now i know that postpartum depression is associated with mothers and their new born babies, but i feel like im going through postpartum depression with studio.  For the past couple of months i keep talking about how much i cannot wait for school to be over, and now that its this close, im upset.  It happened after museum crit a couple of months ago, and now im going through it again, but this time, there isn't another project to work on, or studio people to be around.  I never realized how much i would begin to miss seeing these people, and hell they're not even gone yet.

Final crit today was lame.  Nothing very memorable came from my crit, except that the philosopher said something about my object being heavy, and i said it wasn't too bad, and then he said he tried to lift it, and shook his head yes.  then i did some awkward let move on motion.  John Eck said my work was very elegant which is consist ant with the rest of the work that i produce.  Otherwise my building didn't have too much else said about it.

I sure am going to miss UMKC.  I really am going to miss it.

not to be vain....

but, there were a lot of attractive people at the gym today.  my facial hair is finally growing back, along with my chest hair.  I went to the doctors today to have my rash checked out.  they came up with nothing, but they did say that they do not think that it is cancer.

My dad called complaining about my mom and sister.  Once i move home, im sure he'll be complaining about me. 

Work is going well, as well as life at the video store.  The final project is coming alright, i will hopefully be done with the whole thing by sunday.  I hope to at least.

I also got to pet this really cool dog today, it was big and friendly.  Im not really a dog person, but i am starting to love big hairy dogs. 

I had lunch with alex and lesley today, it was good.  It's funny how intense some people are when it comes to driving.  I love riding in the backseat.

P.S. -  I received an award titled: Everyone loves Jerald Award: for Jerald because whenever his name is mentioned, it's usually followed by "we love Jerald!"

What a great award to be given.   

yesterday i finally got to work out, and today i felt all hurty in my insides.  But it was worth it.  Also mariann and i watched beaches, and i thought it was somewhat sad, but mariann was crying her face off.  She's sensitive.

I have been parting my hair on the side, like i used to when i was 10 for some reason. 

Bridge break this friday!

and the coolest dorm room challenge is this sunday!!!!

I  have been listening to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs a lot lately.

I am always so indecisive about my facial hair. Spring break is now over and i did get to clean my room and visit my grandparents.  We watched tv, and when it came time for me to come back to KC, my grandpa and grandma had said that they wish i could of stayed longer. Im thinking, all we would of done is watch tv. it's good to see them from time to time anyhow. They did fight for like 20 minutes about the DVD player not working, and i felt responsible since i brought a movie to watch.  Also, my grandpa's catheter is kept in the shower during the daytime, and that's where i shower.  next to all my grandpa's night time pee.

Seems like this is one of the first times in my life where im very content not being with someone in a relationship.  I remember Jan 05, i wanted to be in a relationship so hard i could tear a phonebook in half, and now i dont really give a damn.

you know how you have that friend that you like for a while and then things kind of stop for one reason or another.  nothing really happened, you just kind of stopped talking, but then six months later you're back to talking to them and making up for lost time.  That's what im going through right now with Queer as Folk.  I know, i know, but things are going so well right now.  i really hope the lesbians stay together.

school is driving me crazy! i cant wait till tomorrow is finally over and spring break starts.  I can go back to doing what i like to do, work at the video store and make shirts.  I just ordered 24 t shirts to sew on for the spring to sell. My theme for these shirts are going to be insects. 

Sunday, mariann and i are going to kstate to find a house to live in next year.  It should a good trip. 

We snuck into the attic of the Epp today, and it was spooky and cool.  There were some really cool old doors with lots of carvings, and original railings and cool stuff like that.  Im sure it was also filled with bats and mice, since the rest of the place seems to be.

My studio project came out pretty well.  Not good enough for the bud prize, but i hope i get a 8 or 9 on it.  Who knows.  Im trying hard for this 4.0 this semester, but anything is possible.  I have no idea what my grades are in any of my classes.   I could be doing great, or not so great.

I really need to clean my room!!!!! ill do that over spring break.