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Well, I have come to a conclusion. I am afraid of change. I
mean change is nice, I guess, but I am afriad of it. Not
necessarily afraid to try new stuff, just scared of the future. I
hate not knowing where I'll be 5 or 10 years down the road. What
I will be doing, maybe I'll be married, maybe I'll be some hobo on the
street...Who knows. I sure don't
I feel like my life is relatively stable, but everytime I think that
something comes along to tell me otherwise. I am afraid of change.
I took a personality test thingy. It said I was a very down to
earth person, that I like ot keep things rooted where they are... how
true.
I have been thinking a lot tonight. About anything and
everything. I feel detached from my body right now, like I am
looking through someone elses eyes, at someone elses life. Maybe
I just need to shut my face and go to bed...
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| Gotta love 5am "surprise" snapshots
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| PFFFTTTTT yeah ok so update for the first time in months...yes Matt, FINE you win.....damn thing. *grumbles*
OK so....new job...*loves it* the Y is history
WOOHOOOO!!!!! Working at a campground...it rawks...'cept when my
coworkers and my bosses draw on me....lol...naw that rawks too
Had my wisdom teeth out in the beginning of the summer...that sucked
bad...i got so sick from the pain meds so i didnt eat and the only
thing that would take care of the med-sickness was food...one mad nasty
cycle of...nastiness...
and im sick right now...head cold nothing serious, just
annoying. And i sat on my glasses...and broke
them *must lose more weight...no mo' breaky glasses* so now
im scrambling to get em fixed.. jeep needs oil....damn many
things to do.....
Now you know im crazy.....I saw a psychologist this summer to try and
firgure out ways to combat my Social Anxiety...it really worked, im
better in social situations, i dont feel so uncomfortable and out of
place...school will be the ultimate test...if im going to be a
communcation major i think i need good people skills...dont you
think? Yes, me too.
.....white shirt, black bra (  )
Through all my "issues" Matt you have been there for me, I couldn't
appreciate it more, and I love you so so very much.. The beach is
goona rawk sox!
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| My NWN Char, Steel Bloodlust...if you cant read what he's saying..it says...
"Pike off Window Licker"
Muwaahahahaah
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| Classes are done, and my final isnt until tuesday...so in between being
bored out of my skull, packing, and studying i though i would
update. Seriously, no one reads this thing so why do I even
bother anymore...answer me that, quite a quandry.
I have nothing to do and packing is depressing, so much frickin stuff
and i dont know how im going to fit it all in my car. Just my
school stuff alone is massive. I need to clean out my
fridge. Home in a week....
No one is on NWN......no one to talk to ........<sigh> bored..... oo meeting with Widman..damn...ah well....
C'est la vie......
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