People have lost their minds!  The sad thing is I feel that I'm being dragged down deeper and deeper into it.  People suck.

So I have made an effort to be more social and I decided that I am tired and will once again retreat to the peace and quiet of my apartment.

I tried (not really but I tell myself I did).

I think I need to get back in shape and be soooo on point for the start of the school year that it will be scary... I mean I was already informed today that I was scary so why not make it legit?!

I'm 2 feet tall.  How could I possibly be scary?  People suck.

"I look way too good to be stuck wit you!"

Remy Ma, right on girl.

I feel that this song is an accurate description of why I have been MIA from society.  Is that rude?  Don't care.

However, I feel Skee-Lo is more accurate.

"I wish I was a little bit taller.  I wish I was a baller."

I clearly have issues.

back when my life was dull, much like it is now, i use to write poetry

i think i'll do that again

i also started writing a book or something that i feel might turn into a book

decided that i can't be a bum

i'm so used to being productive and overextended that sitting around is not working out

i could practice parallel parking

I could recap this semester: the ups, the downs, the drinks that went down and those that came back up, the tears, the laughter, the laughter that turned into tears and vice versa, the wishes and regrets, the friends that became less and those that became more...

but that's tiresome

I'm over it.

I could look forward to I know not what but something, whatever that lies ahead...

but that's always disappointing

and I'm over that too.

I'd just like to preach for a hott second.  Drugs are not cool, and they are not cute.  They are not a diet system, they are not a study aid.  They are simply a distraction to any belief or goal once had.  Yes there are several forms of drugs so I'm not just judging you, I'm judging myself now too. 

I can't be everywhere at once.  I more-than-likely will not be there to witness the continuation of your downward spiral, to catch you when you fall because you will, to pick up your scattered pieces or console those that love you who have been scarred by your selfish actions.  I'm not telling you what to do because we all know that that would be a waste of my breath.  Just be aware.  You have to be aware of yourself.

For this to be even, lets make a deal.  I'll stop drinking if you stop using...

deal?