A bit lost.

So I have been thinking about next year. I'm not sure what to do - in regards to uni. I was suppose to graduate this year but because I don't have enough points to graduate I can't.. which is really pathetic. Now I know I'm going to be at uni for another year to make up for these points - that's all good. The problem is.. I don't like doing random units and getting nothing out of it. In fact I'd much rather take a minor in something and get something out of it. Now if I take a minor I will probably have to go to uni for another 1.5 years. I don't really want to do that... especially considering I've been at uni for 4 years.. AND not to mention I had a diploma in business management.. which is pretty much equivelant to doing a minor anyway!!!! That's what shits me! I think I will have to go talk to someone about this. Apparently though minors don't even count for anything.. not even shown on your degree... which makes me think.. doesn't that mean my diploma should count for something then??

Frustration to the max!

Professional Internship

I'm really super happy today! I've been on pracs for the last week and a half and I've been really lucky this year because I've got a mentor teacher who is really great! This school is fantastic - I swear the dynamics there are just amazing. Nearly all the staff there are really helpful and friendly (there is one particular staff member who has a military style type of teaching so thats why I said nearly..). I've been to this school before in first year and I thought at the time it was just the teacher I had that was superb but it turns out that seriously the whole school is like this! It's really great and it makes me really excited about teaching again - which is really good. Second year pracs were the WORST out of all the pracs I've ever had and I think it was heavily due to the fact that my mentor teacher and supervisor were quite... err... I'm not sure how to put it... but yeah let's just say they weren't exactly very good.. lets just put it this way.. a teacher who says the "C" word to the class shouldn't be teaching..! and a supervisor who is just plain outright rude and saying people aren't shining lights should not be a supervisor - both these people are suppose to be looked up on.. and you can't look up on such rudeness and negativity - after all they are suppose to be role modeling for students like me who are practising to be a teacher! Third year (last year) went pretty well as well but I felt that the teacher I had was kind of uptight so therefore I wasn't really able to enjoy my time there as much as I could have. This year has been fantastic. The teacher I have is great. She's very easy going and is quite relaxed and casual. It's kind of amusing though because her husband and I work at the same place (what a small small world !).

Anyway today after my maths lesson my supervisor was talking to me and was saying that she was really impressed with what I was doing etc. She also told me that my mentor teacher wanted to ask if I wanted to do my PI (Professional Internship) with her. Of course I was ecstatic! I had wanted to ask her if she would take me on for PI but I have been way too scared to ask haha. For those who don't know PI is basically when I go out and teach for a whole term. Basically it's compulsory in order for me to graduate and all student teachers must complete it before becoming a teacher. I don't think we get paid for it though which kind of sucks - especially since it's for so long!!! During these pracs I've been doing things for pracs, uni AND working all at the same time. It's like working full time (since I'm at school all day, 5 days a week) and part time (although I'm only working Saturdays right now) and being a fulltime student. It feels pretty crazy and I'm not sure how well I'm going to cope when it's time for my PI. Hopefully it won't become too much - after all if I am able to succeed in all 3 areas at the end of it I will be pretty darn happy and proud of myself and I'll know I will be able to do nearly anything!

Moving on now to something else.. I gave my dog a tail cut yesterday :D! It turned out extremely bad and ugly so now my dog has the worlds most ugliest tail. I feel bad because I was the one that cut it that badly but I swear it's his fault for moving around so darn much!! Teehee.. He was pretty upset last night but he's okay now :D I guess he's getting use to his new ugly tail lol.

In other news, despite my last entry about being single that didn't actually last all that long... because somehow along the lines I became unsingle and attached. I guess when the time is right the time is right.. something you can't really control I suppose. Anyway I couldn't be happier.. <3 KeKe

So that's it for now.. Maybe more at a later date.. I still have to plan my lessons for tomorrow!!

TTFN~ Ta Ta For Now~ <3

Work USA

So the more emails I get throughout the year from IEP the more I want to go... I really wish I had the funds to experience such a thing. For those that have no idea what I'm talking about I'm talking about the program where you apply to work in the USA or Canada or even Britain.. however you have to pay for applications and your own plane ticket there. Although I would probably make all that money back whilst working there.. I don't have the amount to go right now . I think it would be a really great experience going.. I think it would make me learn to be a bit more independent and learn to take care of myself.. I'll be able to make new friends etc. So sad. Then I think that I would like it if I knew at least one person doing it.. and then I think that I'd love it if someone I knew and I applied together and all that kind of stuff. But most my friends are already graduated.. most already have full time jobs and most would not really want to do it I think.

I know that there will be plenty of opportunities for me to work in the USA or anywhere else at a later date - especially with the demand of teachers these days - but I'd really like to experience something totally different from that aspect of my life. I'd like to be able to work in a resort and learn different type of people skills and all those kind of things. I've also been considering teaching English in another country.. but I'm a little afraid of applying for any of those too. I'd really hate to be stuck in a country where I knew noone and I could hardly communicate with anyone.. I guess in other words my fears are getting the better of me..

In other news.. Went to Rottnest Island yesterday for the first time in about 10 years. It was really fun :D!! I wanted to ride around the island more but my knee started acting a bit weird so I couldn't really ride my bike anymore :( Was kind of disappointed too at the fact that I didn't see that many Quokkas.. in fact we only saw ONE !! and it was a funny looking one :(!! But it was still cute teehee. It was really nice on Rottnest Island.. We didn't end up swimming or anything.. I've just realised since I've gotten my new bikini I've only ever worn it ONCE.. peh!! Anyhoo.. I'm glad I didn't get sunburnt or super tanned.. I really don't like being tanned T_T

Well.. I guess that's it for now.. I would write more but I think I better do my online responses for my one of my classes :(

Currently Listening You Wake Up at Sea Tac By Lasse Lindh 03 - C'mon Through see related

So it has been a super long time since I last posted on this thing but lately I've been wanting to post on here.. Livejournal totally killed my blogging haha. I don't know why.. maybe it's because I'm so use to using this.. Maybe because I used this first? I don't know.. in any case I like xanga better... even if I did try and ditch it for livejournal :x. I missed using this. I wonder if anyone will read my posts anymore since it has been such a a long long time? :x I think xanga was just a phase for many people.. it's a good place to vent frustrations and anger that's for sure; but that's not why I'm back. The reason I'm back? I feel as though I closed a part of my life off when I stopped using xanga - it's hard to keep up to date with people from around the world and different timezones when you're so busy.. I don't have time to talk to a lot of people I met randomly - mainly through solid radio.. I kind of miss the days where I had nothing really to do but sit on my computer and chat away on msn/aim to all my American friends etc. Anyway I felt as though I didn't have time anymore for a lot of people so.. hopefully this will kind of make up for the fact I don't talk to some of you guys anymore.. plus I guess you'll know what's been cranking in my life without me asking if I've told you the latest.

A lot has changed since I last posted.. According to xanga my last post was in early November 2006. Over a year ago! As you can imagine I've changed a lot as a person and things in my life are completely diferent from back then.

Since my last entry.. Let's see.. Where can I start? So much has happened I don't really remember.. last year went by so fast.. so so fast. Sometimes I wonder where the days went. Last year was a year that was good and bad. It changed me.. that's for sure. I've learnt to say no. I've learnt to be stronger. I've learnt that I shouldn't settle for less then what I want. I've learnt that I can do better - I can be a better person.

The last half of 2007 had a huge impact on me. . A great deal of crap happened... but somehow although I felt so used and abused at the time.. I'm glad it happened now. It has really made me into a better person. I failed 3 classes at uni - first time I've ever failed any units before. I was so de-motivated.. but failing has kicked me back onto my feet and now I'm at least trying.. not letting my emotions get the better of me.. not letting insignificant people get to me.

Yeah people. I've met a lot of new faces in the past few months. It has been fantastic to be honest. I guess socially my life became a lot busier. I restricted myself to a real social life before.. when I was with him. I remember how I use to feel if I went out with my friends without him - guilt... but then when I was with him.. we wouldn't be doing anything or we wouldn't be having fun. How do I put this? When I was with him it was like I was being held back. He didn't know how to appreciate life or be happy. I despise people like that. People that take things for granted - that can't smile and be happy - that basically drown everyone elses happiness. I'm glad he cheated; I'm glad because I didn't know what I was missing when I was with him - experiencing real happiness. To be honest I don't think he brought me all that much real happiness. He gave me happiness materialisticly by buying me expensive thing but that didn't make me truly happy. 

Enough about that though. That's not what this entry is about.

So here is what happened/what my thoughts are/where I am since my last entry (well mostly only the past 6 months really because otherwise I'd be here way too long):

• I'm now in what is suppose to be my final year at uni.. but obviously I'll be there a little longer because I failed a few units last semester. I can't believe it to be honest. It's quite scary but rather exciting at the same time.
• I was hurt a lot by 2 people (for different reasons and different situations) but in the end that turned out for the better
• In the past 6 months I've gone clubbing nearly every Saturday night.
• In the past 6 months I've taken so many photos I don't even know when some of them were taken anymore.
• In the past 4 or so months I started drinking alcohol and have gotten drunk nearly every second weekend.
• The Valentines day that just passed was the first V-Day where I received anything (weird because it's probably one of the only years I've been single on v-day in awhile). It was really special in fact.
• I am single now because I am not ready to be in any relationships after what happened last year. Although this feeling is starting to fade a bit.
• I have met many beautiful people (and some not so beautiful..) that I want to keep in my life forever.
• I've spent way too much money!!
• I've become more expensive...
• I still have not gotten my drivers license yet (I'm working on it ok.. lol)
• I now work at JB Hi Fi.. it gives me great staff discounts :D!!
• I've become a little bit of a heartbreaker..
• I still watch KDrama (when I can be bothered/when I have time)
• I failed 3 units - never failed any before this and I just HAD to fail 3 of them all at the same time huh?  !!
• I had my heart broken.
• I lost some friends but gained others.
• I turned 21 and then recently I had my 22nd birthday (omfg I'm getting old!)
• I became a facebook whore.. lol..
• Became a size "0".. though I'm starting to get fatter again lol.
• Learnt to say NO.
• Learnt that I can get what I want and shouldn't EVER settle for less.
• Became more of a geek
• Got myself a pink ds! woohoo!! (best handheld console EVER)
• Got a WII!! (for free MUAHAHA)
• Became Louis Vuitton obsessed.
• My wardrobe has become so full I don't have enough hanging space to hang my clothes anymore...

Ah I'll.. add more in my next post =) I'm becoming dizzy just looking at that list. Haha.

Hmm so KDramas. I've watched a few in the past year. I've grown to really like the "Soulmates" OST. I don't know why.. I guess I'm into indie-ish kind of music?! But yeah it has a few strange songs.. but I've grown to really love it lol. The drama itself was pretty good as well. Though I thought some of the characters lacked a little bit. I don't actually know what I've watched in the past year haha. I recently finished watching "In-Soon is Pretty" which I thought could have been made a lot better. Maybe my expectations have become too high? I tried to watch Goong (Princess Hours) but for some reason I just can't seem to get past episode 2.. I just can't get into it... In the past I was able to force myself to finish watching drama.. but not anymore lol.

Anyhoo.. I think I should probably hit the books again...! It felt.. rather comforting writing all this.. although all that was written here is not all I have to say.. there is still so much more to come.. I guess my famed "essay writing" entries are going to make a come back lol.