years and now in a matter of a week i go from not being a line member (which i was for two and a half years) in jobs to not being a jr. sweetheart. Its so weird to think that I'm nothing now, I dont like it. I told everyone that I will run for sweetheart in a year and I will but what will I do between then and now? I have softball, gettting healthy again, meeting people at school, but that doesnt seem very busy to me. I know i still have demolay and jobs but its just not the same.

Past my moping stage, now I'll fill you in on the rest of my life. Last sunday I went to 65's installation where Colette became Honored Queen. It was so cool and we got pbj. yum. After that Ben said he had brought three movies so a bunch of people went to my house where we found out he only brought three movie cases and one movie. Luckly we have a lot of movies at my house so we ended up watching Once Upon a Time in Mexico (bens) and The Breakfast Club (mine) This week was the begining of the new semester and I like everything but my math and science teachers.  I like math and science though so I think Ill manage to get through 18 weeks with them. Friday our grades came back and I was excited. I was able to pull my English grade up from a B- to and A- which made me really happy becuase I worked my ass of in that class. And of course then last night was Hiawathas Installation and Dance. I did have a lot of fun, Chris is the new MC and I think he will do well. The Dance was so muich fun, i havent seen that many people dancing at a dance in such a long time.

In writing this Ive come up with a goal for the next year: Im going to acutally make friends at my school and hang out with them outside of school. Hopefully I'll accomplish this sooner rather than later.

this week wasnt as bad as I had thought it would be. Finals went acutally very well and I managed to study, sleep, eat and still get in a few moments of relaxation. I think I did pretty well on it. Tuesday was initiation and I memorized most of my part in an hour! Then last night I memorized three parts for installation today. That rocked and I didnt even screw up that much, just the minor words. Installation went really well adn I was glad to see so many people were there. Clean up went super fast too. Then a bunch of people came back to my house and we watched Drop Dead Gorgeous and Cool Runnings. Ben stole almost 1000 KB worth of songs off my computer and then showed me and my mom this semi-cool website. The whole day went really smooth. Tomorrow i just have to make it through a stupid long meeting and then its off to 65's installation. Anyone happen to know why there were a bunch of police outside the Brugers on 96 and 49 at like 7 today??? it was kinda odd. Maybe ill go check the news sites and see if i can find something...