Wow, I really suck at keeping this more up to date....

I've opened the page where you write the stuff to add an entry a couple of times, and then deleted it, I dunno why.  Silly.

God is so good! During break, I really wanted to take time and read, and relax, and connect with some people from home.  I guess I did maybe two of those things, didn't really accomplish many of those goals.  So anyway, I've had some great conversations with friends and some great times! God has opened doors so that I can talk to my dad about some stuff, really amazing! I'm just awed at how God places things right in front of me, like opportunities that I didn't create, God just plopped them in my lap! He is good, and I feel so totally worthless and unworthy of all that He does!  And yes, I am unworthy, I so totally do not deserve to to to... even be living! But only by the grace of God do I have worth, He has been reminding me of that lately! By His blood and by His mercy and His grace, do I continue living. I want to do all these things with my life, but really He wants to do more with it! I am so excited to see where He places me, and I believe that He is doing a work in me and leading me.  While I hesitate with all the logistics of things, He does'nt worry, and neither should I! God, You are good, and Your love endures forever!  You continue to bless me, even when I do absolutely nothing to deserve it! And i mean it, during break, i've been doing nothing. Nothing of worth. It's funny how we (well, I) put so much value into being busy and seeming to look productive, and well, maybe worthy of the grace that God offers.  But I don't need to.  Funny. And amazing that God still desires to do a good work in me.  Praise Him from whom all blessing flow!

And to my roommies, I am so excited to see you! (And by roommies, that still means Lisa, cause you will always be my roommie, and Bess too, cause well, yea.)

Currently Listening Sunsets & Sushi By David Crowder Band see related

So on Friday night, I saw the Chronicles of Narnia, and it was the stinkin' best movie I have seen in a long time!! It was so amazing! A couple of times I realized that I wasn't breathing! Haha, but anyway, it's right up there with Lord of the Rings right now.  Did you know that C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkein were friends?  And I am so happy that Disney didn't tone down the symbolism of Christ in it, I was greatly releaved!  They actually added a couple of the things that I think just enhanced the message! Sweet!  The way that Aslan was portrayed, oh man, he was powerful, and wise and good!  And of course, he is not tame! "Of course he's not safe, but he's good!"  I encourage anyone to see it, and if you don't have anyone to go with, I will go with you! I would love to see it again!  I'll sit next to you and drool over it! 

Oh, also, just something sweet... Thursday was a vault day, and I went over the bar for the first time! It was amazingly fun! I'm really excited to go to practice tomorrow! Yea!

Also, the service at First Free was amazing, Pastor Holt is finishing up a study on Ephesians, one of my favorite books!  Today it was chapter 6, and after coming from camp where the theme was the Armor of God, I wasn't looking forward to it too much, because I think I've heard just about every analogy about it.  But of course, the Holy Spirit never ceases His work, and the sermon opened my eyes to things that have not been going so well in my spiritual walk, like the practice of confession. And the conviction wasn't so much that of feeling like a failure, but that Jesus Christ desires that we be freed from the trap of sin, and that we find our worth and glory in Him alone, and be released from the spiritual bondage of Satan.  I am amazed at the power of our God, He is so worthy, and so GOOD! I pray that you all may know this too, know His amazing love and glory!

Grace and peace!

Currently Listening Hold You High By By the Tree see related

So, my last entry was kinda depressing, I just wrote it because I hadn't written anything for quite a while.  I usually try not to write about what's going on in my life, but what God is doing in my life.  And at that time, I guess you could say that it was a "dry time."  The Screwtape Letters talk about how they put their patients through "troughs."  I definitly felt the "trough" last week.  But then later in the book, the demons talk about how awful it is when their patients realize that these "troughs" aren't permanent, and that they loose their hold on us when we know that the dry times do not last! So that's where I was, and then on Thursday, there was Intervarsity.  I didn't feel like going, but I did.  And it was there that I realized that I had been holding onto myself and my plans and hopes so tightly, and during worship (my roommate Aimi did worship, it was awesome! Great job!) God gently whispered to me, "Let it go, seek Me, I am worthy!"  And it was the first time in a while, that I laid down myself, and worshipped the God of the Ages!  Matthew 11:28 says "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." 

I was also reading in Isaiah 30, "'Ah, stubborn children,' declares the Lord, 'who carry out a plan, but not mine, and who make an alliance, but not of my Spirit, that they may add sin to sin; who set out to go down to Egypt, without asking for my direction, to take refuge in the protection of Pharaoh and to seek shelter in the shadow of Egypt!"  God kinda hit me over the head with that one, that I am seeking to make my own plans, and while I desire to glorify God through them, I am not nesessarily seeking out His wisdom and direction on them.  I "make plans to go to Egypt" but do not seek His direction.  And I still do not know where God wants me next year, or this summer, or even tomorrow, but I trust in His faithfulness!

Currently Watching Pride and Prejudice (Special Edition) see related

sorry I suck at keeping this up to date.  Oh well, too bad.  So, not a whole lot is new with me, I registered for classes today, yikes!! I'm taking indoor rock climbing!!! That will be amazingly fun!! But I still don't really know what to major in, so I'm taking general classes, more general classes! This is about the third year that I'm taking general college classes! Bah!  Whatever.  I just need to pick a major.  Or pick a school....

Thanksgiving was fun, dinner-small, coffee house at church- small and hardwork!!  I got put in charge of the kitchen, so I had to buy all the stuff and make people work! Fun fun!  It was fun to hang out with Kellah a bunch, we went shopping the day after Thanksgiving, that was sweet.  And we slept a lot.  That was wonderful fun!!

Oooh, I got new track spikes yesterday, and I got to wear them today at pole vault practice.  FYI, I suck at pole vault.  It's one of those things that you have to have done all through high school, and I didn't!! So maybe I'll just focus more on hurdles, we'll see.

In this time of being just plain busy, I have had little time to get into the Word, and to take time for God, and not focusing on myself, so I don't have much to say about that... But that God is GOOD!!  He is not safe, but He is GOOD!! I'm loving the Chronicles of Narnia right now, and all the symbolism of Jesus Christ crucified as Aslan! It's amazing!

Bess just called me an "injun."      Oh, that Pride and Prejudice isn't the new one, it's the old A&E version that I watched during spring break 2 years ago with Ruthie, Nomes, and Anna, when Kel was in California.  Still good tho.

Currently Listening The Way I Am By Jennifer Knapp see related

I really don't have much to say, I am just procrastinating because I don't want to do homework!  However, I did discover a new way to study! That was exciting, you see, I have a quiz on the muscles of the wrist and fingers and thumb, so I wrote them all on my arm and they're color coded by the actions they perform.  Don't worry, the quiz is on Thursday, so it will wash off by then, I'm not a cheat.  Hopefully this will work, cause my quizzes haven't been going so very well.

Oooh! I got a crab for my birthday from my lovely roommate Aimi!! I named him Sebastian Fabio Bach.  I let him run around my desk the other day, and then he freaked me out because he came out of his shell, so I put him back in his cage.

OOOH! I learned how to pole vault today!! It was super fun! So far I get to use a little pole, so it's not that cool.  But soon I hope to graduate to the regular long poles. There's a lot of form to remember, and I always point my toe.  But you're supposed to flex!! It's sooo hard to remember that!!

Anyway, have a wonderful day!!