| | -sigh-I'm alright.
For the most part. I backed off of Jacob because I could tell it was wearing on him...He doesn't love me or want me anymore so it's not worth fighting so hard for. It's just back to picking up the pieces of me that have fallen apart over these 5 months. Same thing I've been doing for so long.
Every time he's back I fall apart and then have to put myself back together. I think it's so funny that one person could have such a big effect on me. But I guess that's how it is when you really love someone.
I feel like it's fading away now. It's fading but it won't die. A good friend of mine told me that it should be put on the back burner...but it's not so simple.
I haven't talked to Jacob in like 2 days. I've been pretty occupied I guess...not really. I don't feel anything anymore. I feel numb. I feel like I'm mad at the world...but the world hasn't done anything to me. It's the people in it that wear on me.
I don't believe I'm depressed. I'm not even upset...I'm just kind of down. When so many people tell you how awesome you are and how much of a good person you are...why is it that I'm alone? I know you can't always get what you want but I don't like the way I feel. I have so much love to give and share...but no one there to accept it.
Someone needs to save me from myself.
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| | Posted 6/4/2008 12:49 PM - 17 views - 0 comments
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