Whats my problem?
I recently came to the realization that in things that involve competition, people usually only care about beating me. It doesnt matter if they get first place, the point is to beat me. Examples include: fantasy basketball/football and video games. Regardless of the outcome, usually people just want to make sure I'm not first and that I get the lowest possible outcome. This may have something to do with my pride, my competitive nature and my trash talking. All things that I'm trying to work on.
However, I think I secretly enjoy this hatred. It pushes me to prove others wrong. I'm messed up. If you think you know why, please let me know.