Well... I'm single again, have been for a while, just haven't been on xanga for a while. Can't remember when I became single again... Don't like to think about it that much... I feel bad because I screwed an amazing friendship that would probably still be incredibly strong if not for my wanting a relationship... We both did stuff we regret, but I know for a fact that mine far out-weigh hers... Partly because I hold myself to a higher standard, probably even to the point of unrealism... But for someone like me, if I don't expect so much of myself, my whole life falls apart... I know because it has happened before... I just wish I could realize that my standards for myself are not those of others'... So I'm just going to try to keep my mouth shut unless asked for "advice"... Cause I need to learn how to give true, constructive criticism...
Yeah... I'm still hurting... But I am getting better... I am making the commitment right now to all of you who read this that I will not chase after any relationship with a girl (other than that of friendship) unless God pretty much just drops it right in my lap... So I am asking you, no matter who you are, to keep me as accountable as possible to this commitment... Because I'm sick of being hurt, and I DO NOT want to hurt anybody like I did again!
Thanks,
- DREW
Chatboard (3)