Once again, long time no write.  I am at the end of my senior year of high school.  Sigh.  Two more finals and I'm done... then June 17th is the day of graduation.  Exciting, yes?  I am soooo ready to be out of high school.  I've had the worst senioritus.  but atleast i'm not just barely passing like Matt did.. hehehe sorry matty!  I'm sure I'll be fine and pass everything and get to walk.

Congratulations to those of you who allready have graduated... Sarah.  I'm jealous!  Phil-Mont school years are about 3 times longer than normal schools!  I swear.  It feels like I've been in Philly for 6 years!  Oh, well.

My mom is coming soon... bites lip.. I'm worried.  But I think I have planned pretty good stuff to take up the time.  We'll see.  And that's all that's going on in Lydia's life.. other than working at the ballpark and at willow grove mall.

CYA!

  Hello.  How are you today?  I'm doin allright.  Kinda bored cuz we didn't have sunday school today and matt was still sleepin when i called him.. but wutever.  So I have found this site with really COOL pictures on it.  including my new background.  It's http://www.wtv-zone.com/IrishRose/Mysterious-Ladys.htm  you should really go look at the pictures on it.  They're great.  Anyway.  my dogs are doing very well.  Me n my dad sprayed them for fleas last night cuz once again we found a few on them.  I swear... there is a freakin epidemic.  anyway.  So... this is my w/e so far.  Friday after school we went to my work and picked up my check, then went to the nashaminy mall and looked for an outfit for me to wear to my sisters wedding.  We didn't have very much luck tho.  I finally got home at 9ish.. called matt and talked to him.  Then got online for a while.  Saturday was a really long day.  I woke up around 10.. went to the bank at 11 but the line was too long to wait in to get my check cashed so I just went to work.  Stayed at work from 12-6.. came home and talked to matt then went to bed.  Today I went to church.. and after church me n my parents are going over to chuck's house to eat lunch.  He's a pretty good cook... i just hope he doesn't have chicken this time.  He puts too many wierd spices on it.  Anyway.  So that's my w/e.  This next week is gonna be a killer.  I work monday from 4-close.. tuesday i'm off and we're going to buy an outfit for the wedding (hopefully).. wednesday I work 4-close.. thursday I'm on call 5-close.. friday I work 5-close which is going to be till 11:30!!  Saturday I work from 11-6.  So I'm gonna be one tired little puppy.. yep yep. 

Well i'm gonna go play with my wuppa till i have to go.  byby

muchos de love for mi matteo cuz he's be closest friend in the world and I don't know wut I would do without him.  MUAH

hello.  how is everyone doing.  my latest pic is from http://www.mysticdreamsshoppe.com/emfaponew.html  same site.. different artist.  I thought it was too cool of a picture to not put up.  I know this is hard to read.. but i really love this picture.

Anyway.  I feel really tired and worn out.  I'm so ready for this summer.  Sadly it's still 6 1/2 months away.  bleh bleh bleh.  And only like wut... 4 weeks worth of breaks left?  it sucks.  I've got senioritus really bad since I got accepted to three schools.  Which is really bad since we have that huge english project and the credo to do.  I've been slacking off so much.  In the next week I need to get every bit of homework done... make an interview with the people i'm doing my article on... write my article.. and make sure i'm at work.  WHEW!  It may not seem that much.. but it really is.  Work is taking it's toll on me.  I am so tired today.  I woke up yesterday morning at 7... and was up till 11:30... took me atleast 20 minutes to get to sleep.. woke back up at 12:45.. went back to sleep around prolly 1:15.. laid in bed for a while.. finally went to sleep then  had to wake up at 6:22.  I'm used to getting atleast 7 hours of sleep.  Cuz i'm a wreck if i don't.  So today I feel awful.  I think i'm sick.. and i didn't sleep good.  I read the stories we're supposed to for english, I typed up my notes over my author, i'm gonna have to turn in my bibliography a day late and without everything i needed.  So my english grade is gonna suck.  Which is NOT good.  And I definitely blew that bible test yesterday.  Bleh.  I really need to get it together.  Anyway.  I hope things are ok with whoever reads this.  byby

Ain't my background cool?  i foudn it at http://www.mysticdreamsshoppe.com/dadeart.html in the David Delamare art gallery. 

Anyway.  So i haven't written in a while.  Nothin's really goin on.  been workin.  blowin money.  matt's home this week. 

So i think i'll pour my  heart out today.  I've been lookin for a college since the beginning of the school year.  I was one of the first to apply.  I had allready decided that I really wanted to go to lock haven or bloomsburg.. originally because of matt.  Then my dad made it clear that he'd really like me to go to a christian college.  To be quite honest, I don't want to go to a christian college.  I was not made to be in a christian atmosphere 24 7.  I'm just not fit for it.  So i am really relunctant about this whole thing.  but to humor him i applied to geneva and i got it.  it was my first acceptance.  a day or two later I got accepted to lock haven YAY.  I visited lock haven a week befor and I really liked it.  it's beautiful, it's small, the food was good, the dorms aren't completely wretched, i like the size of the town, they have a great program, and it's not far from matt, and it's not too far from home.  So why should I not go there?  Well, my dad is still fighting for geneva, but as of right now i think he's figured out that he can't push me into it.  so if all continues this way, lock haven here I come.  which is awesome.  Anyway.  right now i feel like my only friend in the world is matt.  I haven't talked to sarah in ages because we're never online at the same time, and it costs her money to call me, and my parents are stingy with the phone (well, mary ann is anyway).  So that really sucks.  I'm gonna have her move up here, seriously.  Because she is the only person in the world that has known me practically all my life, and understands me thoroughly (besides matt).  I really hate philmont right now.  i think the people are fake.  I know that after they read this i prolly won't be welcome at all, not that it will feel any different than before.  I'm too different.  they're afraid of that, i think.  and that's really sad, because they may think that i'm loud and obnoxious and horrible, but i'm really not like that.  they just don't understand the world i come from.  oh well.  the other thing is, one day they're ur friend, then the next their not.  i hate that.  it's not fair.  the world is so much bigger than it seems to be at philmont, and that drives me crazy.  Anyway.. the beginning of the year was ok.  I still had a full time friend.  now that friend has begun to forget me.  which, i figured would probably come with time.  but i really hate that it did.  they were really great to me and i needed them, and i thought they needed me too.  i love them dearly, so i forgive them for leaving me out.  Anyway.  a long distance relationship is really hard i have found, it causes man y arguments, but thankfully matt and mine's love is so strong that we can overcome all these obstacles.  I am so happy that I have him.  I would never be able to go through this year without him, probly wouldn't have been able to go through the rest of my life without him.  He's there for me even when i do things that upset him.  he's really good to me, even though he doesn't realize it.  So thank you matt for being mine, thank you sarah for still being my friend even when we don't talk for a long time.

i know i have probably offended a few people in this entry.  and i don't want this to be a drama.  so if ur mad just say so.  but i won't apologize.  you can brew and stew till ur top blows off.  but this is how i feel, and i'm sorry you don't like it, but this is just how it is.

on a happier note.  happy thanksgiving.