| I haven't been on this joint in a while...
Thomas and I had a conversation during our daily lunch and I started thinking about a lot of things (I must say, I enjoy talking to Thomas very much). It's funny how when high school finished, I promised so many people I'd keep in contact with them and stuff. We'd always be friends, things wouldn't change because of distance. Call me naive, but I guess I'm just an idealist. It's no surprise though that I haven't kept in contact with pretty much anyone, even people I thought I would keep in contact with for a long time. Granted, sometimes I don't put my part in either, but it's a two way street. Does distance make that much of a difference? Were the friendships really that simple to do away with? I guess they were. Thomas's father is a wise man. Earlier I would have thought his quote to Thomas would have been pretty pessimistic, but now that I am where I am, I see that it's true. "If you can find 5 true friends by the time you pass, you've lived a successful life." Amen to that.
Then theres also this: people are inherently selfish and do things for their personal gain, whether it be physical, or mental. Previously, I would have thought that statement was bullshit. I certainly don't try to live my life in that way, and I had hoped the same about other people. But the more I think about it, the more right it seems. Is there no such thing as a selfless act, when the person performing it gains something in some way or another?
I guess my thoughts have gotten pretty pessimistic lately. All this growing older and "wiser". This heartache ain't helpin either. I wish I was still young and idealistic about the world and people. Too late for that. |
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